Escaping Alpha's Wrath

Ex-Lover

Milla Will POV

No, it's not that I possess some strange powers; it's just that I have a strong sense of mind. Otherwise, who knows what Austin would do? My dad isn't patient, and neither are the alphas. Patience isn't in their vocabulary.

I can see the shock on Austin's face as I spoke honestly. I've never spoken to him like this before. But since we just met today, I can still maintain my composure, regardless of our previous interactions. I choose to have a conversation instead of engaging in an argument.

"Are you talking to me?" Austin asked with his raspy voice.

Inside, I wanted to scream. Who else would I be talking to if not him? His name is Austin, after all.

Never mind. He sounded shocked because someone told him to stop. Can't he hear my polite request for him to stop? Why is he so unhappy?

It's as if I disrespected him, which I didn't. I speak to him with respect, but he acts like I've disrespected him. It reminds me of how Austin used to be; he never loved anything that didn't come from him.

"Yes, Alpha Austin, I apologise for whatever I did before, but please understand, I had a lover," I was cut off as he growled loudly, shaking us all.

Damn it. Why does he have to be so sensitive? I'm just apologising and trying to explain the situation caused by Shawn. At least for now, in front of everyone, he is my lover. I can't suddenly reveal the changes; that would make everyone doubt me.

That's not how someone changes overnight, and I can't explain how I was reborn, which would make me seem crazy. So please let me explain instead of feeling like I'm hurting him just by speaking.

"I don't mean to offend you, Alpha Austin. It's just my past. I know you are my mate now, and I trust you. I caused a scene because I was shocked, but that doesn't mean I don't believe in rules and the Moon Goddess. I haven't even fully transitioned into my wolf form, and I haven't even finished high school. Can you please wait until I turn eighteen?" I asked, hoping my words would have some effect.

I can see everyone is shocked, but Austin seems more relaxed than before. He seems to understand some of my words, which is a minor victory in my eyes.

He heard me without getting offended, and that's an achievement for me. He scares me, and even though I stood against him in my past life, I still feel the impact he has on me. Fear is something he thrives on, and I know how he feels when someone begs and obeys him, like a pet.

"I think they need to talk alone," my mom said as she stood up, breaking the hug. She can sense the tension, but I don't want to be alone. If I was not there, Austin and my father would end up fighting.

I think my mom's decision is better. She is always the calm and intellectual one among us.

They all left, leaving Austin and me in the room. I kept my eyes on the bed, avoiding strong eye contact with him.

I feel like he's staring into my soul, trying to determine if I'm telling the truth or not. It makes me uncomfortable. I don't want him to find something in my eyes that I don't want to reveal.

"Now that your act is over, tell me the truth, baby girl. How did you suddenly change? How can you leave your love of life? Who could you have died for just a few hours ago? Don't think I'm like your family, who won't understand the games you're playing. It's too much, don't you think? Tell me, huh?" he asked with anger in his voice, sounding like he could attack me without hesitation.

What I'm trying to say is that I know it's too soon for him to believe me. But if he can hate me after our first encounter just because I had a lover before, then it doesn't matter what I say. I never slept with Shawn because I wasn't of age, and I wanted to save myself for my eighteenth birthday when I would have him as my mate. But Austin came into my life, and he was the first person I slept with in my past life, so I'm still pure. Who knows how many women Austin has slept with? I never knew.

But something triggered him, something made him talk like this without even knowing me. On the first day, he already thinks I'm playing games. In just a few minutes of meeting him, I'd already messed with his mind.

I'm not proud of it, but it doesn't seem like a fair deal. He needs to know that he can't treat me like he treats others. I need to make a powerful impression.

"Now what happened? Why are you so silent? You were talking a lot before. Isn't this the time for you to speak up?" he questioned.

He's right. This is the time for me to explain, but I need to choose my words carefully so he doesn't get offended. I need to be patient and insightful.

"Shawn is my past. You said you're my mate now, and I'm trying to accept leaving behind my past. But it will take time. I'm not here to lie. I hope you can trust me and give me time to understand what's happening to me. I can't just leave everything without knowing. I apologise for the mess I made, but please believe me. I was shocked and lost my mind. Or else, do you think I have Alpha blood in me, part of Will's bloodline, and I can be this insane?" I innocently blinked my eyes. He was still staring at me coldly.

It's as if he's trying to freeze me and read every part of me. I'm trying my best not to lie or meet his expectations. It's a tough situation.

Shawn pushed me to the point where I lost my mind. I need to choose my words carefully so Austin can believe me. If begging will make him believe in me, then I'm willing to get on my knees and ask him to give me a year. I'm desperate, and the trauma from my past is resurfacing with him here and the way he looks at me.

I know he can easily read me if I change my expressions, so I try to remain calm. I've been through this before, so I'm mature enough to handle it. Maybe this time it could work in my favour.

"So you mean you realise your mistake? You know you behaved like an insane person at the ceremony?" he asked with his raspy voice, giving me goosebumps. He's right. I was baffled, and I regret it.

I regret hurting Shawn, even though he will never see the truth. I regret hurting someone who cared for me when I was alone. Austin did worse to me, but his wolf never treated me badly. His wolf always tried to take care of me. I messed it up because of Shawn and didn't see how much his wolf cared for me. That's my biggest regret. His wolf even hurt him to protect me.

I don't feel bad for Austin, but I feel guilty for his wolf. His wolf showed me how much he values me when no one

else does. It confirms that I'm his mate, but I need to get my wolf first before I interact with Austin's wolf. My wolf needs to connect with him, and then maybe I can consider him as my mate, but only if he changes his personality.

I want someone who can love me and show me warmth. Austin just laughs at that. I want him to be a normal person, not a bloodthirsty monster. Revenge is all he cares about, and that's how he has lived for twenty-six years. It can't change suddenly.

But I need to gain power and strength to endure it.

"Yes, Alpha Austin, I was so wrong. I've never been this ashamed before. I regret it, but as you told me, I am your mate. I hope you can forgive this mistake. It's my first one, and I look up to you. I'm not as mature as you are," I explained with sweet words, hoping to soften him a little and not scare me anymore.

Austin has never been one to appreciate sweet things. He has always been bitter towards me in my past life. But maybe things can be different now if I make an effort.

"Good thing you know, or else I wouldn't have forgiven you for talking nonsense in front of me about your ex-lover. Whatever you did at the function today, make sure it never happens again, or else I will ensure you regret your existence. Kitten."