Chapter 9: Running running running
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**Lillys POV**
I run, and run, and run, until I cant even feel my legs. I know that Derek is following me but I dont care. Its pitch black out and I finally stop at a creek and lay down on my side panting. I hear Derek trot up but I dont even look at him. "Luna, we need to head back." I hear him say in my head and nudge me. My wolf loves the touch but doesnt want his. "Okay." I respond and stand up shaking out my fur. We walk back to the pack house in silence and when we get close I can smell him. I stop in my tracks. Her body isnt there anymore. I cant even think her name. I dont know WHY I lost it. Why I wanted to kill her. "Come here." I hear his voice echo. I dont want to goto him but I do. He tosses clothes to the ground in front of me. I look back at Derek and he nods and I quickly shift and change into the clothes. I dont meet his eyes. I hear him walk slowly towards me and it takes all I have not to step away. I feel his hands land on my shoulders and it feels like 1000lbs. "I know why you did it and its my fault." The tears spring to my eyes, tears I had been trying to hold back since I ran from the arena. "Look at me sweetheart." I pull my eyes up and meet his electric blue eyes. "I should have told you about Sofie, I had told Sofie whatever we had was over. I LOVE you, and if I was in your shoes and seen what you seen I would have killed her as soon as she touched me." He is speaking in such a caring voice that it went straight to my heart. The tears are now streaming down my face faster than ever and I cant even talk. Ryland pulls me into his arms and picks me up. I sob into his chest as he carry's me into the house. Instead of taking me to his room though he takes me to the room I had unpacked my things in earlier. He sets me down on the bed and then climbs in behind me. "W-w-why are you b-being so n-n-nice to me? Y-y-you w-was c-crying." I manage to stutter out. I feel him shake his head and regret floods through our mate bond. "I was crying because I was the reason you had to do that. I wasnt crying over her." He tells me and I just snuggle into him more. My wolf needs her mate and I just want to feel Rylands arms around me. Slowly I drift off to sleep wrapped in Rylands arms, and just try not to think about what happened.
I wake up to the smell of bacon and eggs and my stomach growls, and I groan. "Hungry?" I hear Rylands deep voice from beside me. "Mmhmm." I say and sit up. When I do all the memories come flooding back to me. "Hey hey hey, no. Dont even think about yesterday, you did nothing wrong." He kisses my head and then gets up and starts stretching. I cant help but watch him. The way his muscles ripple over his back and his arms flexing as he moves. It takes everything I have to pull my eyes away and walk to the bathroom and start the shower. I step in and cant wait to wash off all the grime from yesterday. I hear Ryland walk into the bathroom but dont think anything about it when he steps in the shower behind me. "You coulda waited for me." He whispers in my ear and a shiver runs down my spine. I dont say much as we quickly shower and get out and dry off. I throw on some clothes still feeling the weight of what happened on my shoulders. What is Rylands pack going to think of their new Luna? "They will respect her!" My wolf chimes in but I dont listen. We walk to the dinning room where dinner had been the night before. All the seats are taken by the same enforcers from last night also. When we walk into the room they all stand and start clapping. My eyes go wide in shock. Standing behind me Ryland ushers me forward and as I pass by the men bow their head in respect and I know my wolf was right. I make it to my seat and Ryland holds it out for me and I sit. Servants soon come out and give us our plates. "Thank you." I say as a young women sets the plate in front of me. "No Luna, thank you." Then shes gone. I see Derek and watch him stand while holding a huge glass of orange juice. "Cheers to our Luna!" He yells and is greeted with shouts and hollars. "To our Luna!" I cant even process what all is happening but a smile creeps across my face.
I scarf my food down like I hadnt ate in years. I jump when Ryland squeezes my hand. I see concern flash though his eyes but its gone just as fast as it came. Once breakfst is over I follow Ryland to his office and take a seat across from his desk. "You can come sit over here." He says with a sly smile on his face but I can see in his eyes he expects my rejection. "Im fine over here." I say quietly and pick at the holes in my jeans. I hear him release a defeated breath and I look up. "We need to talk this trough. I cant do this gap between us, not after our stay at the hotel, not after marking each other. I know how youre feeling, I know the distrust you have for me now and I want to know how to fix it." He says and places his hands on his desk. I stare at him and can see the hard willed alpha and also my sweet mate. "I cant look at you without seeing her on you. I can smell her around the house, and im sure her scent is all over your room." I say not to sure of myself. "Okay, I can work with this. I will have my room completely stripped and ill get rid of the bed, and get everything new." He says with determination in his voice. I know im acting like a child but I dont care. "What else can I do? Ill do it, ill do anything to get us back to how we was." He says with hope in his eyes. I slowly shake my head and meet his eyes."Ryland I was married off to someone who is used as the monster in childrens stories. I pushed all that aside and I let you in to give you a chance because I seen something else in you. All you had to do was tell me about her, about what i was walking into, but you didnt. I dont know if I can trust you, what else am I going to find out, is another woman going to walk in and climb in your lap?" I aks some anger seeping into my voice. He quickly shakes his head and answers. "I know I should have told you, I was so happy you excepted me, I didnt even think about her. I dont expect you to just forgive me, but I am going to try everything I can to show you how genuine I am and how I wont lie to you again." I search his eyes and all I see is honesty. I nod my head but stay in my seat across from him as he starts his work. With all that being said Ryland and I spent the rest of the evening starting our relationship over, no secrets just raw honesty. Honesty, that is all I want from Ryland and it seems now we are on the same page.
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