the next generation

The house

I open my eyes and look at my surrounding, still adjusting my thoughts to what I was seeing. This was not my house nor my room. Than it came to me that I was sleeping in Nate's home and all the events of last night rushed back into my mind. I let out a sigh as I recall his strange behaviour from last night. I still don't get what his deal was. I decide that it is not my problem nor my fault. My home.. Gone. I really don't want to go look at the damage, even though I am wondering what is left of my posessions. Nate and his father both told me I can stay here in their home but I feel really bad about it. It's not that they are not nice to me, they are so kind and loving.. Well, Matthew is a bit of an introvert and I do not really know what to feel about Nate, but still. They will never harm me, that's one thing I'm sure of. I think I will define Nate as an indecisive fool for now. Even though I dread to see the damage I have to get dressed and go there before Mr. Fool will go there and decide everything on his own. I now I can't stop him, but maybe I can beat him to it. As fast as I can I get out of bed and dress myself, I put my hair in a simple high-up ponytail and put on my running shoes. Maybe I can run to my house and get some exercise with it as well. When I get to the kitchen down stairs I find Matthew. "Hey Matt, good morning!" I give him a bright smile in the hope he will return it with some answers. "Morning Liz, you're late? I thought you would be gone by now.", he is looking at me a bit puzzled. "Wha-what do you mean late?! I am the first one up?". If he is going to tell me Nate already left I will strangle the life out of mr. Fool when I arrive. "Well, Nate already left an hour ago.. So..", before he can finish his sentence I leave out of the kitchen and start running into the direction of my home. He really left without me huh? If he has trown anything away without my consent.. He can't possible know which furniture or belongings have emotional value to me. Everything in that house belonged to my parents and some even to my grandmother.. I take another deep breath and try to run as fast as I can.

Finally I can see the house as I'm closing in. I stop running and start walking towards the disaster which was still in its full glory only several hours ago. The whole right side of my house is gone, left to be nothing but trash at the border of the woods. All the floors are hit. It is as if the tree that fell down deliberately tried to ruin my life. And to make it even more typical, it was the damn tree were my mother and father once carved their names in. How often I would have touched it just to feel close to them. As I stand just three meters before my main entrance I stand still and just start crying. I hoped their would be more to safe.. It is a ruin. It would almost cost me more to fix everything up than to build an entire new home. Both options are no options to me. I don't even have enough money to go study, let alone rebuilt a house. As I got lost in my own thoughts while staring at my destroyed home I get disturbed. Mr. fool is walking right towards me from out of the house. "Hi Elisabeth, I see you came by to see the damage! Pretty bad huh?", he is saying as if it is the most normal thing in the world what is happening right now. As the tears are still sticking on my cheeks I am starting to feel anger towards him. How can he act so relaxed? He looks happy even! Why is he looking like that. "Are you serious right now!?" I cry out to him without thinking. He takes a small step back out of suprise. I can see he is trying to read me and to do so he now walks towards me. When we are only inches apart he stares into my eyes to read the colours. "Ah s**t, I'm sorry Elisabeth. I am so inconsiderate. I can see the grey and the brown. Are you angry at me?", aware of his guilt he changes his look to that of a lost puppy, trying to say sorry. On the surface I just want to keep screaming at him, I want to make him suffer for his stupid action of last night and his behaviour just now. On the other hand, deep down inside of me  I can feel this pull towards him. I want to burry myself in his chest and She djust cry out for everything I have lost. As I do not know what to do I just keep standing there and focus my eyes on the ground before my feet. Within that area of sight I can see his brought chest going up and down a little faster. He is getting worried. I know I am a horrible person when I say this, but I am happy that he is worried. I want to punish him a bit. 

*Nate's POV * 

I woke up at six in the morning, not that I had sleep at all after meeting with my beautiful Elisabeth. Last night I really went to far with her. She does not even know who I am  or more specific: what I am. Hell, she doesn't even know what she is herself. She doesn't even know the concept of a mate. Her body must not yet have recognized me as hers. SHe is supressing her instincts way to much to understand what is happening between us. It took all my willpower to leave her alone last night and I am sure she is mad at me for it as well. My mind kept spinning all night, about her house as well. When I came here in the morning and looked at all the damage I couldn't help myself. I was and still am so glad that the house is destroyed. Now she has to stay close to me. I can keep an eye on her and make her understand our world without her leaving all the time. Since my pack is full with handy men and women we will be able to renovate it, but it would take us weeks and we have our own work too. I entered the house and all I could see was broken wood, dust, scattered glass and some things that must have ones looked like neat furniture. She will cry her eyes out when she will see this ruin. I am walking around when I see some pictures on the floor, they must have hanged on the wall. I pick it up and see a man and a woman standing together. She is holding her babygirl in her arms. This baby must be Elisabeth. I can see the resemblance between her and her parents. The people in the picture look radiant and full of love. I take the picture out of the shatered photo frame and put in my pocket, she must want this picture. I will buy her a new photo frame and put it on her night stand in the guest room as a suprise for her. I'm sure she will be happy and will forget her anger or dissapoinment fast. As happy as I was inside of the house, roaming around, my mood changed as soon as I hear crying outside. Elisabeth. I will cheer her up a bit. I walk out the house and see her standing right before me. I mumble some words at her and she freaks out. Wooww, wrong words. Wrong words! s**t. I regain my confidence and walk towards her. I am her mate, I should be able to know what to do to make her happy again. I look in her eyes and see the grey and brown. Grey was sad and brown was angry. She must have interpreted my smile as inconsideration. As I try to apologize to her, she starts to look down. What do I do? I am an Alpha, I know what to do in times of war and I know what is good for my family, but a sad girl who just lost her home. That is a real challenge. "Elisabeth, we will figure it out. I'm sorry if I did anything to anger you or make you sad. My family and me are right here for you, every step of the way",  I put my finger gently  under her chin, forcing her to look at me. Her eyes get even wetter. Suddenly she wraps her arms around me and burries her face into my chest. As as reflex I hold her even tighter against me as I can feel my shirt getting wet of her tears. "Shh.. It's okay my love.. uhh.. ly, my lovely Elisabeth". She looks up at me, still close to my chest. "I am really angry with you, you know! You can't deside everything for me. I feel really lost.". Her emotions are all over the place, even in these two sentences. "I'm sorry. I was only trying to help. I'm used to people obeying my every command. You may make you own choices". I put one hand on her hair, caressing her deep brown hair as I try to calm her down. How can I stay away long enough to give her a real choice in her life? The thought of her choosing to want to live a normal life without me and all the complications scares me. She may not know that I am her mate yet, but my body is reacting to her every emotions already and it fysically hurts me as well. I must make her stay, one way or another.

* End Nate's POV*