Silently Falling

Chapter 3

You know when the sadness and pain in you reaches its peak and you begin to feel emotionless and numb?

I was at that stage presently, everything around me was blank and I couldn’t even differentiate day from night anymore because I hadn’t left Bethany’s spare room since three nights ago.

“Mabel get your ass out of that room and have a shower you stink” Beth called out from the door

“Leave me alone” I said , submerging my face in the pillow.

“I’ll rip the door off if you don’t let me in this minute”she shouted. I heard her sigh and her voice suddenly softened.

“Mabel come on, I want to see you, you need your best friend more now than ever, allow me to be there for you”

I finally got up from the bed and unlocked the door. I dived back into the bed immediately without sparing her a glance. She sat on the bed and brought me closer to her chest ,carefully caressing me.

I let it all out…

I soaked her pj’s with my tears, every single thing that happened that night kept replaying in my head all over again and the pain got fresher and newer with each second.

“What did I ever do wrong to deserve this”

“Shh it’s okay, it wasn’t your fault and anyone with a normal functioning brain can tell you are the sweetest and kindest person. Don’t ever blame yourself for this” Bethany soothed

“How could Toby do this to me”? I said in between sobs, if he was bored of me and wanted to try someone new did it have to be my sister?”

My phone rang for like the one hundredth time since Thursday, it kept ringing non stop.

Beth grabbed the phone aggressively and picked the call putting it on speaker, it was Toby.

“ Mabel please I’m loosing my mind, hear me out. It was all an accident I didn’t mean for it to happen”.

I shut my eyes tightly, this voice that used to give me butterflies now caused me pain and agony

“Toby or whatever the hell your name is, stay away from Mabel, she obviously does not want to talk to you and you’ve got some nerves calling her after doing something so disgusting”

“Shame on you Toby” Beth said with venom laced in her voice.

“Beth I really want to talk to Mabel, she’s still my girlfriend and I have an explanation for what happened, I was so drunk and when I saw Macy I thought she was Mabel I didn’t know,I was having a hard time”

“To hell with you and your explanations, I’m not interested in whatever you have to say from your gutted mouth” Beth said finally before ending the call.

When he kept calling and calling I removed the SIM card from the phone and threw it away.

“I don’t mean to say this but I had always seen right through Macy”. Beth said

I sniffled

“Macy had always been jealous of you” Beth said nodding her head

“Why would she be jealous of me?, she’s the one who’s popular and Is the queen bee, she’s obviously the prettier twin too”

“There might be an iota of truth in what you just said, but she’s never had any meaningful and purposeful relationships.” She’s been always jealous of what you and Toby shared.

“If you ask me, I think this was all her master plan, she did this on purpose and she orchestrated everything from the beginning” Beth finished.

This was too much to comprehend and convey, I never thought Macy was jealous of me. We weren’t your stereotypical twin sisters who braided each other’s hair, wore the same outfit ,and went everywhere together but we always respected and cared for each other.

She was my sister after all and I never thought she was capable of doing something like this, sisters weren’t supposed to inflict pain on each other .

I knew I could never do anything to hurt her so I thought she had the same ideology since we just had each other after the death of our parents.

I was so wrong after all; I wouldn’t even do that to someone I considered an enemy much more my own twin sister.

Macy’s betrayal hurt me even more because she was my flesh and blood.