happy to be home Christmas was great spent the night at my mom house everything was awesome no complaints
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I am so happy can't nothing bring my happiness down yesterday was Christmas and we had a good time dinner was great my brothers was here my niece was here great niece everything was so awesome we laughed we had good times we ate good food I enjoyed Christmas I just wish that my daughter would have been here too but she's grown you know how that goes but was crazy now is how other people want to make you upset and bring you down instead of uplifting you they want to could make garbage on you misery loves company that is so true people don't want to see you happy and not worry about nothing people don't care to see a smile on your face everyday that you smile so much that it hurts I never understood why people want to see you in so much pain and want you to just want and be needed everything is just so different now you know when you feel comfortable talking to someone about your problems and issues in life and they throw back at you when they're upset with you that shows you right there that you should never talk to that person I told that person anything that was personal in your life but you know at the end of the day if you stay in prayer and believe in him you can conquer and get through a lot of things in life but when you don't believe then you will failure which is sad I have my beliefs and I know everyone else have their beliefs some people do not even believe in God they don't believe in nothing some people just don't get it they don't understand that Jesus is the one that woke up this morning that gave them sight to see a voice to speak ears to be able to hear they don't get it I do though I am learning that don't nobody want to see you happy they rather see you sad and going through a lot then to see you accomplish goals in your life they would rather see you struggling crawling begging instead of seeing you uplifted successful that's the world we live in today people don't want to see happiness they rather see sadness pain but you what at the end of the day you have your beliefs I have my beliefs everyone believe in different gods I don't know what God you believe in but I believe in Almighty God he would never forsaken me I can always talk to him when I can't talk to nobody else everything is just great I am starting to see light at the end of the tunnel I'm doing my passion now but I love music and it's actually going great for me I have had offers where these different record labels want to sign me but then it was some BS but that's okay that didn't stop me I see a lot of people love my boys and I'm so grateful and thankful and humble for everyone to hear me God gave me this gift and I'm going to use it starting next month on the 14th I will be going back to school online to get my bachelor's degree in forensics science case management they say I should be finished by April 2026 I'm so ready I have been living with my sister still and helping her cuz she has a severe case of lymphedema but she's more motivated now and I'm so happy about that that mean that life it's starting to really look up for her and she's ready for change she's not talking suicidal no more she's not feeling real depressed no more I'm happy about that I know that everything that has happened to me in my life was just my testimony for greater things to happen for me and I know these things take time patience that is something that I have learned to have I would like things to happen quicker rather than it being slowly but you know things takes time blood sweat tears I'm ready though I've written all my music myself I don't think I didn't do myself is the beats but other than that the lyrics that's me I'm on SoundCloud I put on my music out there like that I can't wait until I am able to have my music on all music platforms so everyone can hear and judge for themselves will I be a superstar one day I believe I would I'm starting from the bottom and working my way up like that Drake song started from the bottom now I'm here that's going to be me I believe and I'm going to achieve my goal and I'm going to become a successful woman a entrepreneur it might takes years and years from now but it's going to happen I was blessed to see 46 years old I just had a birthday on the 10th of this month thankful and grateful that I'm still here cuz I know there are a lot of people that is not here that even made it to the age I am today God had his way with me and I know that there's so much left and stored for me I just have to be still sit back be patient sure it's been a few bumps in the road that didn't stop me though I'm still moving forward ahead not going backwards looking straight ahead and staying focused on my future cuz life waits for No One definitely time don't either so if you got goals that you want to accomplish in life it doesn't matter how old you are do it I was told by someone that why would I wait so long to finally follow my dreams why didn't I do it when I was younger I lost my passion for music when my wife passed I didn't want to do much anymore didn't want to do poetry didn't want to do singing no more didn't want to do anything I basically just want to not exist no more but God showed me that you have a purpose in this life there is a reason for you and to follow your dreams and do what you need to do to become the successful woman that you are meant to be don't shut your dreams out anymore do not let nobody negativity stop what you're trying to do in your life and always stay humble and appreciate whatever there is and this life for you stay humble and thankful and know that everything that has happened to you in the past it was a reason why it happened nothing on just happened I know that I open my eyes and I see how things could have been worse but it wasn't it was just enough to show me that get up do what you need to do God gave you this gift let everyone hear you and that's what I'm doing I'm following my dream at 46 years old ain't no stopping me I'm not going to stop the devil always try to come in and want me to stop but you know what I don't let the devil win cuz at the end of the day I've got this I'm going to achieve what I've been trying to do for years and not stop I'm going to keep going cuz I know that tomorrow is not promised to me so I have to leave for myself and worry less about others because either you riding with me or you not that's how I feel 2024 it's a new year it's a new me and I'm going to conquer what I need to conquer
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