Beyond the clouds

It seemed like everything I’ve ever done or seen has led me to this exact moment.  Counting to three until I can exhale , submerged under water.. Trying to focus on what my life had become. A 25 years old girl with the pain of the world on my shoulders. It’s all so messed up .. But I for once can see why it gotta happens the way it did. I’ve been too good and there’s no way I can turn it back around now. You see my life is on the outside a perfect world shining with pink hues and golden sky’s .. So why do I feel the way I do everyday. I don’t have any more time I have to enter this parallel realm where it all started.