RAY LINE

SEE A DOCTOR

SEE A DOCTOR

Hey! You need to see a doctor, in order not to assume what is wrong with you”, says Lucy to me.

I could not understand how I was feeling after. Moreover, Lucy, my beloved friend who took me in before I met with Bob, kept pressurizing me to find out what is wrong with me. I did not know exactly what to say because I was also confused. I was now throwing up at every single interval and feeling very dizzy this time around.

“Lucy, I do not think I am alright. I need to see a doctor right now”, were my words to my friend. While I was still talking, I just realized I went blank, and it was as if, I was been forced into a vehicle. I could not explain what was happening to me. Suddenly, I found myself in utter darkness, with very scary scenes. The rest of the knowledge I have about all that happened was what Lucy my friend told me. She said I slummed immediately, I said, “I need to see a doctor right now”. I could remember my eyes were spinning and my head throbbing with excruciating pains. When I later found myself in the hospital, with a drip connected to my right wrist. When I woke up, I saw Lucy sitting beside me and asked her, “What happened to me?”

“Susan, you slummed after you said, “I need to see a doctor right now. However, some tests were carried when the doctor cross-examined you. The doctor communicated to me that you are pregnant.” Says Lucy.

“Lucy! What did you say?” was Susan’s response in great amazement.

“The doctor told me that you are pregnant,” says Lucy.

(Susan boasted into tears…)

“I am finished! Where do I start? Where do I run? How can I even talk to relate this to my parent?” says Susan, “I have brought shame to my family. I feel like taking my life right now. Calm down, Susan,

Lucy says, “Everything will be alright. It is not of the world. This may turn out to be a blessing to you. Relax and try not thinking about what has happened from a negative perspective.”

(Susan still talking to Rayline)

They discharged me from the hospital; however, I was very discouraged. I was used to doing a lot of talking, but suddenly, I found myself talking to myself and was even angry with myself, because I felt no one was listening to me anymore, including my friend Lucy. Now, things that seem important to me, amounts to nothing to me with what has happened to thwart my character. I do not dare to face it. I had thought home was where we came from, but now I know that home is where we are going now. You are like a ray travelling me home and I cannot wait to reach the home where your ray will alight. I know I will certainly know when I finally find the home apart from where I came from. If you are a mistake, indeed, you are a good one.

Now, that my mama is gone, and my papa is aged and full of grieve, because of the shame I brought the family, I no longer think home as where I am from, but as where I am going. I have missed mama, her demise shifts my ideological belief about life and home is. Her warmth and friendly place with cookies on the table and fresh-made buttered cheese, is no longer comfortable for me, because of my mistake. It will interest you to know that my mama passed on when my papa opened his mouth to say, “I disown you from being my daughter. You brought shame to my family and have thwarted my integrity.”

Rayline, the truth is we will not have a real home anymore until my mama is there and we feel her presence and warmth.

While Susan is still talking to her daughter, her friend Lucy walked in.

Hi, Susan!

Hi, Lucy…

Susan quickly wipes off the tears in her heavy red eyes. However, Lucy realized that Susan was talking to Rayline, while she walked in, but paused talking immediately she saw her. Susan asked Rayline to excuse her and her friend, Lucy, and Rayline went into the inner room.

Lucy asked Susan, “What are you discussing with your little daughter?” and Susan responded, “Nothing serious…”

“But I could see the seriousness of the discussion you claimed not to be serious. Moreover, your eyes have said it all. I hope you are not telling your daughter about your experiences. She is too young to be dragged in…”

“Lucy, my beloved friend”, said Susan, “My daughter is a woman, no matter how young she is and I cannot wait until she is old enough before building her mindset against this desperately evil world full of beasts like her father Bob. I am full of anguish. Therefore, I am telling her all she needs to know, how it all started before she will start asking me questions because her classmates are already mocking her that her father had never visited her in school.”

Hmmm! Lucy sighed and said, “It is ok if you said it is ok! If you think that is the right to do, then, it is all right. Well, I have come to encourage you, not to flog yourself too much because of past mistakes. Is this even a mistake? I wish I can only wish I was you because right now, I am desperately desperate.”

Susan smiled at Lucy and said, “You have not changed, you have a way of calming brewing tension with your humorous way of presenting things. Thanks for always been there as a good friend. I know better days are ahead of us.”

“I want to take you and your daughter out”, said Lucy to Susan, “You need to dress up and make sure your dress is looking hot to burn out the beast in men, even when they are from to east and wants to feast with you, the experiences you have got at least. You have to pull out of this state of mind you have long remain in. This has long deprived you of expression the glory of your beauty. If I can admire you as a lady what will men do?”

“You are not serious Lucy”, said Susan, “I do not need the admiration of any man, because men are beasts and right now, I cannot drag myself into the current of any beast, because of the current unit that hides the beast in the best things we seem to desire as women. I have learnt my lesson and I have had enough from men and would not want to encounter another Bob. Do you know what? I see all men as Bob.”