Zec (COMPLETE)

CHAPTER X: Windup

 If I could only teach my heart to unlove you…

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Year 2006.

I’m having a successful relationship with Lan even though I can’t fully give my heart to him. He didn’t know I’m still secretly in love with my best friend.

Today, we’re celebrating our 18th month together. He respected me when I said that I don’t want him to kiss me on my lips or to have s*x with him. He obeyed and that’s one thing I liked in him. He never once insisted on making out with me when I don’t want to. He’s okay with us being together like best of friends! Just being clingy to each other!

Few months from now, we’ll graduate from senior high! I’m so excited! My parents wanted me to take a business management course, so I could take over our family business. But I like to take Accountancy or Engineering.

My world started to have colors again while Milena’s world crumbled down day after day. Since the day after their 30th month, I noticed that Milena and the spoiled brat stopped having lunch or walking home together. Milena’s optimistic aura turned to a gloomy one. The brat went back being friends again to her socialite friends.And she’s giving cold treatment to Milena! The nerve of that brat! I want to strangle her to death! We thought Milena would go back being friends with us too and hang out during free time but instead, she kept her distance from everyone.

I still see her continuously attempt to persuade the brat to talk to her. I am hurt every time  I see her sad on her every failed attempt. I once wanted to console her. I wanted to talk to her but she pushed me away and preferred to be alone.

I was brought back to reality when Lan gently tapped my shoulder, “Hey,sweetheart. You’re spacing out again.”

I always spaced out when thinking about Milena that I forgot that Lan and I were having our date night! He picked me up at my house earlier and Mom insisted that I should get dressed beautifully, so that my boyfriend would fall in love with me more!

“I’m not spacing out! So, what’s your plan after we graduate? What school would you like to go and what course would you take?”, I strategically changed the subject so that he wouldn’t notice that I didn’t hear anything he said about his basketball team.

I looked at him while he answered my questions and continued eating our meal. If I’m like the other girls, I’ll be swooning over him too. But I still love the girl I met four years ago.

He held and kissed both of my hands, “You are so lovely tonight,sweetheart.”

I laughed and joked, “So, you’re telling me that I’m not lovely the days before tonight?!”

He sat beside me and embraced me, “That’s not what I meant, sweetheart!You are lovely before, but lovelier tonight!”

He’s gonna kiss me on my lips but I turned my face away. His lips landed on my cheek. Did he forget that I didn’t want him to kiss me on my lips?!

I pushed him away and he gave me an apologizing look and said, “Oh! I’m sorry my sweetheart. I thought after being together for more than a year,you’ll give me a chance to kiss your lips.”

He buried his face on the crook of my neck and leave small kisses there.Sometimes I feel guilty for not letting him kiss me like how normal teenage lovers do.

“You know that it is a rule in our relationship. No kisses on the lips.”

“Alright, sweetheart! When could I ever bend that rule of yours?!”

Lan waved his hand at a waiter and he ordered our desserts and a bottle of wine and whiskey. Three musicians started singing and playing violins in front of us as we wait. Then they gave us complimentary flowers and a bottle of one of the most prestigious wines. It’s a gift from the owner of the restaurant for couples celebrating their monthsary tonight.

After our delicious dessert, Lan started talking again about their brotherhood, his achievements and his other extracurricular activities. This guy sure likes to talk about himself! He’s a little nice to me but he’s too much confident about himself!

He ordered another round of whisky and I asked him to give me a bottle too when he started talking about Milena. He said he saw Milena arguing with a girl along the way before he picked me up at my house earlier.

He asked me if Milena has a boyfriend because he thinks that the girl she’s arguing with is her girlfriend. I needed to protect her, so I said that Milena has no boyfriend or a girlfriend. That girl she’s arguing with is her best friend.

“But you’re her best friend too, right? I saw lots of pictures of you together in your bedroom wall, but I never saw you two hang out in the last two years. Did you two became enemies?”, he curiously asked.

I grabbed the glass of whisky and gulped it all down before answering him.

“Uhm… You know friends would grow apart after some time… We both became busy and we met other people when we got assigned to different classes. And, I have you as my boyfriend now… so… there! We stopped hanging out!”, I nervously said. I didn’t want him to know that I have a special feeling for Milena.

He asked me more about Milena, about the two of us and other things related to her. And after every time I answered him, I gulped shots of whiskey.

After drinking couple of shots, I felt tipsy and I think Lan’s drunk too. I didn’t have the power to resist Lan’s hands exploring under my dress. We were seated at a corner, so no one could see us. He buried her head on my neck and started to sniff my scent. Then he slowly licked my neck as he slide her hand up and down my bare thighs.

I wanted to push him away but the image of Milena kissing me and doing these things to me popped out of my mind. I felt hot and let Lan take advantage of my weakness at this moment. I gripped the collar of his polo shirt, pushing his head closer, as he sucked and licked my neck down to my collar bones. I moaned a little as I was imagining Milena leaving trail kisses on my body. Lan grabbed my hand and put it down his front. I felt the growing bulge underneath his pants. And before his hands made their way to the private area between my legs, I ended my fantasy with Milena and pushed Lan away from me.

He insisted on making his way under my dress again, but I said,"Lan! No! Stop! I don’t want this! I wanna go home now. Please?"

“But we’re lovers for more than a year now. We should celebrate our love tonight… Our special night… I want you to know the difference about having a man… You are not supposed to love your same kind. You need this ‘junior’ to wake your feminine side! Once you have the taste of this, you’ll want more!”,he said then pointed to his private area!

The nerve of this guy! He’s insulting me! So, he knew that I am in love with a girl!

I slapped him hard on his face and angrily said, “You don’t have the right to disrespect me like that! We’re over and I’m done with you!”, before leaving him at the restaurant.