My Secret desire

2.

Serena

I don´t really know why I am here this is so not my scene the bar is crawling with men all desperate for a lust filled night in the throes of a young woman, and for some reason I feel like I´m in the eye of the storm I feel multiple men eating me with their eyes, most of them I think is already imagining me in their bed I think.

But I won´t not now, not ever again, after what happened the last time I tried, I really don´t know what happened all I know is that I am still her and Chris is not.

the only problem is no one as any clue what happened, one minute we were enjoying each others company the next he was breathing heavy and he turned the white in his eyes inside out, and he was gone.

I grab my necklace which I wear all the time I don´t really know why but it brings me comfort but the blue stone with the same color as the water by the Caribbean coast, actually same color as my eyes a always thought it was a funny coincidence. I´ve had it for as long as I can remember my mum told me, it was a gift from my uncle the day I was born.

I look around and spots Nate, his name really is Nathaniel but since I was 4, and I was drowning in the lake up in the lake house my family owned, and he was 6. I have been calling him Nate he is my oldest and my best friend, and i don´t really know where I would be without him.

I toss my long blonde hair back it´s goes all the way down to the small of my back, but for some reason it never has split ends or something like that. Only now I realized that was a mistake, most men looking at me with heated gazes, i hurried up and grabbed Nate by the arm.

"How in the hell did you get me talked into this, peoples are rude and loud, and i feel like I am being eyeraped in some giant orgy" I asked him wanting him to drive me away from here

"calm down chica, relaxe and have fun I got your back, now be a sweetie and go buy me a beer and some fancy like cocktail for yourself."

I now it is really childish but I can´t resist and put out my tongue, turns away while I say

"you are such a doof Nate."

"I love you too cupcake" I frown at him and head straight to the bar to buy him a drink.

I am heading straight for the bar heads turning as I walk past, I seriously cannot see why all the interest is pointed at me. I am consumed in my own thoughts when I bump into someone, when I look up to apologize, I feel the cold creeping up my back in fear, and I hurry to look around for a place to hide, but with little use.

"WATCH IT YOU LITTLE FREAK MURDERER! The space around me is most too precious and i don´t want it to infected by your presence." Its Alia my greatest tormentor, both in waken state but she also plays the main villain in all my nightmares.

I just stand there, she is convinced it is my fault Chris died and Alia mortally wounded that he found me interesting instead of her. And for some reason I can´t seem to come up with a reason why that should not be the case, after all I was the only one present when he died - even though the forensics put a heart attack up as course of death but come on, which healthy quarterback die at age 16 do to a heart attack.

she keeps going "what on earth did you have to pay to get in here this is a highly exclusive club where im......"

she stops dead in her tracks, while she notice something somewhere behind me.

She cast a final look at me, and gets past me but she makes sure to bump into shoulder at the time.

I just turn around and head straight for Nate, he sees me and cringe when he see my facial expression.

"Nate either we get out of here together now, and we can find something else to do, or else I will leave this place alone."

" Easy Serena, of course I will come with you it was supposed to be our night out, but just out of curiosity what got you riled up like that so fast, you were just gone for about 4 minutes."

he looks at me, as we start walking towards the door.

"Nate I don´t want to talk about it, but to make a long explanation short, Alia!" His face immediately change to disgust, and he shakes his head.

"don´t worry cupcake, this was supposed to be our wild night out in freedom before the trimester starts, but as long as I´m with my best friend in the whole world we could for all I know just sit in your room and stare at each other. but come on lets go to the beach, we can go for a swim in the moonlight."

Nate shakes and takes my hand while we walks towards his truck.

"Nate you know you are hopeless, the rain is pouring down, and you want to go swimming? You are a peace of work you now that?, But if that´s what you really want to do lets go, but you know it will only be you doing the swimming, but we will still be together."

I smile at him, he is not a really complex guy but there is something soothing about him, he always knows what to say. Since as long as I can remember I have felt myself drawn to the water, but since that freak accident while I was a little kid I haven´t been in waters bigger than a tub, because I am freaking out every time I have to go in.

"As always babygirl." he grins and takes my hand, to help me up in his truck, when we both are inside, the whole scene seems to change it´s like I´m suffocating, and I don´t know what the problem is, but lately it has felt awkward being in close proximity with Nate.

As I think about my friendship with Nate somethings really odd happens, when I´m looking outside the window, the rain stops even if it has been raining for the last 2 days nonstop.

Just when I am thinking about how special that is, the clouds suddenly wanders of rather quickly and leaves the stars twinkling down, and with them is one of the biggest fullmoons that I have ever seen.

I just stare completely dumbstruck, it is so beautiful like it is out of a fairytale or something, it would have been perfect for a date, but then again I have nobody except Nate who I think of as a brother, and I will never risk going there again with anyone I have joked about joining a convent, to be realistic because I´m like explosives I´m like death on legs if you come too close.

I just sits there speechless, the moon is beautiful I have always loved the moon.

"I told you princess, it would be perfect if we decided to, the world will fall to their feet just for you, even the nature seems to want to please you" He looks at me with a humorous glint in his eyes.

I just shake my head

"Nate you don´t know what you are talking about, the only ones I have heard about who could control the weather are the witches"

"Come on Serena, do you really believe that some women who gathers together and light herbs and stuff, can actually control the weather? I mean do we even have some facts about them actually exists, I mean we do know that shifters are real but have anyone ever come across a real witch"

Nate shakes his head.

"I don´t know Nate but even though I haven´t seen areal life leopard doesn´t mean it doesn´t exist, and besides we did have something about it in high school. you know the Salem witchtrials."

Nate just shakes his head in pure contempt.

"I don´t know about it, and to be real even if it is I don´t want to know, this world is a freak world to live in, all those creatures we have grown up learning was just fantasy now walks around in full daylight, even if some of them tend to keep to themselves, thankfully the most dreaded of them is still fiction"

A shiver runs through him and i know exactly what I am talking about, since we were 7 and saw the movie Dracula he has developed a real fear for vampires even though they don´t exist. which I think is odd considering werewolf´s and witches do. but who am I to question it.

The car comes to a stop, we have arrived to the beach and Nate spread his jacket out on the sand, and gesture to me to sit, when he strips down of his pants son he is down to his t-shirt and boxers, I sit down and zooms out over the water it really is beautiful be no means, the moonlit ocean stands to me as one of the most breathtaking visions to me, and it always had when i was 12 my mom found me walking at the rim of the water one night in my sleep, when it was fullmoon.

something eerie gets crawling up my back, like something down under the surface is watching up at me, and whatever it is i feel its intentions are ill-mannered and I don´t see anything, no matter how hard I try.

I am brought out of my train of thoughts by Nate who pretends he is David Hasselhoff in Baywatch I can´t help myself I fall right into I fit of giggles and I can´t seems to get a hold of myself.

He really is a warmth in my darkness, I would wish that I 1. could be with him without hurting him and 2. could develop romantic feelings towards him, but no it is not like that, he just is a friend for whom I am really thankful for.

I keep on laughing I cant stop myself, and even when I sit here I cant seem to stop my eyes from traveling out over the sea, when something drags my attention out in the distance there are what looks to be several sharkfins breaking through the water, and some weird blue light

I feel a shiver of fear, but when I blink again they are all gone.

And Nate drags my attention to him once again by asking

"do you think I could make a good siren?" and then he starts singing God is a DJ and he has no musicsense so it is really false, I´m thrown in a hysteric fit of laughter, and i can´t get a hold of myself.