Being his halal

Chapter sixteen.

Annur's POV.

In two days time we'll be leaving to go back to new York. The last three days I told hatina how I felt, I expressed my feelings to her and I meant it. I was in love, for the first time I didn't feel like something was missing, not like when I was with hani and she's always fighting with me.

If anyone told me I was going to fall in love I wouldn't have believed. But they say you fall in love when you least expect it. I never thought I would fall in love especially with hatina, I never even knew I was in love until I realized what was beside me, who was beside me always. She's always on my mind and even when I try to push her off I couldn't.

I never expected marriage to be this sweet but with hatina it is extraordinary, she being all innocent and all and I being wild and exposed. The way her skin feels when I touch her and the way she looks so flustered when I kiss the hell out of her, and the way she let's me touch her which I never expected. She has been nothing but a faithful, loving and dream wife anyone could ask for. She never nags or complain but try to understand with you. She never resisted from letting me touch her even when she knew our relationship was shaky, she still gave herself like a responsibility.

I can't recall when my heart started beating for hatina, but I do remember her being on my mind when she said she wanted to go on a honeymoon, I don't even know why I did it but I went out that day and processed two passports for us, I knew she would like Paris so I chose there. Before we got married I never really looked at the woman. she is beautiful, smart, if I go on it'll never end , all I can think of is just her and our moments together both romantic and intimate.

I told hatina I love her but she didn't say anything, she blushed like she was going to burst, she nodded her head and I hugged her tightly. I guess its a step forward, although she didn't say it back the way I wanted but I got it out of my chest. I felt relieved after telling her, I knew I had been feeling uneasy lately but after seeing her that day and how innocent she was due to my touch it was beautiful not to talk of how she danced, I could never have believed she could dance, not to talk how she danced so beautiful I couldn't resist but tell her how I felt.

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We got home after a long tiring journey. We are staying in my parents house for sometime before we go back to ours.

Hatina said she wanted to meet my parents and siblings immediately but through out the whole flight she slept like a baby. After hours of flying we were finally back, the car was already waiting for us while we got there.

"Babe" I said waking hatina up from the bed.

"Uhm.. Are we there yet" she spoke tiredly.

"Yes we're and you slept through out the flight" I told her.

"Sorry I was just so tired" she spoke sitting up.

"Feeling better now?" I ask her.

"I am. Thank you" she spoke why I give her my hand to get up from the bed. She smiled brightly taking my hand to get up but falls slightly but not before I caught her.

"Careful" I say "guess you're still a bit tired" I hold her up.

"I'm fine" she says smiling but I still hold her leading her out of the plane.

"Good day Mr abubakar" the driver greets as we get out.

"How are you john" I reply back gesturing hatina closer to me with one hand on her waist.

"Fine, thank you. Hope you enjoyed you honeymoon Mrs abubakar" he asks.

"I did" she turns to look at me smiling. Oh yes we did. We got into the car and john drove off to my parents house. On arriving we met them all at the entrance.

"Alhamdulilah, they're back" I hear dad say as we get out.

"Salam dad, salam mom" I said and hatina followed and did the same to mom.

"Salam my boy. Wassalam my dear. How was you honeymoon" she spoke asking both hatina and I.

"Wonderful" I spoke. "It was good Alhamdulilah" hatina replied.

"That's so good to hear. " annur i hope you treated her well" dad asks. I turn to hatina to meet her blushing . God this girl is going to be the death of me.

"Why don't you ask her" I replied still looking at her.

"Anuur treated me very well dad, more than I could imagine" she replies and I smile widely. Yeah that's more like it.

"Alhamdulilah thats good, i wish the both of you a very happy life. By the way Faiz and faiza have been Waiting for your arrival" dad spoke.

"Where are they by the way" I ask.

"Brother!!" I hear faiza say as she and faiz come out. "Its so good to see you." " salam brother" faiz spoke embracing me into a tight hug.

"Salam faiz and salam to you too faiza" faiza came in too for a hug.

"I see you've all missed me, how are you kids." I said hitting faiz arm.

"When will you stop calling us kids annur, as you can see I'm a big girl, who has grown into a beautiful young woman and we're fine by the way." Faiza disagreed.

"Like never. We're both tired why don't we go inside" I requested holding unto hatina's hand.

"Sure" faiz replied while we get in. " brother you are a damn lucky man, she is really beautiful " faiza spoke coming closer to us on the couch. I turn to hatina to find her smiling I couldn't resit but drag her closer to me. "I'm faiza its really nice to meet you, I've been waiting for so long" faiza giggled like a little girl.

"Thank you. Its my pleasure by the way you are really pretty Masha Allah" hatina spoke.

"I'm faiz by the way, don't mind my little sister its really nice to meet you, I'm so sorry we couldn't attend your wedding" faiz said sincerely.

"No worries at all, I understand. Please don't apologize it wasn't your fault" hatina spoke sincerely.

"Wait who are you calling little sister? When will I stop telling you this. We are twins" faiza defended rolling her eyes while we just laughed.

"Enough you too, don't you see they're both tired, they need to eat have a good bath and rest not to be debating with the two of you" mom spoke.

"Yes mom" they both replied.

"Annur, Hatina the food will be ready soon okay? Why don't you rest a bit?

"Yeah that's good. Thank you" I say back to mom

"Well since dinner isn't ready yet why don't have a little chat, what do you say" faiz said.

"Yes, that's good its been long" I got up " I'll be with faiz in the garden" I spoke to hatina. "You know where to find me if you need anything." I ask and she nodded. I move closer to her so I could whisper in her ear. " I want to kiss the hell out of you right now but I can't. These kids don't need to see that" I spoke whispering to her alone with one hand on her thigh and I could feel her shiver.

"I won't be long" I say composing myself then leaning in to kiss her temple. I could see her cheek heat up and that made me so happy that I didn't need a reply from her.

"Aww, see annur can't leave his wife for a Second". Faiza said. well of course she'll be the one to say that as they both laughed.

"Yes I can't, so finish your studies and quickly get married so you can leave this house." I said dragging faiz.

"Are you chasing me away."

"Yes, I am" I yelled so she could hear me as I and faiz reached the door. We got to the garden and sat.

"How is marriage life, brother ." Faiz asked turning towards me.

"Its good actually, like really good, better than I expected" I replied sincerely.

"its only been two months and I can see love all over your face." Faiz sa

"Like they say you never know when you fall in love, suddenly all that occupies you mind is that person" I said to him.

When he said that, a thought came to me, I remember not liking hatina and didn't want to get married but after we got married I started seeing her differently. Dad talked to me, advised me like a father is supposed to do to a son, shared lessons with me and who am I not to take heed. After all, Allah did join us together through our parents.

"She's really beautiful." Faiz said breaking me out of my thoughts.

" She's more than beautiful."

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Hatina's POV.

Seeing annur's siblings was really nice, especially faiza, she is really beautiful and has brown hair but looks more like her mom, while faiz had black hair but looked a lot like annur just the miniature version.

Talking with faiza is really nice, I loved her sense of humor, she is bold, a talkative, and she is just awesome and we just connected immediately.

"So hatina, do you love my brother?", I know he could be a jerk sometimes." She asked kicking me with her arm and making me laugh.

"You're very funny, to be honest i never thought i would be saying this but yes i do, i love him but I'm scared to tell him." I said bringing my face down.

"Why?" she asked.

"You know why" I told her.

"Ohh you're scared he won't feel the same way" I nodded at her question.

"hatina, can't you see, annur is madly in love with you." she said.

"Yes I know, he said it but I just have this fear, you get". I know annur said he loves me but I'm too scared to believe that.

" Yes I totally understand. But trust me if annur is in love he doesn't hide it, and another thing about him he's always honest. So I know he loves you" faiza said making me feel a lot better but that doesn't still mean I'm ready to tell him how I feel.

We got to know each other better, her birthday was march 2, annur was April 10th, and she got to know mine which was June 13th.

"Really, June 13th." She asked surprised "

"Yes why are surprised."

"Because its in two days."

"What's in two Days" I asked honestly.

"Your birthday, you don't even realize it, I guess annur has taken so much of your brain in Paris." I laughed as she said that.

"I totally forgot."

"Well we better start preparing, let me go and tell annur." She said happily.

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The rest of the night was pretty simple,everyone came down for dinner and we all talked. I was surprised annur didn't bring up anything about my birthday, maybe faiza forgot.

After that everyone was tired and just went to sleep.

"Babe" I hear annur say.

"Yes, ." I replied looking up at him.

"When are we going to have kids, am not forcing you, I just wanted to ask, you know so I wouldn't rush things and make you uncomfortable." Annur asked taking me by surprised. He wanted to have kids. No not that I don't want to, I do in fact I always dream about having my own kids, taking them to school, feeding them breakfast.

I sat up moving my head from his chest and bowed my head. To say I felt bad would be an understatement. I was depriving him of something just because I was scared.

"Hey I'm sorry I didn't meant t...." Anuur spoke from behind me but I stopped him.

"No please don't apologize, its not your fault. I should have known sooner or later this topic would be brought up. It's my fault I'm depriving you of something just because of my fear, I'm really sorry" I tell him still bowing my head.

"Don't talk like that please. You know you can tell me anything. Babe what's wrong, why don't you want us to" he asks and tears well up in my eyes. I'm so grateful to have someone like annur who doesn't pressurize me. It's been more than a month now and I haven't let us been intimate and still he isn't mad about it.

"I'm scared annur, I'm sca..." I tried to speak but the tears stroll down my eyes. Annur saw that and came closer to me holding me still. "I'm scared to have kids, I'm scared I won't treat them right or be like a mother should. I want to give them all the love and not treat them like I was treated. I don't want to become like my mom" I spoke as the tears continue to fall.

"Shh , come here" he drags me to face him. "Look at me. You are not your mother, hatina don't ever think like that, you are the most caring, loving person I have ever seen and to talk about our kids I have no doubt that you will be a great mother, by the way you're not alone in this, you have me. Know that" he says as I stare into his eye seeing all the sincerity there is in his words. "I love you hatina and I'm willing to wait to the time you are ready" he spoke.

"I'm so happy to have you as my husband. Thank you so much annur. I promise we will, real soon, we will consummate our marriage I promise inshaAllah" I tell him.

"I believe you" he says smiling. I lean in as he does the same giving him a goodnight kiss.

"I love you okay?" He say and I nod. I lean in again and intertwine our lips blissfully. He lyes back as I return back to his chest. Not reaching up to 5 minutes my phone rings. I pick it up seeing an unknown number, I wonder who it is by this time.

"Hello" no one answered.

There wasn't a voice speaking and it was weird so I decided to pray and then hung the phone, maybe it was a wrong number.

"Who was that." Annur asked.

"I don't know, I think its a wrong number." I said going back to lye down with annur.

"Okay, be careful, now get some rest.."