My Ex-wife is My CEO

HE IS SORRY

***ALENA'S P.O.V***

Chris came and said sorry for it. He said sorry that he did this and that happened because of what his father said and, honestly, I said bad things to him when I heard that his father wanted him to marry Myra. I just didn't like it at all. I just don't know about it like this. I just know one thing, that I just didn't like this, that he could be of someone else's. This is just not something that I like. I just don't like it. I just feel that this is, so I didn't have any words for it. I wanted to tell him that I loved him. I just could not.

He said that he didn't want to be with Myra, but he didn't say that he wanted to be with me. I just have to stop myself. I just have to make it clear to myself that this is just not what I want and what I want to do. That is what I just don't want to know why.

After I did my work, I went out of my cabin.I looked at Chris' cabin but no one was there. Why was he not there? He would have been there. What is it? "Are you searching for him?"

Blair came and then said I looked at him but didn't say anything that I would say, that I wanted to talk to Chris.

"He is gone, Alena. He was upset so he just left." I know why he was upset. Chris, I am sorry I am being like this. I am extremely sorry, but I love you.

"No, actually I just had to talk to him about his contract and a few of his concerts, that's it." I just said that, which is not true. The truth is, I want to talk to him and tell him that I am extremely sorry for what happened. It was not my intention. I just didn't mean to do that. I just didn't want that to happen or mean that

"Alena just knows that he still loves you. Your words do hurt him, so please just be gentle with him because of this word, because it hurts him a lot and I know that you are very smart, so you understand what I am saying and why I am saying this." I was shocked when Blair said that he still loves Chris and still loves me.

But no, I have to control my emotions. I can't let my family get hurt because of this. I just could not let that happen. This is just not what I will let happen would "the Blair's mine and Cris chapter was just over a years ago. If we dig them, then it will cause pain for a lot of people and I don't want that to happen. I hope that you understand what I am trying to tell you."

I told him, then he nodded at me. I know that it might sound rude to others, but this is just the truth. We just can't start it all over. We have it all again. It is just not possible for no one, not for me, I I. not for anyone else. ". I don't know why you are acting like this, but deep down you also know that he just loves you and actually he has just loved you for all his life. Don't do this. Alena just accepted that she also wanted him in her life. It's OK what you are saying but you choose your love and what you want is not called selfishness or wrong. You both want each other, you both need each other even if you will not accept it."

I don't know what to say about this. Do we really need each other seriously, do we need each other? No, we don't. I took a deep breath and then I just left from there. I don't want to. I don't want to say that I am just done with this topic. This topic just doesn't make me feel that I should argue or think about it. I just don't want any sort of complication. I just know that

As I reached home, mom looked at me and then she came to me with a smile on her. I knew that she wanted to say something.

"Alena, you know what look who came this." she pointed at Alexander my schook friend i went to him and then i just hugged him

He is just a pure soul that he can be. He is a very good man. "How are you, Alena? I thought that you would not recognize me when you saw me, but just look at me, you still remember me. This is good. I am happy that you still remember me."

"How I would have forgotten you. We have both been together during my school days. By the way, I was shocked to see you here. I didn't expect you to be here, but you are here. I am impressed by this." he just smiled at me and said

"For sure, it's my pleasure only to let that happen. By the way, the question is how come you have not changed. Even after so many years. You are still so beautiful and gorgeous. How come it is this way?" I smiled at him and then we both sat on the couch on both sides and talked for a while, then I headed to my room. Later on, my mom came and then placed my clothes in my room.

"This is so good, na Alena, I am just so shocked to see him that he is still here. That this way, he is so grown up now and that is just great, isn't it?"

"Yes mom." I am just upset with all this that happened and everything, but the more about what I am upset about is because of his family, that his family wants him to marry Myra. How can they just desire something like that? Do they not think before saying that? I accept that we are what we should now, but we still just think about it. This is just killing me to even imagine him with someone else.

"Alena, what happened? Why are you so quiet? Did something tell me, is everything alright or not tell me Alena? Just look at me. Tell me what if is alright or not." I smiled at her and said,

"Yes mom, everything is just good. Um, I was just a bit tired. That is why I just zoned out. Sorry what were you saying." she held my hand and then made me sit in the bed with her.

"Alena, I am your mother and, unfortunately, I understand what you feel and how you feel. Do just don't think about it, like you could feel me. I did something that happened to you and Chris did. He said something. Alena, tell me where I am here. Just tell me." she asked, and then tears just came out of my eyes. What am I gonna say to my mom? I just dont know, but I know that I am just in pain. I just know that only

"Mom, today Chris's father came to the office. He talked rudely and he just told everyone that Chris and I were husband and wife. He just said" this is all it is." I just dont know what it is or what it is gonna be. Mom, now everyone knows that the story that he is telling is about me and his mom and what I am supposed to say to them now."

I told her and she looked at me and then caressed my cheek. I know that it is just not easy, but I will make it work. I will make sure that things will just not do any not.

"This is not. I tell me about. What's the real truth? I just wanna know the truth. I know that this is not gonna be good. I know what and how is gonna be OK and one more thing I wanna let you know is the truth. I want to tell you that this is just not gonna be great. OK, don't lie about me. Just tell me what it is and what's OK, it's gonna be OK. Tell me the truth, Alena, why are you so upset." and then she hugged me as I broke down and started crying. I know that this is not gonna be great, but just let it be. I know one thing very and clearly, OK and then I just wanna say what I want to tell you, but should I

"Mom, his family wants him to marry Myra Hut, he doesn't want to do that, mom, but I still. I don't know why this happened or why it happened, but it just happened. I just have no idea about it. I just wanna say that this is just not what it made me feel good about. I just felt like I was just not a great mom. I don't know why I was hurt." I told her and the tears did not stop. I just have no idea what to say and how to say. I just know one thing. This is just not great, what and how I am feeling.

This is not good ", Alena. You are upset that he will be with skin else. this is not good. Now you are both away from each other and now you should focus on being with your family and away from each other. I know that I might sound rude to you, but that is just, noy what I wanna say that I forget Alena this is just gonna cause. This pain and a lot of pain. This is just gonna do that, only just make things work ."

"I know mom, but still, even if I deny it, I just can not say it all. I just have no idea about it. OK, I just wanna say that I still love him, mom and, even though, I will be with someone else, I just killed myself." I told her and I stood flowing from my eyes. Mom tried to control me, but she was also unable to control it because I love him and I accepted. I like him a lot. I love him very much.

"Akena, control yourself dear, now. Just control. OK. I just wanna say have some patience, but just let me know that this is not. It is not how it is gonna be. I just wanna say that this is how it is gonna be. I just wanna say that this is just insane and just make sure that everything will be fine." u just took a deep breath and then let it be I know for a fact that this is not possible w

Whatever I say or, however I will say, this is not what I desire to happen. This is just not what I want it to be like.

"Mom, don't worry, I will be good in a while. Mom just relax. Everything is just gonna be good. Don't worry, OK, I am always gonna be with you and I am gonna be with your family. Don't worry about it. Just relax OK." I said, and then made my way to the washroom, I washed my face and then came out of it looking good. I know that it is just not a good idea, but for a fact, I just know that I have to be good. I have to manage myself.

I washed my face and then made my way outside my room. I took a deep breath and then I just sat down with mom, my aunt, Aaron and Alexander. I was just having my dinner when Alexander said, "So, Alena, how is it going with you in the office? I heard that you are the CEO. I am sure it is just great for you to rule. I think you are good at commanding during school days also."

He said I just smiled at him. I just dont know what to say and what not to say don't just have no idea of how to react to any of the things, "Definitely you know you both know each other so well because you both have. I just feel that this is just so great. I don't know what Aint is talking about, but for a fact, I just know that I am still in this thing and what I am I am saying to Chris. I still want him. I love him but I just can't have him. It hurts to know that it can't happen."

I had my dinner and was just about to leave when my aunt came with me to my room. I don't know why she came with me. What is the reason behind it? "What happened, aunt?"

I asked her. She smiled at me and then gave me a mug of coffee. For a fact, I know that her sweetness and everything is just not what I want right now. She wants something and, honestly, I don't know how I will be able to handle it all. "Alena, I know that you were in a lot of pain after your and Chris' divorce. You were not interested in any of the things called love, but let me tell you one thing. You think that you have to learn to do it, you just have to do it. I know that it's not gonna be easy for you, but just move on after all. After so many years, it has just moved on."

I smiled at her and said "Aunt, I have already moved on, you don't have to worry about it, aunt. I am happy in my life and whatever happened between me and Chris has just forgotten about it. I am happy and you don't have to worry about it. I am happy just look at me."

She just let her breathe out in frustration. I know that this is not what she wants to hear. She is so. He was hurt and she was just not interested in all this. I just have no idea what I should be saying and what I should not be saying.

"Alena, this is not a thing I know that you are happy with your family, but you do need a life partner in your life. Just think about him. For once, think about it. He wants to be with you, someone who wants to spend the rest of your life with you. I think it is gonna be it. I'm just thinking about it. I think beautiful it's gonna be." I held her hand.

"Aunt, I don't want anyone in my life. I am sorry, but I just don't want anyone in my life. He was extremely sorry for that. For one reason, I know that you want to see me happy and I also want that, but, aunt, I don't know what it's gonna be and you also know that being with Sonekne is not the ultimate goal of my life." I tried to make her understand. I hope that she will get them. I mean why. I mean I think I can't be with anyone. I just don't know how to tell her that I am still in love with Chris. I am and I will be. Will I accept it or not? I am just going to be in love with that man. I love him a lot. He means the world to me. He is just my everything.

"Alena, this is not it. You need someone to look at me and your mom. We dont want a life for you like this don't do this, say yes." I said yes to it. I think that this is just the only option that is left for me and I already know that there is no way that me and Chris are gonna be together, so it would be great if I would just not do something that would cause any hurt to my family in any sort of way. I just don't want that.

"OK aunt, but whom do you want me to marry and who will marry me, aunt tell me." she smiled as I asked her, as if she already had someone in her head for me. I just do know what she is going to say. I want to know what she is going to tell

"I already have someone and I know that this man is just never gonna be hurt. I know that you both will understand each other a lot and I do trust him a lot."

"Who is it, aunt? You are just confusing me. Can you tell me who it is that is in your mind? I would like to know if you are not thinking about something that is justn't gonna happen." I asked her. I just have no idea about what it is. I just hope that she will just say something that will be like. This is just not a good deal. I just have no idea what she is going to say. I don't know anything about it. I want to know about it.

"Alexander, you were the same at the same school and you both have the same values. He has become what he is today because of his hard work. I only understand you, he is just a perfect choice for you. I am so happy that you said yes to it. They are both going to be the greatest match for each of us and I can see that." I stood up. What is wrong with it? Why can she understand that this is not gonna happen? He is just a friend from school. That is all. He is. I just have no idea why she can't understand this small thing.

"Aunt, you know what, we are both just friends. That is why aunt listened to me. He is here just for a few days and I don't want you to do or create something that is not what I would let happen, aunt. Let him be here for a few days, then he can leave and nothing else other than this. I request you also not to do anything that will create a fuss like this," he asked. I just don't know that one moment she just sounded so mature and the other she just thought sounded something stupid. I dont know what he was thinking when she thought about it. We are just friends and nothing. Ese and she also have to understand this, that we are both not gonna be anything else.

"No, Alena, I am not just assuming I know that he also likes you and he will make you so happy. He will be with you because he will understand you." For a fact, I know that if Chris was unable to understand me, then there I am. There is no way that anyone will understand me. That will still just never happen and that is clear.

"No aunt, you have to hear me this is not happening. OK and one more thing. OK, don't take stress about it. OK OK because I am OK with this, OK as you are saying, so just say this and one more thing, say aunt, I didn't do this. I am just a humble request. I don't want any sort of fuss, don't you, aunt." I told her I didn't want to spoil my terms with my friends with this silly thing and I would not let that happen. In fact, I know that this is not what I want. I just said yes to her because I just wanted to ditch this topic for now, not because I wanna actually want to marry someone. This is just not what I want.

"Alena, I am right and I am telling you that you have an office tomorrow, so I am leaving right now, but I just get that he does love you and he does want you OK, so just relax and make sure that you will not hurt his feelings.". She just said it and left my room. I don't know what is wrong with her. Why can she understand this, that this is not what she thinks he is, just a friend and that is what he is gonna be. He is not gonna be my husband and I don't want to. I am not comfortable with that thing. I am just not OK with that.

I don't want anyone in my life doing this. It is all just gonna create a problem in my life and that is not what I want. I just dont want anyone to come and control my life. If it was not Chris, no one could come into my life if it wasn't him.

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