Being His Mate

Chapter 17

He stilled, his eyes searching my face, a guilty expression on his.

"I'm sorry." he apologized again and I clenched my hands into fists, "Stop apologizing." I reply coldly, turning around and walking towards my car.

Damn him.

Damn my father.

Damn Sophia for making me wait for her when she's not going to catch a ride after all!

Damn everyone!

I got in my car, slamming it shut in the process and shoved the key before speeding off, my foot is pressed on the pedal hard while hands clench the steering wheel tight that my knuckles turned white.

I took a left going straight for home when I blanked.

That's where Sean would look for me first, I took a U-turn and headed to... I don't know.

I just drove, my foot still pressed on the pedal.

I didn't know what I was thinking, why I'm speeding when I know what could happen, I could die.

Like what happened to Tommy, I sighed in frustration, slowing down but it was too late.

Because of my recklessness I hit another car where a family is in.

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I sit in a white room in the hospital, my leg and wrist broken while my head has five stitches, my good leg's knee bounced up and down while I look around the room in frustration.

I'm not afraid of hospitals... I'm used to it actually.

I'm just worried for the family that I hit, are they still alive or did I kill someone again?

Tears welled up in my eyes when I remember Tommy or killing again.

My father bursts in the room, his eyes wide while Sophia also bursts in, her hair in a frenzy. I would have laughed at her appearance but the pain in my skull is stopping me.

Sophia sighed and went up to me to hug me, "Thank God you're okay." she mumbled while pulling away and running a hand through the big ass bruise on my forehead.

I winced and she apologized and took a step back for my father to replace her spot, he glared at me, "What were you thinking? You know what happened before! Now you did it again! At least you didn't kill that family or else I wouldn't know how to get you out of prison!" he yelled and I winced.

I feel like I'm drunk, when I'm not.

Like I'm floating on a cloud while I'm high in the same time.

I felt guilty but it turned into anger, "You can't blame me for what happened before! You know it was an accident and you still blame it on me! Well I'm sorry for not being the perfect daughter!" I yell back and he gave me a cold stare, like he used to.

"Because of you, I lost my son!" He yelled that I think the room had a little earthquake, I heard the door softly close so Sophia must have fled.

"Well because of you I lost my mother! It wasn't my fault that your precious son got killed! I'm sorry that I wasn't the one who died in the accident!" I hissed at him and his expression softened.

"Emily-"

"Shut up." I snap, "You put the blame on me, I lost my brother too." I said coldly, "But while at that I lost my mother because of your cheating!"

"I accepted Tommy even if he was only my half brother! I accepted him! I didn't push him away! I didn't do anything in purpose to cause him harm! I protected him!"

I paused glaring at him, "When I lost my mother because you cheated on her with a wh0re who left Tommy in your doorstep. A wh0re who couldn't love her own son! The wh0re you knocked up, while cheating on your wife in the process!"I exploded.

I must have been red but I didn't care, I'm just yelling my lungs out and pouring all the anger stored.

"But guess what? Mom still accepted you." I snorted, "She still loved you even when you cheated on her behind her back, but you still did it again, knocking another wh0re up in the process." I sighed, "You killed my mother." I whispered, glaring at him.

You killed my mother.

She isn't dead, but when mom knew that dad cheated again, she was blank, she was like dead but breathing. She started to drink and forget the pain.

"You're the reason why I went to a club at night with Tommy to pick up my drunk mom, you're the reason why mom drunk until she got wasted, you're the reason why my mother and brother was killed. So don't think to point fingers when it's all your fault!"

He's silent after my rant and a tear slipped down on his cheek, "I'm sorry."

I scoffed, "I'm tired hearing that, "I'm sorry." " I mocked with a roll of my eyes, my head pounding but I focused on my anger towards my father.

"Nothing can fix what's already done." I said glaring at him.

That night I was still so young and Timmy was just two but I went to the bar mom went using the tracker on her phone, I didn't know how we got in the bar but somehow Tommy and I did. We searched for mom until we found her at a table with guys around her when she saw us she grew blank and stood up, pushing past the guys and pulling our arms, taking us outside where the wind blew hard making Timmy shiver.

I still remember that day, clearly. I mean, how can you forget how your mother and brother died when it happened right in front of you.

Mom was silent when she opened the car door and nodded for us to go in, rain started pouring but mom started to engine and started to drive.

I knew she's drunk but I was too scared that she might snap at me so I shut up, just looking at her face while she drove fast and drove left and right, swerving lanes.

You can't see the rode clearly but mom didn't care at the moment she's drunk.

It's not her fault, it's dad's.

It all happened in slow motion, a motorcycle drove past us and mom swerved left, making me slide and hit the car's door while Timmy flew forward.

I stared, wide-eyed, mom's head hit the car's window blood pouring down and a cut on her cheek.

Blood.

There was so much blood.

Timmy flew forward his body and head slamming forward and his eyes closed, I think I screamed but I couldn't hear anything everything was just ringing and I blanked out, I just took in everything when we were on our way to the hospital.

Then I closed my eyes.

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When I woke up, mom's alive but in a coma, Timmy... He's dead and dad blamed it on me.

It should have been mom's fault, I wasn't the one drunk driving but it is also dad's fault because mom wouldn't get drunk if he wouldn't have cheated on her.

I thought what did mom do wrong for dad to cheat on her.

She was the perfect wife, caring, understanding, loving and funny. She always smiled, I never saw her frown or glare, she always laughed that always brought joy to my ears.

But when she woke up from the coma of two weeks she didn't smile, laugh, or even look at me with loving eyes.

She was blank.

Ruby also blamed me for what happened to mom and she was happy about Timmy, I grew angry at her too.

She's just like dad.

Cruel and cold.

Timmy didn't do anything, it wasn't his fault that his father is a cheating bastard and his mom is a f****d up wh0re.

We stayed that way for a few months, mom blank, dad still cheating and Ruby angry at me. I didn't care at least about her anger, What I did was taking care of mom because she couldn't take care of herself.

But one day when I woke up.

She was gone.