Her chosen mate (The change series 2)

Chapter 29: Who are you now?

Natasha

Dad had disappeared off somewhere which I found weird as hell because he never went anywhere without mum, wherever she was he wanted to be too.

It was late when he returned, and I saw him from my bedroom window pulling up in Kai’s car with Kai in the passenger seat, it wasn’t until Kai climbed out that I saw all the blood, he was covered in it from head to toe.

I panicked at the sight, had dad hurt him again? I didn’t think so because I saw them hug before they went their separate ways, I squinted for a better look but from up here I couldn’t tell if the blood was his own or someone else’s.

When dad walked in, I rushed down the stairs and asked, “what happened, where have you been, why is Kai covered in blood?”

He threw Kai’s keys on the side and looked at me, “woah, calm down, it’s alright.”

“What happened?” I asked.

Sighing he ran his hand through his curls and said, “I think Kai would appreciate it if I let him tell you, but give him time, talk to him tomorrow, he needs to be alone right now.”

“What does that mean?” I asked, panic in my voice.

He came over and pulled me into his arms, “it’s ok darling, I promise you he is ok, do you trust me?”

I nodded against his chest and he stroked my hair, “then trust when I tell you he is fine, everything is ok.”

It was difficult trying to get any sleep that night, in the end I didn’t care about how childish it was, I jumped in between mum and dad, usually dad growled in annoyance when I did that, but tonight he didn’t say anything, he pulled me in close and let me lay my head on his chest, playing with my hair until I was able to relax and finally fall asleep.

I don’t even think it was seven in the morning before I was up and out the door and running down to Kai’s door, I didn’t stop banging on it until he finally opened it, looking half asleep and sexy as hell.

“What the hell?” He asked groggily, his honey blonde hair was a tousled wavy curly mess falling into tired pretty grey eyes, so light they were almost silver. He was wearing bed trousers with a white t-shirt and leaning his arm against the doorway staring at me, he rose an eyebrow and bit his lower lip, something he did out of habit I noticed, but it looked incredibly hot whenever he did it, I realised to my mortifying shame that he was waiting for me to stop checking him out and explain what I was doing there.

How embarrassing, he must be used to girls doing this all the time, even the older ladies did it like they did with dad, but they tried not to stare too much because they thought dad and Kai were too young, pfft, half the time the men were the same age sometimes older, but they looked no older than their late twenties.

I became a stuttering mess, I stumbled over my words trying to think of something to say, but my brain had turned itself off. “Uh, I uh, I came to ask, uh, well, I forgot, I think it was…” I trailed off, what the heck had I come here for? My cheeks were burning with bashfulness and embarrassment.

He laughed softly and said, “why don’t you come in and think about it while I get you a drink?”

I nodded gratefully and went in and sat down on the sofa. I looked over to the dirty wash basket and saw the bloodied clothes, oh yes, now I remembered.

He handed me a glass of orange juice and I looked at his face, I couldn’t see any injuries to explain the blood, was he hurt somewhere else?

“Can I?” He asked, he gestured at the seat beside me and I nodded.

Sitting down, he asked, “so what brought you over here so early?”

“I saw you last night with dad, you were covered in blood, what happened? I asked dad, but he said you would probably want to tell me yourself.”

He sank back against the sofa, clasping his hands behind his head, and looked up at the ceiling. “I don’t know where to begin.”

“The start?” I suggested.

He turned his head to look at me and muttered, “alright, smart mouth. I guess you already hate me and don’t want me back, so telling you can’t make things any worse between us.”

“You’re freaking me out, Kai, talk.”

“I went to Claire’s, I wanted to get her phone and prove to you it was edited, that she hid the full version, that was all I wanted to do, but…” he trailed off and leaned forward, resting his arms on his legs and letting his hands hang down between them, he kept his head down and carried on, “I tripped on a table leg, I made noise, she freaked out and ran into the woods behind her house, I chased, you know how that goes with us, I shifted to the wolf when I lost her and…let’s just say I lost control.”

My heart sped up and with a breathy voice, I calmly asked, “lost control how? What did you do exactly?”

“Exactly?” He asked in a sheepish tone, “I chased her, hunted her down, killed her…I might have eaten some of her too.”

“Kai!” I yelled.

“I’m sorry!” He yelled back, blocking my hits and slaps and the pillows I threw at him.

“You know never to shift around humans for that very reason!”

“I know, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to kill her.”

“You didn’t want to, did you?”

“No!” He said, voice raised, but the tone grew quieter towards the end of the word, as if he were unsure.

I looked him in the eyes, and I saw dad staring back at me, it was like Kai was trying to act the part of a remorseful guy, trying to say all the right things, but his eyes were cold and unemotional, like I was staring the wolf in the face and not Kai.

I knew in that moment exactly why dad had wanted Kai as his second in command, before I hadn’t understood why he would choose an omega, but now, right now, I saw exactly why, he was a lot more like dad than anyone realised.

That didn’t mean he was evil, there was no enjoyment in his eyes, no pleasure from what he had done, just that same logical look I only ever saw in dads eyes, perhaps a little less cold and empty, the wolf, Kai was more wolf like too then? That was a shock, he had always been so down to earth, playful, the joker in the pack, someone kind and that you felt you could confide in about anything.

“You think I’m a monster, don’t you?” He asked.

I shook my head, “no, you lost control of yourself, being a werewolf we have to accept that it happens sometimes, but that doesn’t mean I’m ok with what you did, that’s the sort of thing I would expect from my dad not you, not gentle, sweet, kind Kai.”

“I’m still that guy, I f.ucked up, it will never happen again, it’s not like I’ve suddenly gotten the taste for human flesh, it was just one dark moment in my life where I lost myself, trust me, I never want to lose myself like that again.”

I relaxed a little hearing his words and he asked, “do you want me even less now? Are we done for good?”

Just hearing him say those words hurt my heart, panic set in, but I tried to stay composed and answered, “did you get the phone?”

“You still need the proof that she means nothing to me when I ate the woman?”

“Kai, that’s not funny!”

“Sorry, you know I use humour to deal with dark s.hit. Yes, I’ve got it.”

He pulled out her phone, it didn’t take long for him to find the video and show me the real version, and I felt huge relief, an odd feeling when I had just been talking to my ex-boyfriend about the fact he murdered and ate someone, but we were werewolves we didn’t exactly think or behave like humans, I did feel bad, but I wasn’t horrified and grief stricken over the news, violence was an everyday part of a werewolf’s life.

“Do you still want me after all the awful things I said about you?” I whispered, handing him the phone back.

“There is nothing you could say or do that would ever make me want or love you less, Natasha, you are my mate, my lifetime mate whether you want me or not.”

I smiled and he pulled me into his arms.

Just because we had talked things over it didn’t mean things were perfect again, it took time, we dated, we took things slow, and we kept an eye on the news, a month had passed by and there had been no reports of Claire’s death. Odd, very odd.

When the pack had found out what Kai had done they hadn’t rejected him like he had worried, pack didn’t do that to one another, they were understanding and supported him, but I did notice they were slowly growing more wary around him, more afraid even, I could literally see the shift in the pack, the ranks changing not only in name but in how they treated Kai, it was no longer quite so ‘buddy’ and ‘playful’ now they were treating him more like how they did dad, now he was truly second in command to everyone, even Charlie and Reese who had always teased him for being a weak omega.

Did this change make me feel differently about Kai? I think sometimes it did, not in a bad way, I know I would always love him, but I had originally fallen in love with his playful and sweet omega personality, I hadn’t planned on dating someone like my father, cold, callous, scary, that was mum’s thing not mine. I wanted someone who would be gentle with me, playful, kind, silly, someone who would love showing me affection and not be afraid to show it in front of others.

We were sitting in Kai’s place one evening when he looked over at me and asked, “what’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” I tried to smile, but he said, “talk to me Tasha, we agreed that for us to work there can be no more secrets or hiding how we feel.”

Sighing, I slouched down on the sofa and admitted, “I’m worried you’ll be too much like dad, I don’t want you to be cold and mean, certainly not towards me, I don’t want you to be uncomfortable showing me affection either in or out of the public eye.”

He gave me a playful frown and pulled me in against him, “don’t be silly, I haven’t changed that much, I’m still my silly goofy self, and you don’t know me very well if you think I would ever give up the chance to be affectionate…anywhere, I love me some affection,” he grinned and started giving me silly kisses all over my face making me giggle, he pulled back and murmured, “let me show you just how affectionate I can be.”

I let him push me down on the sofa, let him climb on top, kiss me, removing pieces of clothing as he did, I opened my legs, let him push himself inside of me and give me his full attention and affections.

It had been a while since we had been intimate, taking things slow meant we had kept to date nights and some cuddling, so now, with him inside of me, thrusting in and out, it felt so good, and it wasn’t very long at all until I was climaxing, moaning and crying out under him, I felt him spill hot come into me as he climaxed too, clearly it had been too long for him as well.

We cuddled up after, and he breathlessly laughed, “f***k, I needed that so bad.”

“I can tell!” I laughed, and cringed, seeing my face he looked down to between my legs and rose an eyebrow, “oh, wow, I came a lot.”

I nodded in agreement and he laughed.

“Uh, let me get you some tissue or something to clean up.”

I didn’t dare move, I could feel his ahem, man juice dripping down my thighs and I knew if I so much as sat up it would come gushing out like some damn river.

He returned with tissues and helped clean me up, still very much my Kai with his sweetness and thoughtfulness to want to help me.