Misery Is Sweet

Chapter 19 Talking It Out

Meika's POV

We continue to stare deep into each other's eyes and I can't seem to love this amazing moment more. It's the moments like this that let me know how perfect he really is for me. My heart and mind feel at ease in this moment and I'm hoping and praying he is feeling the same.

I need all of this more than he knows for my sanity.. not just the amazing s*x but him being by my side to be the rock I need and the only stability I'll probably ever have in this hard world. But I can't deny that this mind-blowing s*x is the best kind of stress reliever and just what I needed as well.

These seemingly crazy thoughts make me giggle as he curiously smirks down at me. "What?" He asks while pushing my hair behind my ear then lightly touching over my jawline. I match his smirk just to reply playfully. "I'm just in a state of shock.. but an amazed type of shock."

"Wait does that mean you didn't think the s*x would be great with me?" He asks in a shocked tone. I laugh as I shake my head again but this time reaching up to touch his cheek just as lightly as he did with mine. "No.. everything you do with me is absolutely exquisite on so many levels.. I just never thought you would share the same feelings as myself, let alone any of these amazing moments to follow.. I just feel like I'm in a type of bliss. My heart is on cloud nine but I don't know when it's going to come down." I say with a mesmerized tone that makes me sound almost delusional, but I know how I'm feeling right now.

He smiles and nods, then leaning in kissing my lips multiple times, he just pecks my lips lightly before pulling away. "That is good to know.. and if it makes you feel any better, all of that amazingness was more than I ever imagined between us as well. And may I say you were absolutely exquisite, more than I have ever deserved." He says just as softly, with us being so close again.

I giggle touching from his cheek to his soft hair, running my finertips through it, causing him to lean into my gentle touch before replying. "It was exactly what I wanted but more than I imagined as well.. I just want you to know I meant it all and this is all I want.. not just the amazing s*x but this with you.. I don't just want you, but need you with me.. you make me feel.. complete." I say to him with this unknown confidence that I don't have any idea how I acquired. He stares down at me looking so happy, then his happiness changes to sadness in a moment notice that I don't have any idea what I could have said that changed his mood. I thought I was winning him over in every aspect.

"But he will keep hurting you the longer you're with me whether we're here or not.. he has already proven this with not just you but me too." His words are filled with so much concern for both of our safety. I nod, understanding what he is talking about but I won't let that monster control my life.

"He won't tell me who I can or cannot be with.. He doesn't control my life and the more I let him win these battles the more control he gets.. that's not going to happen. I love you and want to be with you." I state with some anger and confidence behind my words as he stands up quickly. "I love you more than you know, but he will keep hurting you.. he threatened me with your life. That's not ok and I won't take that risk.. and yet here I am.. I'm such an i***t bring here with you! But I had to see you and talk with you.. You're all I want but if he finds out we're together, even now, he can hurt you worse than we ever imagined.. I would never forgive myself if anything happened to you because of me." He tries to explain now pacing around my room feelings stupid with his decisions to come to me.. But I want him to always come to me for anything.. I want to be the same support for him that he has been for me.

I contemplate everything he has said and his statement is filled with so much concern and love.. but the love he has for me is pushing him away from me, which is the opposite effect I was hoping for.

I shake my head, standing up in front of him to stop his pacing. I push up on the balls of my feet then to my toes to give me some height, "Look at me." He looks down as his eyes fill with tears. "Listen to my words.. You're all I want in this life, until my last breath. You understand me?" I ask with a stern tone as he nods but some of the silent tears fall. "I feel the same.. but your safety means more to me than my happiness." He adds as I shake my head loving and hating that answer all the same.

"I WON'T let my brother control my life.. Please Kris, don't let him control yours.. run away with me and never look back. We can be happy together and never have to worry about this place ever again.. I would do anything for you." I almost beg of him as a loud banging is heard on the door that's besides us. But this banging sounds aggressive.. So I can only assume who that is.

My eyes widen as I grab his shirt and tossing it to him along with his other clothes. He quickly gets dressed and looking around the room, probably not knowing where to go. There is no secret escape route from here and not even a window to try to attempt leaving secretly. So he looks like a kid caught reaching into the cookie jar.

I have an idea and I just hope it works. So I take control, I push him back against the wall directly behind the door, putting my finger to my lips. I go to my bathroom and taking out a towel to wrap around me. I open the door only a little bit to see a pissed off looking Craig, with a handful of guards around him.. Since my father named him the main control over the company he has these guys following him around like lost puppies. He is never alone and I will never expect it from now on.

"What do you want? I was just trying to relax and take a shower but of course here you are once again interrupting anything I do.. and why? Who the f*#k knows why you do the stupid things you do." I spat at him catching him off guard. He thinks about my words for a moment before he smacks the door loudly in my face, startling me and he kniws it. "I heard you had company." He snaps at me but not objecting to what I had to say which shows I'm partially right. But he will never admit it outloud.

"Well what you heard was wrong.. If there was someone here don't you think I would know it? I'm just trying to get ready to go to bed and here you are being a creeper and having people watch me.. just go away and leave me be." I tell him as he shoves the door open but I hold it right in front of Kristoff so it doesn't hit him. He is still hidden behind the door with the help of the shadow in that corner of the room.

I watch Craig look around in my bathroom then my closet and then glaring at me. I swallow with nervousness as he storms back to the doorway where I continue to stand by just hoping he doesn't notice my man behind me.

"Do you not have a window in this tiny closet you call a room?!" he demands as I chuckle and mock him. "Does it look like I have a window? I don't have much of anything in here. What you see is what I got." He huffs out in defeat still looking around but obviously not finding anything. "Now can you please leave so I can take a shower and go to bed.. I'm exhausted." I spat at him rolling my eyes and showing my annoyance to him so he gets the picture.

"Well fine, just know I'm watching you and everything you do." he spats as I retort without hesitation, "Yeah like a creeper would." I notice his jaw clench at that comment but he still keeps his mouth shut.. that's surprising.. he never has held himself back.. strange.. I wonder what that means or what's going on.

He glares down at me before turning to walk away down the hallway with his goons in tow. Once he is out of sight I shut my door just to press my body to Kristoff's. He wraps his arm around my waist as we kiss again. I peel my lips from his just to say. "This was all so amazing.. But.. You better go before he gets back.. I'll see you tomorrow at 10 packed and ready to leave this hell hole.. thanks again for this memorable night." I say softly to him. He doesn't say anything back to me, just kisses me with a passion that's filled with hunger, so hypnotizing to say the least. "I love you Meika.. more than you'll ever know and everything I do is for you.. remember that." He states as I smile and nod loving this and not wanting it to end, but knowing it has to. "Go before he comes back or someone sees you." I command and he nods sneaking out of the room and back to his. I watch the door shut behind him as I quickly close mine... That was something I'm going to recall everytime I'm having a bad day I promise you that. I'll be dreaming of that for a while.

I grab my necklace he gave me, holding it out between my fingers just to look at it. I smile and sigh as a huge smile covers my face thinking of everything that transpired. I flop onto my bed letting the exhaustion hit me just as hard as I thought it would and before I know it, I'm out like a light.