Loving Mr. Elusive (COMPLETED)

Nine

Ilang oras na rin akong gising. Kaakap ko pa rin si Percival na nanginginig. I checked his temperature using my hand. Nakakapaso pa din ang init niya. Kumalas ako sa pagkaakap sa kanya at kinuha ang jacket sa kabilang kuwarto, tapos bumalik ako sa tabi niya. Bago ko inalok yun' jacket, inamoy ko muna kung amoy araw kasi nakakahiya naman ipa-suot ko na yun' jacket na mabaho.  It's a no-no pa naman for a lady to be stinky. Although in this circumstance, hindi na rin naman siya dapat mag-MRT (umarte) dahil he's feeling cold na.

"Wear this so you will feel warmer." Sabi ko sa kanya habang hawak ang jacket na pinahiram niya sa'ken kaninang umaga. He wore the jacket and pulled my hand as he was lying down. But I declined. Hinila ko lang ng kaunti yun' kumot para takpan yun' mga hita ko kasi naka-upo ako sa sahig ng pa-side view, parang mermaid kasi nga wala akong underwear.

Kinuha ko yun' underwear ko sa forehead niya para basain saka ipunas ulit sa mukha niya. Napatawa siya habang pinupunas ko yun sa mukha niya.

Nag-blush ako. Alam ko kasi kung bakit siya natatawa. It was because of my underwear.

"Baket ka natatawa? Mabango naman yun' underwear ko ha? Nilaban ko naman!" Defensive kong sabi.

Pinigilan niya ang pag-tawa. Sumimangot naman ako at hindi na tumingin sa kanya habang sinasawsaw ko ulit sa tabo yun' underwear tapos pinunas naman sa leeg niya dahil mainit din yun' leeg niya.

I felt soooo bleeding bad! Paano naman, I gave up na nga my underwear and comfort just for him, tapos tinatawanan niya ako at ang underwear ko. As if naman hindi nakakahiya yun' ginawa ko, para tawanan pa niya ako. If hindi lang ako sobrang natataranta sa kanya, at kung hindi ko lang siya love, nungka na i-sacrifice ko ang buong magdamag na walang underwear, diba? Hmp!

Hinawakan niya yun' kamay ko tapos hinalikan niya. 

"Sorry na baby," marahan niyang sabi at inabot yun' baba ko para iharap sa kanya kasi ayoko tumingin sa kanya.

Inalis ko yun' baba ko sa pagkahawak niya at hindi ako nag-salita. I still feel bad. One sorry won't make up for the fact that he bleeding laughed at me. I was so pikon pa naman when he does that to me. Bata pa lang kami, ang hilig na niyang gawin sa'ken yun! Yun' pinagtatawanan niya ako when I don't think nothing is funny with what I'm doing. I feel stupid kasi. I feel like he finds me ridiculous or non-sense! Issue ko pa naman yan sa sarili ko. Yun' parang my family treats me and my sister like fragile flowers. They treat us like princesses nga pero they also treat us like we do not have brains kaya they plan our lives for us, even our college courses, and send us to marry the guy of their choosing, like it's the best and wisest thing to do for us. They don't even consult us what my sister and I would want or feel.

And he's making me feel worse about it right about this moment. Hindi ko sinadya pero pumatak ang isang luha sa mata ko. Nakita niya yuon at akmang babangon dapat sa higaan.

"'Wag kang tatayo diyan if you don't want me to get mad." Banta ko sa kanya.

Hindi nga tumayo. Masunurin naman pala si Papa Pyke kahit na he makes me upset.

"Why are you crying? What did I do or say that offended you?" worried na tanong ni Pyke habang hawak ko yung isang braso niya tapos I folded the sleeves of his jacket para punasan yun' braso niya.

Hindi ako kumibo. Sinawsaw ko lang ulit yun' underwear sa tabo at binalingan naman yun' kabilang braso niya. He turned to his side facing my direction habang pinupunasan ko yun' isang braso niya. Nang matapos ako, inanlawan ko ulit ung underwear ko and put it in his palm.

Tumingin lang siya sa akin na may lungkot ang mga mata, tapos nilagay niya ulit sa noo.

"No," sabi ko. "You dampen your underarms so the heat will not stay there." Paliwanag ko sa kanya.

"Ang lamig, baby. Wag na." Tanggi niya. I insisted but he was so hardheaded kaya I took my underwear and soaked it again in water.  Then I asked him to pull his shirt a little up so I can do it. Ayaw pa rin niya kaya ako na ang gumawa. Itinaas ko yun' shirt niya and I literally froze for a second. Siya naman parang nahihiyang tinakpan ng kamay niya yun' abs niya. Saglit akong napapatitig duon.

'Rori, get a hold of yourself!' Sita ko sa sarili ko.

Pero, sumagot ang sarili ko. Kakagulat! Defensive naman ang sarili ko.

'Eh kasi naman, first time kong makakita ng totoong abs! Try mo kayang makakita ng totoong abs at abs pa ng mahal mo yun' nakikita mo, tingnan ko lang kung hindi ka ba naman talaga mag-laway!' Sinita ko ang thoughts ko dahil alam kong wild at sobrang creative ng imagination ko. Promise!

Napakurap ako sandali to cut what I was thinking. Si Percival naman ay nakatitig sa'ken tapos biglang bumulalas ng tawa.

"Oh, you're so cute, baby!" Anito at sabay hinila ako para yakapin. Nasa ibabaw na niya ako ngayon.  Nagtaka ako and asked why he laugned.

He repeated to me what I said. "You said something like...'eh kasi naman, first time kong makakita ng totoong abs! Try mo kayang makakita ng totoong abs at abs pa ng mahal mo yun' nakikita mo, tingnan ko lang kung hindi ka ba naman talaga mag-laway!'" He said verbatim.

Napatili ako sa kahihiyan. "Huwaaaat? Oh my bleeding vegetables! This is so embarrassing! Waaaah! Gusto ko na magpalamon sa earth! Huhuhu!"

Tinakpan ko talaga ang mukha ko sa sobrang hiya kahit akap na niya ako at nasa may leeg na niya ang mukha ko. He cupped my face and made me face him while I was still on top of him.

"Baby naman, don't be embarrassed na." He smiled at me. "I am actually flattered and I found it cute, don't you know? In fact, it turned me on..." his words trailed off and I confirmed what he said when I felt something poking in between us.

Oh my stars! My heart is racing! Breathe! Breathe! Breathe! Did I actually felt him bulge? And what's surprising is that it sent me a different kind of excitement! Is this really happening? Why does he have this effect on me?

Napatingin ako sa kanya kasi I felt him looking at me.

"I really want to kiss you right now," pag-amin niya.

"Then, why don't you?" nahihiya kong ibinababa ang tingin ko from his eyes to his chin, then to his lips.

Rawr! I know that's what my heart said.

Shhh! Get a hold of yourself! My mind scolded me. Bipolar lang ang peg ko? Oh no! Eto ba ang effect ni Percival sa'ken? This can't be good!

Matagal ka ng baliw kaya wag mong isisi kay Percival yun! My heart said in defense of Percival.

The inner battle of my heart and head got cut when I heard him talk.

"Naah, I don't want you to catch my virus. You might get sick. I have fever." Malungkot niyang pinindot ang ilong ko.

"I...I--" I was about to counter what he said.

"You're a dalagang Filipina, I know..." he cut me and bit his lower lip.

Does he regret me being conservative? If it would be a problem between us, then I'll gladly throw that principle out the window! I don't care anymore about my virtue because when I admitted to him my feelings, I also confirmed to myself how much I have regretted taking so long just to tell him what I truly felt. It took Popoy the pig to push me to say it pa! And because of Popoy, I now feel light, free, and liberated! I feel so happy! And when I saw how happy he was when he heard me admit that I love him, mas lubos yun' KILIG at HAPPINESS ko! Nag-uumpaw!

I don't know if it was sadness I saw in his eyes, or he was also having inner struggle just like me, but I found his lips oh so irresistible.

Shut up, heart! You're messing with my system! I know my mind screamed as it was already being shoved away by my somersaulting, leaping, waltzing, and giggling heart. My heart has won over my mind, and I audaciously said, "No... I don't mind if you have fever. I want to kiss you too..."

I didn't wait for him to respond. I pressed my lips on his and felt his lips hot from fever. I stopped and opened my eyes while he was looking at me. Alam ko, nagulat siya sa ginawa ko. At alam ko rin na namula ako.

"So-sorry..." nasambit ko at ini-angat ang mukha ko from him. But he put his hand on my neck. Napahigpit ang akap niya sa'ken and gently kissed back. His tongue was urging me to open my mouth, and I obliged. I felt his hot breath on my lips. I know he wasn't feeling well, and I felt guilty, but it just felt so good as we kissed. I felt his hand caressed my back, going down to my bottom. And as he did that, I also felt his bulge growing harder beneath my astraddled legs on his waist. I lifted my back as I was starting to catch my breath in between our kisses.  His hand travelled from my back downwards to the cheek of my bottom sliding to its curve as he guided me down towards him. But, as he did, his hand accidentally slid from the top of my bottom down to the curve in between my legs.

We unintentionally both moaned.

I moaned because it gave me a different tingling sensation. I felt like something is going out of me.

I know he moaned because he was sorry, he touched me there. I know he was surprised because he opened his eyes as he moaned like he was so sorry that he touched me down there.

He pulled the blanket and covered me from waist down while I was still on top of him. He pulled me against his chest and embraced me.

I could hear his heartbeat. Ang bilis bilis. I also felt my heartbeat. It was also fast. We were excited. Alam ko yun and I felt it was so sweet of to feel his chest heaving up and down. I felt secured that he was not just pretending to like what happened. My thoughts got cut when I heard him groan.

"Baby," he whispered. Napatingala ako sa kanya habang akap pa rin niya ako ng mahigpit. "You're wet and you're on top of my..." hindi niya itinuloy ang sasabihin because he groaned again. Hindi ko naman naintindihan ang ibig niyang sabihin. Nagulat na lang ako when he held my waist and positioned me on top of his buldge.

Parang he wanted me to move my hips forward and backward as my legs were astraddled on his hips, so I just followed him and saw him closed his eyes.

It seemed like we both liked the feeling of what we were doing. It was just sliding back and forth on top of his bulge, but it was so pleasurable. And I felt even more elated when he lifted my shirt up and touched me on my breast, then caressed me on my tummy, before caressing me gently below.

Oh my vegetables! The sensation it gave me was so... I could not just describe it! The feeling was way better than eating my most favorite chocolate with so much pleasure with tirik tirik pa ng mata! Iba itong pleasure na'to, and I'm just so happy that he was the one giving this feeling to me. I felt wanted by him, I felt so close, so intimate, so secure with him, and so loved, as we shared this feeling.

I just felt that his pajamas were starting to get wet where I was sitted and sliding while his hand was touching the apex of my mound.  I wasn't so sure why it was wet, but I felt I needed to know where the liquid was coming from so I placed my hand on his abdomen to support me before I lifted my bottom to check why. I realized it was me causing it. And I wasn't just a little wet. I was excreting this transparent fluid. I felt so embarrassed.

He touched me full on my mound. I felt a little awkward when he did that and pulled his hand away. Then, I saw his hand wet. Napatingin ako sa kanya na nakatingin din pala sa'ken.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know this would happen." I was so embarrassed.

"I..it's okay, baby. It means you're wet because you feel pleasure." Paliwanag niya sa'ken. "B-but we have to stop this." He regretfully said and gently lifted my bottom.

"B-baket?" I felt disappointed. I felt... bitin is the exact word! "Did I do it wrong? Nasaktan ba kita?"

Napatawa siya. We shifted position. Ako ang pinahiga niya and covered my legs bago siya pumaimbabaw sa'ken, but he did not put all his weight on me. Tinitigan niya ako. Yun' titig na nakangiti, kaya napangiti din ako and put my arms around his neck.

"On the contrary, I don't want to,well, deflower you now... Not now. Papakasalan muna kita." He said and kissed me on the lips.

"Bitin, baby..." pag-amin ko. "Puwedeng bastusin mo na lang ako ngayon at ngayon mo na ako... i-deflower kahit may fever ka pa?" Biro ko sa kanya meaningfully, pero namumula ako at natatawa. I know I was making a joke out of it, but they say, jokes are always half meant.

I must admit, I do mean what I said.

Napatawa siya sa'ken at humiga sa tabi ko. "Ahhh," he groaned and put his arm to hide his eyes before nagbuntong hininga. "Baby, kahit may sakit ako, walang fever ang kumpare ko kaya 'wag mo kong ganyanin, lalo na buong buhay akong nagpigil dahil sa'yo."

Ako naman ang bahagyang bumangon at tinanggal ang kamay niya sa mukha niya. "What do you mean nagpigil? As in you're still a virgin?"

Tumingin lang siya sa'ken. Yung seryosong tingin. Tapos hinawakan niya ang mukha ko. Mainit yun' palad niya. May lagnat pa rin siya. Hinawakan ko yun' kamay niya na nakalapat sa pisngi ko, tapos hinalikan ko yun' palad niya habang iniintay yun' sagot niya.

"Yes..." sagot niya.

Napangiti ako. At alam kong namula din ako sa sobrang touched kay Percival. Parang gusto ng kumawala ng puso ko sa sobrang kilig. At parang gusto ko nang isubsob ang sarili sa kanya at sabihin, 'Take me! Take me now!' dahil sa sobrang touched ko na he chose to be celibate all of his life for me, kahit hindi naman siya sigurado na magiging kami.

"Totoo ba yan? Hindi ko naman mapapatunayan yan kasi wala ka naman hymen..." pabiro kong sagot para mapigilan ko rin ang sarili ko na kiligin. "At saka bakit ang galing mong kumiss saka mag-touch...?" ngayon naman na-eembarass ako sa sarili kong mga tanong.

Tumawa na naman siya. "I can't prove to you that I am, unless you would want to ask those women who attempted to sleep with me, but that would be difficult for you since most of them are in the US, and I don't think they would even want to admit they tried to..."

"Hindi ka rin mahangin ano?" kinurot ko siya sa tagiliran.

Napa-aray siya. "Wala naman kasi akong way para i-prove sa'yo yun!At saka, ako na nga lang yata at my age ang virgin, no! Kasi, nawawalan ako ng gana sa ibang babae kahit na mag-lasing ako... kasi ikaw ang naiisip ko. Nagi-guilty din ako kapag ginawa ko yun' with other girls, and just imagine it was you I'm doing it with... unfair sa kanila and baka mabuntis ko pa sila dahil ayokong gumamit ng contraceptive lalo na if I would want to feel like it was you, I'm doing it with. I'd like it all natural!"

"Aaah! Ayoko na makinig. Mashadong graphic! Iniisip ko pa lang na you're with another girl, nagseselos na'ko!" tinakpan ko yung tenga ko habang namumula.

Tumawa na naman siya pero nakaakap sa sarili. "Giniginaw ako baby..." bulong niya. He tapped his arm to gesture me to lie down beside him. Of course, I obliged. 50% because I wanted him to feel warm, and 50% because I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to do it. Mabilisna nakatulog si Percival at tumigil na ang panginginig niya.

Nakaakap pa rin ako sa kanya habang hinihimas ang braso niya.  "Thank you, Percival, for waiting for me... I love you." Bulong ko. "Promise ko, hindi na ako mage-MRT."

I felt his temperature still hot kaya pinunasan ko na naman yun' mukha niya, tapos leeg, tapos yun kili kili. Yun' kasi ang turo sa'ken ni yaya Violet nung nagkasakit si Reema at nasa abroad ang parents namin. Sinabi rin ni yaya Violet na pati sa singit punasan. Napatingin ako sa pajamas niya at napalunok. Tapos tumingin ako sa kanya. Tulog na tulog. Ayoko naman siyang gisingin pa.

Inanlawan ko ang underwear ko. At sinubukan siyang gisingin. Hindi nagigising. Siguro antok na antok. Madaling araw na kasi. Medyo matagal tagal na rin mataas ang temperature niya. At dahil sa kailangan kong gawin 'to, lumapit ako sa tenga niya.

"Walang malisya baby, promise!" Paalam ko. Tapos pumuwesto na ako sa harap ng pajamas niya. Dahan dahan kong iniangat ang garter ng pajamas niya para hindi siya magising. Tapos bahagya akong sumilip para ipapasok ko yung underwear. Nagulat ako kasi naka-flag ceremony!

Napatakip ako ng mata gamit ang kamay ko na may hawak na basang underwear tapos tahimik na tumili at umiling iling dahil naloka ako sa nakita ko.

Natatawa ako sa sarili ko at gusto kong tawagan ang mga kaibigan ko. Parang gustong kong sabihin, "Hihihi! Oh my! Bloody hell! Ganito pala ang hitsura ng kay cutie Pykie! Frankfurter! Hihihihi!"

"Baby, hindi lang Frankfurter yan, ganyan lang size niyan kasi half awake pa lang." Si Percival.

Si Percival! Gising? Aaaah! Kakahiya! Nagulat ako at nabitawan ko yun garter ng pajamas niya saka nabato ko sa kanya yun hawak kong basang underwear.

Tawa siya ng tawa at kinuha niya iyon tapos siya na lang ang gumawa ng dapat gagawin ko.

Nang mahimasmasan na ako sa pagkagulat at pagka-guilty, pinaghahampas ko siya sa braso sa sobrang pagkapahiya. "Eh gising ka naman pala, di sana ikaw na gumawa!"

Sinalag naman niya yun' hampas ko habang tumatawa. "Nagising lang ako baby kasi narinig ko yun' impit mong halakhak. Tapos sabi mo ganito pala ang hitsura niya. Frankfurter? Yun lang? Siyempre di ako papayag kaya I corrected you."

Nagtakip na ko ng mukha sa sobrang pahiya pero hinila niya ako pahiga sa tabi niya.

"Baby, wag ka na ma-embarrass." Lambing na sabi niya sa may bandang tenga ko tapos humalik. "Love you. Love you so much that I want to marry you already this morning, para hindi ko na pigilan ang sarili ko, at saka para matigil na yan' pagka-embarrass mo dahil araw araw mo naman na'tong makikita. Baby, I know it's too early, and I don't have an engagement ring with me, but will you marry me?"

 Nanlaki siyempre yun' mata ko sa gulat? Marriage? This early? Puwedeng mag-isip muna? I still have Valentino to take care of. I still haven't fulfilled my dream to be in France and study fashion designing. I want to go to New York and be like Lhuillier!

"B-baby..." nasambit ko habang titig na titig siya sa'ken. Yun' parang binabasa niya ang mata ko.

"I was just teasing you." Nakangiti niyang sabi. "You should see the look on your face, baby." Sabi lang niya na parang pilit ang pagtawa. Humiga ulit siya at inilpit ang ulo ko lalo sa chest niya, tapos humalik sa ulo. "Pero kapag hindi ako nakapag-pigil, baby, pipikutin na kita para magpakasal ka na sa'ken."

"Is that a threat?" Inangat ko ang ulo ko para makita ko ang mukha niya.

"Yes," seryoso niyang sabi. Kinurot ko siya sa tagiliran at natawa siya.

"Bakit kasi we have to marry before doing it? Hindi naman kita pinipigilan..." hindi ko natiis sabihin.

He groaned. "Baby, don't tempt me! Baka mabinat ako."

"Ay, oo nga, o sige. Behave na'ko." Sabi ko lang at inakap ko na siya, pero pinapalakad ko ang dalawa kong daliri na kunwari parang taong naglalakad sa may abs niya tapos papunta dun sa pajamas niya, tapos babalik ulit sa abs niya. Napansin ko, nagkaka-bulge na naman siya. Natawa ako. "Pagaling ka na baby, tapos gora na!"

"Baby, I love you and I will not do it until I am married to you. That's how much I treasure you."

"I know that what you said is sweet baby, but I don't know why it sounds like its a bad thing to me?" hirit ko.

"Baby, pilya ka pala!" Natatawang sabi niya.

"Pilya? Ako? Of course not.!" sagot ko with much joking conviction habang pinapalakad ko na naman ang dalawang daliri ko pero this time sa abs niya, at kumanta pa ako. "Jack and Jill, went up the hill to get a pale of water..." kanta ko habang pinapasayaw ko ang dalawang daliro ko sa abs niya. "Jack fell down..." tapos pinagulong ko kunwari papunta sa may garter ng pajamas niya yun' kamay ko. "And broke his crown and Jill came tumbling after..." sabi ko and boldly let my fingers trail off to the top of his buldge still covered by his pajamas. "La-la-la-la..." pinasayaw ko pa kunwari yun' dalawang daliri ko on top of his bulge.

Hindi nga ako naughty! I grinned to myself.

Napahawak si Percival sa kamay ko and grunted. "Baby..." pabulong niyang sabi.