My Secret desire

9.

Serena 

When the school day was over I met up with Diana outside of the school, she was jumping in excitement.

"are you ready to be treated as royals? and remember I´m your personal shopper and what I say goes, and you can´t complain about anything since it is all on me" she says and looks serious.

" I am aware of that, but I won´t just let you dress me like Barbie."

she just sends me a telling smile, and my first thought is what have I agreed to, but then again, she is right I could use a few new pieces of clothes but knowing her she is about to go completely crazy.

"Come on Ren we have an appointment with the spa, as in a full body massage. and later on we have to go get a mani-pedi and you will simply love Ms. Margareth she is fantastic even doing this, I think she is waiting for her daughter to come back and take over, she went to Paris 2 years ago."

When we are at the spa I try to relax and little by little we succeed, at the least until I hear some fractions of a conversation between two people.

"what do you think about what happened back at the canteen earlier it was almost like a stare down between giants, I don´t really know what Alias’s deal is, but then I don´t know there Is something about that Serena girl, like strength hidden underneath her. Even though I´m not even sure she is aware of it herself, but they seem to clash all the time, this time I don´t heard what it was about."

"I don´t know what happened earlier but I think Alia has something against her, I´ve heard they both had a crush on the same guy, who chose Serena but for some unknown reason he just dropped dead when they were together, and I think Alia had her eyes on him and now blame her his death. Why? I don´t understand, since she now has campus absolute hottest guy nipping at her heels."

"I now Darien is by FAR the hottest guy I have ever seen, what he sees in Alia I can’t understand except she looks great, but she is so shallow, and if he one day is tired of her, he can just call me, I will be willing and ready."

They giggle to themselves as they walk out, and for some reason I can´t help something inside me clench.

I turns to Diana she is looking at me and shrugs her shoulders, and I lie back and try to relax, when the time is up Diana hops down.

"are you ready to get going?"

"Yes, I am we just have to get dressed, then I am ready" I sigh, my thoughts still circling around the conversation between the women earlier.

When I look at myself in the mirror, I see a drastic change, it´s like there is something new in my eyes, there is a fire lit there wasn´t there before, there also is a more radiant vibe about me, it´s clear something has changed but what, I shrug it off as a product of the massage.

As we walk outside Diana keep sending me sideways glances with a bit of concern, I take a breath and relax, she will come to it soon enough, I don´t know why but I immediately feel bed because I´m not sure why but it isn´t a conversation I like to have right now, because I´m not even sure what it all means to me.

"Diana I know that you are curios and will like to talk to me about what happened earlier and the conversation but truth is I am confused and I don´t know what happened or what to think myself, so I think it would be better to save that conversation until I know what to say" I say it with the deepest sincerity because I know I can´t say anything meaningful right now.

"but let´s get going I had the feeling you had the whole day planned, beside I promise you, you will be the first one to know when I´m ready to talk. I know Nate count as my oldest friend but according to how long we have known each other you are indeed one of my best friends" Again it felt like when I talked it was like the words that came out came without a single concern in life and a certainty I have never felt before.

Diana looks at me and sighs "I know you are right; I was just concerned about you. But I do know that you will tell me when you are ready to talk about it, come on let´s get going we have an appointment with the sweetest woman known in town.”

As we walk to the nail salon my thoughts cannot stop wandering as I take in what the girls talked about, I for some reason tend to give them right, the last times I have felt someone trying to talk me down I have felt a surge of power and energy empowering to stand on my beliefs an not bow, it was fantastic feeling.

As we entered the cutest nail salon, we were met with a heartwarming woman who smiled all over her face and she oozed of confidence and security, but at the same time she seemed so sweet as apple pie.

“hello sweethearts I´m Mrs. Johnson, what can I do for you today?” she asked kindly.

“hello, we have an appointment for today” Diana said.

“aahh yes sure of course, please take a seat, would you like something to drink when we are talking and working?”  

I looked confused at Diana and she just smiles at me.

“yes, sure I would like some water please” I said to her.

“Dear I do understand but let pretend we are friends having a good time, and let me spoil you, Ill be right back”. She goes into the back, and when we wait, I wonder what she could have in mind, I´m not super interested in alcohol and besides, I am not even at legal drinking age, but then again, you only live once.

When Mrs. Johnson comes back, she has three mimosas with her, it is unbelievably delicious and I doze of in a heaven of good company, funny chit chat, I learned that Mr. Johnson a planning to retire when her daughter comes back from Paris where she has taken an education as makeup artist.

She is a delight to be in room with, and we have a fantastic time, three mimosas and a hour and a half later, we are very in a good mood, at perhaps I bit tipsy, but who cares.

“Even though I hate to break this up we must                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              get going, we still have a lot to do” Diana says and I can´t help but giggle.

When we are outside, I get to remember just how good those mimosas were since I can´t seem to walk in a straight line, but who cares for once I´m having a wonderful time, I´m not wasted or anything but I can certainly feel the effect of them, as we head to the boutiques.

After a while when I´m trying on dress number 100 (or at least it feels that way), I never new there were this many stores in this city, and Diana has used a fair share in lots of them. I´m standing in the dressing room in a iceblue dress that stops just above the knee with a slit further up midthigh, and a sweetheart cut, so it is sexy but not slutty in any way, it seems classy and elegant and make my hair look even more silvery and my eyes even more blue, I can´t help stop the thought Elsa gone pixie mixed with some mystical Amazonwarrior princess and I smile at myself, I think about the girls earlier and what they said.

And whenever I do this, I cant stop the feeling that there is something to their words, the last times someone had made wrong accusations about me or anyone else, it´s like something in me just loosened and when I give in to the feeling I know exactly how and what to say. I can´t help but frown at the thought of Alia other than me dating Chris I have never done anything she could get so pissed about, and why she is lashing out to me because of the new guy is a secret to me. I don´t even know what he look like, and according to my standards if he finds Alia so hot, then he isn´t even worth the thought, so why on earth do my thoughts tend to wander back to him?

I´m still mulling this over when Diana pops her head inside.

“ohhhhh that is gorgeous BUT you can forget all about wearing it tomorrow, because you will be wearing the black dress we bought earlier. Come on get dressed we are about finished now, and I am dying to go eat King Pow Chicken” She exclaims and smile.

When I´m done and meet up with her at the register she turns halfway to me and pout

“sweety, do you think we could get Nate to come pick us up I haven´t imagined we would buy this much and we have a long way to go home if we would have to carry it.” She asked with hey pouty puppy dog eyes.

“You are too much, but fine, just as long you know I´m not a fan of this but I will give him a call.”

She sends me a kiss.

I goes a bit away and call Nate, it´s ringing and when I´m about to hang up he picks up.

“Ren?”

“yes who else do you think would call from my phone?”

“I don´t know, what are on your mind?

“listen you know I´m not thrilled to do……..” he cut me off

“Just stop sweety, I know you don’t like asking for favors, but I don´t mind helping you.”

“you knew? But alright I´m in town with Diana, and it seems like the weekend came a bit early this week, I have been drinking too much and we have bought half the town, and I feel horrible. But do you think you could help with a ride back around nine o clock by the Chinese restaurant.?”

“you have absolutely no reason to feel guilty, but you can count on me there, as long as you can live with me bringing my cousin Zale.”

“Zale? Sure, why not, see you then, bye.”

I turn towards Diana “Nate will pick us up at the Chinese place a Nine.”

“Great, let´s get going then, I´m starving.”

We walk towards our favorite place, it´s not far from here but that´s our luck according to all of our bags. When we arrives, we go inside, and the hosts eyes shot up and down my body, an for some reason I feel violated. “welcome, I will be your host tonight just say if there is anything I can do for you, let me show you were to sit.” he says not once looking at Diana, he just kept staring up and down.

When we are seated, he heads out in the kitchen, I feel everyone stare at me the men’s facial expressions is contorted in lust, and the girls are raging jealous, not that they have any reasons to worry about their men, I don´t give a damn about them.

Out of the door comes a waitress she stops dead in her tracks and send me a death glare, when the host comes out sulking, I get the feeling that they is or was an item, an judging by the look she sends me I think I´m the reason of the problems. I feel myself tense at her aggression, fortunately just before she comes to our table, she is stopped by our regular servant Jin he is quite cute and is just about the only man that doesn´t make me feel uncomfortable , they discuss with each other for sometimes before she nods and throw another death glare in my direction and walk back into the kitchen.

Jin walks over to us, “hello beautiful women, I´m sorry you had to witness that, but I presume you are here for the usual” he winks at us.

“Ohh Jin you know us too well, and you know what drinks to get us as well” Diana exclaims and giggle.

“Of course, I do, I will be right back with your drinks” he says and wander off.

“what on earth was that girl’s problem?” Diana asks me. As she says it out loud I sense the majority of the customers are watching me. Apparently, she feels the hostility as well even though it is directed at me.

Jin comes back with our drinks, and we talk a bit about our purchases, my mood is going downhill because of the hostility. We eat in silence, and I can’t help but wonder what has changed lately, I mean men have always seemed interested but this is just plain out crazy, and for some odd reason I know that I´m the reason.

 When we are finished I say to Diana that I need some fresh air, and that I will meet her outside, she nods at me.

when I am outside a walk to the ally between the restaurant and the boutique next to it, I am breathing heavily like my survival depends on it.

When something all the way down catch my eyes it look like a couple in a tight embrace, and she looks lost for the world. I feel myself blushing for intruding, so I begin to back away when my foot accidentally hits a can on the ground, and the male suddenly stops his actions with the girl, let her go and she just slump down. He turns towards me and other than the outlines of him, because of that I am sure, all I can see is a pair of crimson glowing red eyes, which hold nothing but pure thrill of the hunt, as a ferocious growl escape him.

Everything human about him or it is gone he is a predator, and it seems I am his prey, my thoughts goes back to my nightmares, this seems awfully familiar. So I back away slowly, the eyes are certainly following me. Around the corner I am still backing and then my back hits a chest who´s owner wraps his arms around me and comforts me, and I know Nate is comforting me, and my heart beats rapidly. My eyes wonder back to the ally, I walk with Nate back to the corner and glance down there, but there are nothing to see, even the girl who had seemed unconscious is gone.

We goes back where we meet up with Diana and a male who looks like he should be on the cover of a magazine, I guess he is Nates cousin, boy that family has hit the gene lottery. I see both of them are sending me curious glances. But the silent communication between Nate and him don’t miss my attention, it´s obvious that Nate are trying to convince his cousin that I am not a complete lunatic.

“I´m sorry you had to witness that, I´m normally not that freaked out I just got surprised, but now then I´m really happy to meet you I´m Serena”

He shook his head obvious confused but shrug his shoulders and his face split in a open grin “please to meet you even if it feels like I have known you half my life because of Nate. Now Let´s get going since there is still school tomorrow.”

Before I know it we are all stuck in Nate´s truck on our way back to the college and the episode was just a freak situation and maybe even something I imagined, and will not happen again. Or at least I hope so.