the next generation

Under the night sky

As I opened the backdoor towards the garden I could see Nate look at me. His eyes looked full of shock. After a little moment they filled with curiosity. "Elisabeth, what are you doing here?". I walked towards the bench, towards Nate and stopped just a meter before him. "I couldn't sleep and thought the sky might ease my mind". He seemed satisfied with my answer as he looked at me with pity. "Afraid of what you'll find tomorrow?" He asked me. "Yes.. Well, and I am not used to sleep anywhere else". Since he did not invite me to sit next to him, I still just stood there. The wind was roaming through my hair and the nightgown surely was not enough to keep me warm during the night. Suddenly I realized that I was standing in my nightgown before Nate. Even though it was nothing special, it was still pretty short and I was not wearing a bra beneath it. So when the wind roamed my body started to react on the cold.. I could feel my sheeks turn red as I started to feel embarrassed. Nate seemed to notice as well. His eyes let go of mine and started to wonder toward my body. I could see how he looked at my breasts, hips, legs, feet and up again.

 He coughed when he noticed what he was doing. "I'm sorry, you must be cold, please, sit with me".  I seated myself next to him on the bench, leaving just a little space between us. "Tomorrow morning I will go to your house and fetch your belongings. You don't have to see the damage if you don't want to. You can stay here". He said to me as he tried to keep his gaze forwards to make sure he would not look at my body again. "No, I will come with you. I need to see it. I need to know.". How could he expect me to just stand by? As a matter of fact, I did not even tell him to grab my stuff. Did he think he could just decide these things for me? I started to get mad at him. "In fact, I don't even want you to come to my house. You have ignored me for weeks now, while I did nothing to offend you! And now you just think you can go play my hero? I don't need your help. After tonight, I will arrange everything myself!". I looked at him with a strong gaze. He would not be the boss of me. I could see a frown appear on his face. He turned towards me, no longer looking friendly or embarresed for his bold gaze towards my body. "You will accept my offer, Elisabeth. I will not let you sleep on the streets. I will not even let you worry about anything concerning your house, and you will stay here in the meantime.". His eyes seemed on fire as he told me what was going to happen. How irritated I was with Nate right now, I also felt extremely attracted to him as well. He was so sure of himself. So handsome and such a strong man. I looked at him as fiercly as I could. "No." I said, loud and clear, while staring at his eyes. "You did not even want me here in the first place! And now suddenly you care? Well. No.". I barked back at him. His anger seemed to make place for some kind of enjoyment. A small grin appeared on his face as I felt his desire rise. My boltness was clearly turning him on. He grabbed one of my arms with a firm grip. He planted his other hand under my chin and lifted my head up a bit. "You will do as I say, Honey. And if you talk back at me one more time, I will not hold back". I felt my cheeks burn up as a tingling sensation roamed through my body as a reaction on his touch. What was he doing to my body? To my mind? I wanted to find out what he would do to me if I kept talking back. I know I should not do it, I would probably regret it. Still, I felt this strong urge to disobey and pry him a bit. "You can't change my mind" I reluctanly said to him, a bit scared and excited as well. "Really? Looks like I have to show you what happens when you disobey me, Sweetheart.". He let go of my arm and placed his arm around my waist, pulling me closer into his grib. He put his other arm under my legs as he lifted me up and pulled me onto his lap. The nightgown was a bit short and with this movement it went up a bit, leaving my ass naked on his lap. All that was between us, was my underwear, which was doing nothing to keep us apart. If it was possible my cheeks became even more red. My whole body was warming up, caused by his touch. He was looking convident and naughty, like he was winning the game. His body felt warm as well and I could feel his heart beating fast. I was doing just as much to him as he was doing to me. Our eyes met and all I wanted to do was kiss him so badly. I wanted him to be as close to me as possible. I was totally forgetting my hatred toward his behaviour. As a matter of fact, I would forget my own name if he was not just saying it right now. "Elisabeth, I can feel and smell your excitement" he groaned, looking at me filled with lust. His hand was slowly making his way from my knees, up towards my hips. He was going even further above to the side of me breast, to my back and stopped when his hand was strangled up into my hair. He pulled my head towards his, looking at me for approval of what he wanted to do. I parted my lips a bit to welcome him. That was all the approval he needed to go even further. He pushed his lips against mine, first very soft. After a few seconds his kiss became stronger, as if he needed me as much as I needed him right now. He lifted me up of the bench and started to walk trough the door, up the stairs and into the guestroom, which was mine for the night. 

Without losing the contact of my lips, he placed my body with care onto the bed. He positioned himself onto me. My legs spread open and him laying between them. How I wanted him to keep going. At that moment, He slipped his tongue into my mouth as he groaned even deeper and harder. His hands were exploring my body untill one went under my nightgown, towards my breast. Just before reached out to grab a hold of me something seemed to change his mind. Withing a second he pushed himself off of me. He looked at me with regret. Why did he stop? What did I do? All I could do is look at him with confusion. I could see his length trying to break out of his pants.. He must have wanted me too. "I.. I'm sorry. Goodnight". He said to me as he turned around and left the bedroom. What The  f**k Just Happend?! 

Suddenly I felt a wave of sadness come over me. He rejected me without a pardon. First he would show me he cared for me when we met. After that he would just ignore me for weeks. Then he told his father he did not want me to sleep here. Within hours he would ask me to stay and fix my mess for me. Only to punish my disobedience with the most exciting, longing, kiss. Did he walk out on me to punish me? Was that what he ment with a punishment? If that was  true, he would not say sorry just before leaving the room right? I could not help myself but to let out a few silent tears. He was playing a game I did not understand for one bit. Everything around him was questionable. Maybe he was used to girls that knew how to play this game. All my life I was trying to wait for the right guy to take my viriginity, which means that I would not play around with the guys in town. And next to that, the town was to small to break hearts. I would have to face them over and over again. Because of that, I just always tried to not get myself into cupid's game. Nate just set my body on fire and I felt like I could no longer control my own mind, as if he could take over all me senses. Was I not good enough? Did he walk out because he regretted what he did? My sadness eventually turned into tiredness. The tears made my eyes tired and within minutes I fell asleep. Finally, I could get some sleep and let go of my worries.