Chapter Eleven
Advice from Monica, and Help
Kevin spent a pair of days trapped in a nightmare of regret and despair, which led to self-loathing. What had he done? He had the honor of being company for a beautiful woman, sharing intimacies with her millions of men would have given anything to have, but it wasn’t enough. No, he had to go and love her. He had to want more. Why hadn’t he gone out and gotten a girlfriend and continued to enjoy his time with Diane as an aside? Wasn’t that what men did? Kept an extra girl or maybe two as a convenience? Not him. He liked to be a convenience for a woman, while she kept her eye out for a real boyfriend.
Any number of nights had gone by with him in Diane’s bed, why hadn’t he made a play for more, if that was what he wanted so badly? The fear of re
