My Secret desire

10

Darien

I am seething, the situation earlier today with Alia and that girl were Alia seem to be pissing her territory, I just hurried to get my self lost, when they split up Alia came back to me and snaked her arms in mine “baby why did you leave me, I need you by my side so everyone know you are my man, and that will make them see that you are off limits”

I cringe I know for a fact that she is talking about Serena, little does she know that she is hounding me both in my dreams and my waking state, and the pull towards her are completely crazy. I feel myself tense at the accusations towards me but also towards the girl who is unaware of this, and my venom are fast gathering in my mouth it´s sickening sweet taste does nothing good for me.

Alia seems to get the hint and shut up, “will we be going to your place baby?” she asks trying to be seductive “no we can go to your room but just for a short time since I have somewhere else, I got to be.”

“Why can´t we never stay at your place” she sulks apparently some humans find that attracting, because you are just a plaything for the time being, to better blend in, I think. But I can obviously not tell her that.

“ohh it´s not because I don´t want to, the problem is that I am sharing my room with my adoptive brother and his girlfriend has almost moved in with us so there are just way too crowded for what I have in mind, and I don´t want audience.” I smirk at her and kiss her cheek; she giggles as a crazed teenager. I cringe when I think about the unspoken promise, but hell when you have lived as long as me, you got to grab every opportunity to have some fun.

When we are back at her place, I hold my promise but all the time I see Serena before my eyes and luckily Alia is so far gone in ecstasy that she don´t catch the fact that I say Serena´s name. Alia looks at me with hooded eyes, and I am up and ready to go before she can hold any longer. She looks at me confused “why are you always in such a hurry?” she asks.

“I´m sorry I just have somewhere I need to be, and it is crucial that I make it on time” and I am out without looking back a single time.

As the hours goes by the venom keep flowing and my eyes are turning crimson by the mere thought of Serena, and it´s unfortunately not the only thing coming to life, which is unfortunate with my bloodlust surfacing. I scour the vision before me and find an attractive girl, as I am glamouring her to come with me into the alley she is like a lamb complete lost to the wolf – or in this case vampire.

I am losing myself in this girl, becoming the monster I know I am, as I am draining her for her life because I know I won´t be able to leave her alive, I am suddenly stopped by a sound – a can I think is moved, and some footsteps. My head snaps up as my crimson eyes are looking for the intrusion, as I see the feminine outline in the far end. I drop the girl and creeps forward, growling, HER blood is singing to me, and all my humanity is long lost, when the girl walks into the streetlight shock evident in her face, and I stop dead in my track. It´s her, Serena, why on earth are she here? She looks dead afraid but there is something there too curiosity.? Perhaps or longing.?

In the haze of blood some air finds its way into my system and when she is looking away for a short time I fly back, pick up the unfortunate girl who is balancing between life and death, and jump onto the roof.

I look back and see her backing away right into the arms of the same guy she was with the first day I saw her, and I cannot help it I am seeing red, how dare he touch her? I shake my head where did that thought come from, I can feel her uneasiness about what she just witnessed, and when I see her take one look more down the alley, I know she is looking for me even though she does not know it.

I sigh and focus all my attention on my meal, trying to get ahold on myself, failing gravely. I close the puncture wounds and as Serena and her entourage drives off, I dump her in the alley where we were 5 minutes before.

I leave the side in a hurry after that, and head on home to try to get some sleep, but it is very confusing as every time I close my eyes she is there, I have NEVER had a problem like this, not that I need to sleep but I like the break it gives from the never-ending days.

but my plans are ruined already before I get inside, because Jason are waiting for me and he is jubilant, and his emotions seems dead set on confronting me.

“sooo where were you our great leader? As you are by far the smartest, oldest and wisest of us all” he says pretending to bow before me.

“Shut it, Jason! I am in now state to handle you politely right now.” I snarl back at him.

He looks at me with curiosity in his eyes, all teasing forgotten, and I watch as his face changes into a mask of concern.

“why? What happened? Don’t tell me you lost control again!” he says.

“Don´t you dare mark me or teach me about control, when you alone wiped out an entire village 300 years ago, just because the girl you were interested in turned out to be engaged” I know it is a low blow, but I just need him to get off my back.

“Hey, don’t be an ass I know I can be a bit temperamental (I cannot help but rise my eyebrow in disbelief – clearly he catches on to me), Okay a lot. But the thing is we are beginning to worry you are one of the eldest vampires to have ever existed, and you have never had problems with control and for the time being it seems to happen a lot. Which make us think that if you can´t control yourself, then what about us?”  

I sigh I´m really frustrated, but I can see where his concern is coming from.

“I know you just want what´s best for me, but you doesn´t need to worry, this is only about me and for now I can control whatever it is, but I will come to you and Shane when I feel ready, but I doesn´t know what causes except when being in close proximity of a certain woman, and it has been like this the last week.” I sigh aware of my beliefs a have told him about the issue without naming the thought, because I am still very confused to the effect Serena has on me, for almost 1500 years NO one has had a remotely similar effect on me.

My eyes clouds over as I my mind goes back until my beginning, and with me being one of the strongest beings on this planet – do to the fact that I killed my maker shortly after I was turned, who exclaimed he was the strongest one, and the only original out there.

Besides me he only turned about a handful of others (not counting on the guards I killed myself) who had no purpose no goals with their new existence, they lived their life and lived as kings, and fed, and turned even more people, but their ways caused the humans to get suspicious and finally the humans lured them into a trap and killed all my fellow vampires who was turned by my maker, and with their makers gone they looked for a new leader, hopefully that they wouldn´t face the same fate as their makers.

My maker turned me as the last thing he ever did, saying that he saw great potential in me, even if it is a blur I remember him massacring my whole village including my best friend and my family, and it´s vivid to me how he killed of my babysister, and satisfied his thirst in hers dying life energy. The last thing I remember before waking up a vampire is his words “you are strong, by far the strongest one, with the potential to be stronger than even me, you will serve as a great heir to me as the prince of darkness, and the only one you have to respect is myself, and of course our goddess Nyx who blessed us to become more than these human scums, and one day we will rid the world of them only keeping them for food. No one will ever be able to stand against us” And then I saw him smiling evilly to me as my sight fell upon my dead sisters horrorfilled eyes, as I closed my I felt an excruciating pain as my life ebbed out in the sand.

When I opened my eyes again the whole world was clearer and a lot more vivid, I could see everything and nothing escaped my eyes, as I came to myself I could see I have changed I lot, I was alone, and even though my thirst was racing and burning up everything inside me, I ignored the shackled woman in my room who I suspected was meant for me, and made my way to the great hall where my maker sat on a thrown lifted by human bones like a king.

My eyes zoomed in to right above his head where, on a spike, my sisters head to serve as a reminder to anyone, and I remember everything cloud over as sense and rage blended together and in cold blood and a fraction of seconds; I have killed everyone of his guards both vampires and humans.

And I made my way to him, he just stared at me with a look of satisfaction. “I see you have woken my son; I knew you where something special, you just killed 8 of my best warriors, I was right to choose you and with your thirst under control, we should start our reign together.”

I looked at him with nothing but contempt:

“I´m sorry I cannot see why you should ever get the privileges to call me son, you murdered my entire family, and you have showcased my babysister on top of your thrown as some sick decoration, as for my thirst if you mean that poor excuse of a human left where I woke up you are sadly mistaken, you told me I should rule the world when I woke up, and then you try to give me scraps, I haven´t fed and I will cave in and be the predator you wished me to be” I smiled at him.

and for the first time I saw something I could decipher as confusion with a fraction of fear.

“you mean you haven´t satisfied your newborn thirst before making it here?”

I caved a little closer to him “yes that is exactly what I say, I was excited to start this whole thing.”

“But how on earth are you keeping this calm?

With the sincere bloodlust running through you, I was created by the goddess but even I couldn´t resist the urge to feed.”  

“I think it depends on your motivation, and since I have a problem with you, that was all that swirled around in my head. As a matter of fact, I think you are disgusting and will never drop to your level, but know this before I kill you, you killed my family and your visions of a great future for yourself was taken by your strongest asset you thought you won, but by turning me you lost.”

I smile knowingly at him, and my face changes to pure delight when I see the understanding sinking in his mind.

“you wouldn´t dare, I was the one who saw your potential it was a necessity to kill your family to get through the change, you needed the motivation.” He was grasping for straws.

“You told me I was by far the strongest to ever have existed, I will forever be so!”

And before he could detect anything else I was by his side and sinking my teeth into him, and he screamed in frustration and despair because he couldn´t make free. I felt my thirst quiver as his life slept away.”

when he was dead, my body was summing with the power, I knew right there, that was a feeling I would never again have after feeding.

My eyes cached I pair of silvereyes I the shadows “so my child, now you have done the deed, and accepted your fate, everything is as I expected and as it should be, I just needed a vessel until you where born, since it was destined you should rule the vampires, but with fair justice and in harmony with the humans and all other beings on this earth.” I shake my head confused.

“What on earth is this?”

“ I´m sorry Darien, I am Nyx goddess of vampires and the night, as I told you it has always been decided you should rule amongst the vampires, and when you were changed and chose not to satisfy your thirst in the human, you got the possibility to be the strongest to ever walk this earth, because when a newly turned vampire drink from his master as the first thing, not only do they quell their thirst but also got all of his powers, as it was meant for you, this is the reason why there only where one original vampire and now it is you, take care my son, the eternity is a long time, but I will watch over you. I know you will feed on humans because vampires need it to survive but as long as you respect them, you have nothing to fear. And as an original you are the only one capable to walk the sun, but hear what I say, if you do your job great I will send you a sorceress who can help the vampires you turn walk in the light as well without being burnt.”

“I thank you goddess even though I´m not sure why me, but I am so confused and so alone.”

“don´t worry dear, I need you to be my eyes on this earth, and you will not have to do it alone, but you will have to be patient, you will get your family over time, but they must choose it willingly. Now I will have to go, blessed be my child.”

And right after that I fall asleep, wondering what is in my future.