Lucky to Die?!

It was June... the 19th of June, 2020; the day when I decided to become a "brave" criminal. Always thought about that. Something deep inside me was telling, ‘Do this!’ Usual morning. 6:30 am. The f*****g alarm clock rings. ‘OH MY!’, thought. ‘Again! Have to woke up and go to work while somebody is still sleeping in another room. This damn lady, who doesn’t have a job, sleeps until 12 pm’. I set the alarm clock – 7:00 am. Will be good! I need more time.   7:00 am! It is time to woke up and, finally, stand up from the warm and comfortable bed. Went to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee. This black liquid is my SURVIVAL; always gives me energy. Dressed up, brushed my hair, put a face cream and 7:30 am left.   At work: laughing and drinking coffee. Usual day. Chatting with friendly colleagues, but... inside I have already had this calculated plan. The evil  IDEA came when I was sleeping.   Looking at the clock. Damn, it is 11:00 am! One more hour to suffer!   12:00 pm. Going to my half sweet home, finally. Went to the shop to buy some alcohol and cigarettes. Cigarettes, mmm. Love to smoke. After hard work, you come back home; just sit in the balcony and puff. The body feels the ease; Happiness! Addicted, but feeling cool.   This stupid FADE is walking around. Already woke up. Playing with her smart phone, watching TV and does nothing. Anger appears.   ‘How was the work?’, she asked. ‘It was fine. Don’t worry’, I answered. ‘My colleagues told some jokes today and the hours passed somehow. What were you doing?’ ‘Nothing’.   ‘Yeah, yeah’, thought. ‘Like always nothing. What can you do? If you even can’t find physical work; just living from the others and sucking them’.   OH MY GOSH, how much I hate this woman. The total mistake sent from the heaven. When I see her, my blood in my veins starts to jump because of this grudge.   Went to my cleaned room. Turned the computer on. Thought will read something.   Will do this at 3 pm what I planned all day. Read what the side effects are and checked my sss: what new is on it.   ‘Maybe you want some eggs?’, I asked her. ‘Yeah, maybe two will be perfect’.   Put 4 huge eggs; two for me. Hot water and in 5 or 10 mins will be ready.   They boiled. Went to smoke. While coming back, I took my ingredient X. Like in WIC company’s game „Die or Survive“.   ‘Do you want coffee?’ ‘Yes, two two’. ‘OK’.   As prepared coffee KNEW today this BINT will get what she deserves. One cup is blue; another is red – hers. Put my ingredient X to the red cup. POISON! Rat poison because she is the rat as well.   Started to eat. I gave this mixture drink-coffee and waited. These 20 years in a "wonderful" prison will be like heaven.   Pyp! Pyp! Pyp! A message! She stood up. Quick move. Grabbed the phone and while turning hit the red cup. Felt on the floor. BROKE!!!   ‘She’s LUCKY! No painful death today. Survived, damn!’ But no worries! Next time will be her last one. I don’t give up! I WON’T! Like in the WIC game patiently will wait for 7 days more. She won’t ESCAPE. PROMISE!!!