Victoria Becker narrating:
— Pee on this thing here — Joana said, handing me a little box.
— I don't even need to pee right now — I said, opening the box.
— Turn on the bathroom faucet and watch the water flowing, you'll need to pee so fast that the flash will cry in the shower — Jô said, pushing me towards the bathroom.
— Alright.
I did as she said, not even thirty seconds of watching the water and I already felt the urge to pee, quickly urinated on that small object and left it on the sink.
— Done? — she asked, and I nodded. — Now all we have to do is wait.
We went back to the room and sat on the bed.
— I don't know what I'll do if it's positive — I said tearfully. — I don't have a stable life, I don't have the money to provide at least a comfortable life for this child.
— Calm down, everything has a purpose — she said comforting me. — If it's positive, it's because it was in God's plans.
— This child will suffer... I will suffer even more for not being able to give them what they want — I said. — It will hurt so much if one day my child asks me for something and I can't give it to them...
— Calm down, we don't know if it's true yet — she said, hugging me. — Everything in life has a purpose, maybe this happened so that finally your life can change, this might just be the beginning of your story.
— That was beautiful... but I didn't want to be going through this.
We kept talking until Joana finally got up and headed to the bathroom. We agreed that she would be the one to look first because I was scared.
— What's the result? — I asked nervously.
— Positive — she said, making my body go cold. I didn't collapse only because I was sitting.
— This must be a mistake — I said, feeling tears welling up in my eyes. — I can't raise this child, not in the conditions I'm in.
I felt my friend sit next to me and hug me.
— I know it's hard, that's why I'll support you in whatever decision you make — she said, stroking my hair. — If you want to have an abortion, that's okay, I'll support you. And if you want to raise this child, great, I'll continue to support you.
— I love you — I said.
— I love you too, my boo — she said.
[...]
I slept at her house and in the morning, I went back to my house to shower and dress for work.
Life doesn't stop, and it's not easy for anyone. I need to think carefully about what I'll do, as I might regret it in the future.
So I went to work, I vomited a lot and worked even more.
After work, I stopped by the market and bought a tub of ice cream. I don't indulge in buying these things usually, but I was craving it.
How strange, to think that there's a life... a human being inside of me.
On the way back home, I think about the possibility of raising the child. How would it be? Would I be a good mother? I don't even know how to take care of myself properly, let alone a baby.
Damn, this is so complicated.
— Finally, you're here — my father said. — Where were you?
— Working, you know what that is?— I asked, heading towards my room.
— Watch your mouth when you speak to me, you lazy bum — he said angrily. — You should have left with that other lazy bum, your
— At least we agree on something — I said seriously. — She really is a lazy bum, but if she had taken me with her, I would have gladly gone, at least I wouldn't have to put up with this. —
I entered my room, slamming the door.
I opened the small wooden window in my room to let the cold night air in. My house is very small, just a living room, a kitchen, two bedrooms, and a bathroom.
Everything simple, but neat, it used to be... now we have few pieces of furniture, as my father sold everything to buy drugs.
He even stole and sold my cellphone... I never managed to buy another one again.
I sit on the bed with my back against the headboard and open the little tub of strawberry sorbet, taking the first spoonful, savoring its wonderful taste.
I love ice cream, but with the little money I have, it has become a luxury, and often when I don't have money, I end up just yearning for it.
I finish that whole tub of ice cream and just stay there, only getting up to close the window and then lie down to sleep.
[...]
Marius Fitzy narrating:
Throughout these past weeks, everything has gone well, very well.
The new software was completed and launched, the new communication app already has nearly half a million downloads in just three days, thanks to our advanced security program.
Nowadays, it's hard to find secure and high-quality apps, so we always strive for the best, which ultimately makes us the best.
Recently, I also started a new venture; I want to expand Fitzy Technology to other countries, and there's an opportunity to open a new branch in the Netherlands.
I will be traveling for a few months to get everything organized. I am happy; all I ever wanted was to broaden my horizons, and now I have this opportunity.
But I feel like this happiness isn't complete; something is missing... could it be love?
My love life is a failure compared to my financial life; every day, I get richer, and I'm not sure if I'm happy. In reality, I'm happy to have money to buy what I want, but does money truly bring happiness?
People with money are surrounded by friends and many others, but it's all because of their money. I wonder what will happen when you have nothing; will you still have so many people in your life?
My life is like this, surrounded by opportunistic people who will do anything to extort my money.
I've been burned many times by this, and today I can say that for someone to deceive me, they have to be really good and convincing because I am more than immune to these kinds of people.
When you get burned many times, you learn to trust only yourself. My heart has never fallen in love either, and that's probably why my past relationships never worked out.
My mind is always focused on work as well, and for me, at the moment, That's all that matters.