Sue

Track 12

                    It was many and many a year ago, In the kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you May   know By the name of Annabel Lee; And this maiden she lived with no Other thought Than to love and be loved by me. I was a child and she was a child, In this kingdom by the sea, But we loved with a love that was more Than love- I and my Annabel Lee- With a love that winged seraphs of Heaven Coveted her and me. And this was the reason that, long ago, in this kingdom by the sea, A wind blew out a cloud, chilling My beautiful Annabel Lee; So that her highborn kinsmen came And bore her away from me, To shut her up in a sepulcher In this kingdom by the sea. The angels, not half so happy in Heaven, Went envying her and me- Yes! - That was the reason (as all men Know,In this kingdom by the sea) That the wind came out of the cloud by Night, Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee. But our love it was stronger by far than The love 'if those who were older than we- Of many far wiser than we- And neither the angels in heaven Above Nor the demons down under the sea can ever dissever my soul from the soul of the beautiful Annabel Lee; For the moon never beams, without Bringing me dreams Of the beautiful Annabel Lee; And the stars never rise, but I feel the Bright eyesOf the beautiful Annabel Lee; And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by The side of my darling-my life And my bride, In her sepulcher there by the sea- In her tomb by the sounding sea."Love never happens the same way twice"

Harlow skipped the next day of school and I was glad. I needed to be alone or as alone as you could be in a school full of children Mia seemed to automatically understand what I needed from the first look at my face she was still at my side whenever our schedule permitted it but she didn't try to converse with me instead just letting her presence be like a sort of anchor as mine floated through the day on autopilot with my brain deep in thought about thing far to mature for me

                                Math class

"Alright class can anyone tell me what x and y are if 2x+3y=4x"

                            Would she ever consider getting an abortion? 

"Carmen stop talking like those weird Korean bands you listen to"

                            Is abortion really killing a baby?

"Can someone please wake Demittre up"?

                        How do you even bring such a topic up? 

"No Caroline you may not be excused to the bathroom because you think this lesson is stupid"

                    Do you just like to come out and say it?

                                            Science class

"So who here would like to be the first to cut open their frog?"

                        Did I have the guts to even suggest such a thing?

"Oh tommy if you are going to throw up please take that outside I just cleaned up from the blood"

                        Has she even thought of a plan?

"Matta! Put that frog back in it's cage and stop shoving it in Carson's face!"

                       Surely she doesn't think that hooking up in the back of a biker joint is love?

"Carson! Stop screaming like that you are giving me a headache"

                        Does she think thats love?

                                                  History class

"Lets talk about the French revolution"

                         What hell even is love when it comes to teenage relationships? 

"No Tye, French fries were not the reason behind the French revolution"

                         Are we even capable of love? 

"Caroline no you may not sleep in my class because you don't think you'll use this lesson in everyday life"

                    Do our hearts even contain the capacity to love another human the way they deserve to be? 

"Carmen what language are you even speaking?"

                                                        Art class:

"Draw what you feel when you see the person to the left of you"

                           Mia looks really good today 

"Don't be afraid of different colors it can add to the picture"

                          I get butterflies when Mia and me kiss

"But it can also take away from the main purpose of the picture"

                        I wonder what she gets when we kiss

"Hannah you why did you draw a shirtless harry styles?"

                      She's not telling me something I can see it in her eyes

"No. Holding your phone to the left of you does not count"

                                             English class:

"We are going to have a class discussion on last night's reading

                  Is it possible to be in love at such a young age?

"Ok lets start with you Sade' what are some feeling you had while reading last night?"

               Hell can I even call what Harlow and I have love?

"Those are some great points now Morgan care to build off that."

Mom's words from last night rang in my ears as my brain chewed over the self-asked question "Love never happens the same way twice" With that rule, trying to compare my (for now lets call it "unnamed") feelings for Harlow to what my parents called love was a waste of my time But if I had nothing to compare what I was feeling to then how was I suppose to understand what I was feeling 

Was this love?

Was this lust?

Was this all a dream?

Hell did I even have feelings for her or was I just using this as an excuse to channel all my teenage hormones and angst into one avenue so I didn't have to worry about 5 other things in my life? 

Was the dream token thing still spinning at the end of inception?