Zec (COMPLETE)

CHAPTER XII: Farewell

  In my next lifetime, I hope you and I will be happy together as wife and wife…

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The next day, I didn’t have the energy to wake up and attend classes.But I didn’t have a choice because we’ll graduate in a few weeks and we needed to submit projects and complete some school activities.

During my class, I kept on texting Ven and Carlo, about Milena’s whereabouts. They were sending me updates every minute. They said that their English class already started but Milena was still a no show.

After an hour, they texted me that Milena’s already there. One hour late but their teacher didn’t notice because she entered stealthily at the backdoor. When our first class ended, I went to see Milena to return her notes. Her Home Eco notebook was in my bag. Jojo borrowed it from her when they both studied at the library last week. And Jojo gave it to me because he had this crazy idea on his mind. He said that I should write all my bottled feelings I kept for more than four years at the back of Milena’s notebook.

At first, I thought of it as a silly idea, but I did it anyway. I wrote from the first day I met her, on how she made my life complete. I told her how happy I was the day we became best friends. Even if she’s treating me like her sister, it’s all okay for me if she is by my side. I also wrote up the day that she forgotten all about me because she already had a girlfriend. But I never once left her side, I’m always waiting for her, for my best friend to return. I told her that I saw how happy she was with her girl and that made me somehow happy too.

I never had the chance to give back her notebook because of all the drama this week. Plus, the embarrassing moment we had yesterday. If I could only turn back the hands of time, I shouldn’t have kissed her. I don’t have the courage to face her now.

I looked for her at their Home Economics class but she’s nowhere to be found. I checked the other rooms and the canteen to look for her then I went to the library. Maybe she’s reading another novel to pass time.

I was on the corner of the hallway when I saw Azil dragging Milena back inside the library. Are they still in reconciliation process? Did they talk yesterday?! When will I ever have time with Milena?!

I turned away and went to my next class instead. I’ll just focused on reviewing for our exam. But every five minutes, I couldn’t help but ask Ven if Milena or Azil were already in their classroom. Until last period, the two never attended their classes. What’s taking them so long? Were they a secret couple again? Were they making out at the library? I shake my head to make the perverted imaginations go away. Ouch! My hearts aching again! I couldn’t stop thinking that they were back together!

As I was about to leave the school, I saw spoiled brat crying at a corner. Then quickly wiped her tears and pretended to be happy when her group of ugly bitches came. Why is that brat crying? Are they still not okay?Somehow, I felt guilty for being happy thinking that they were not back in good terms. I don’t like her, but if she’s Milena’s happiness then I wouldn’t bother them anymore. I will be in the shadows again and be contented watching them from afar.

After that day, I decided to entertain another guy. To divert my attention away from Milena. His name is ND. He’s five years older than me and he’s a student teacher at a university. I met him the last time I inquired about Web Designing course.

Before, I said that I wanna take Engineering or Accounting, but when Jojo told me that Milena would take Computer Science, my stupid self wanted to take the same course too hoping that in a way, I will feel closer to her. Also,because I remembered when we’re still best friends, we promised that someday we’ll work together in the same company. I promised to myself that whatever course she picked, I would gladly follow her lead.

A week before our graduation, we rarely met Milena at school. We thought that she might not be able to graduate on time because of her tardiness and not submitting all the requirements needed, but her charismatic personality and intelligence made the teachers consider letting her graduate.

And when she’s in school, I avoided her at all costs. I don’t know howto approach her. It’s too awkward to pretend that I’m still her friend after I took advantage of her weakness! I’m still watching her though, without her knowing.

She and the brat were still not talking. I could feel that they still love each other but they were forced to be apart. The group of ugly bitches forced the brat to meet up with some of the guys they thought were hot. Duh?!They are not even worthy to compare to Milena.

Our high school graduation came, and it ended without the two of us talking. This is not how I imagined it before, not how we dreamed about when we’re still best friends. But I have no choice but to live with it.

Milena and I took different roads, went to different universities. Maybe one day our paths will cross again. But for now, I’ll treasure all the memories we shared together. Even though at the end, I’m the only one left to remember.