Nostalgia

What is nostalgia? Well it is a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for the period or place with happy personal association pero lahat nalang yun ay tanging ala-ala ng nakaraan na kahit kailan ay hindi mo na mababalikan yes it is true walang rewind and buhay nating mga tao once you did it, you did it and you can never take it back. Nagtataka siguro kaya kung bakit ganito ang mga sinasabi ko well may mga bagay kasi na gusto kung balikan but you know what's worse? Hindi ko na yun mababalikan pa "Sis nakikinig ka ba?" Tanong ni ate Natasha sa kabilang linya na nagpabalik sakin sa ulirat "Sorry sis 12 na kasi inaantok na ako pero di ko pa tapos tung ginagawa ko" paliwanag ko "Hay nako yan napaka workaholic mo kasi" maktol nya "Ano nga yung sinabi mo kanina?" Tanong ko "Well sinabi ko na magkakaroon kaming reunion na magkakaibigan sama ka" saad nya "Sis di naman ako part ng tropa nyo" sabi ko "Anong hindi? On the day na naging kayo ni James naging part ka na ng barkada" saad niya "And on the day na hiniwalayan ko sya dapat di na nga tayo magkaibigan eh" sabi ko "Sheena!" "Sorry na" pag apologize ko "Sis I told you kayo man o hindi ni James kaibigan kita ganun din kami ni Kyla" saad niya " I know kaya amg swerte ko to have the both of you" sabi ko " Aysus yan ba ang way mo ng panunuyo? Di uubra sakin yan" saad niya na nagpatawa sakin ng bahagya " Ok sasama na ako sa reunion nyo pero in one condition di ka na mag tatampo sakin" saad ko " Yeheyy very good hahaha thanks by the way bye na magpahinga kana" habilin nya " Oo uuwi na ako pagkatapos nito" I said after a few minutes ay natapos ko na ang mga gawain ko agad akong umuwi at nagpahingi as I arrive in my house agad kong tinungo ang aking kwarto I took a halfbath and wear my pajamas as I was about to lay dowm in my bed a photo catches my eyes kinuha ko ang litratong yun well it's me and my ex James and a memory from the past reminds me again Today is the day! sa wakas college na ako! by the way I am Sheena Mae Magbanua, a first year student dito sa San Francis University at ngayon ang umpisa ng katuparan ng pangarap ko, I am a first year student of Bachelor of arts in English Language studies. BAEL is my dream course and San Francis University is my University thankfully my plan was put into place, kasalukuyan akong naglalakad papunta sa room ko but sadly wala kaming pasok. Well, sabi kasi ng program coordinator namin our the institution are lack of teachers kaya wala kaming teacher but then they are doing their job para maprovide yung quality education na kinakailangan namin well I was sad but then okay lang wala naman akong magagawa eh so my classmate and I just tag along na pumunta raw sa mall since wala akong magawa at ayaw ko pang umuwi I tagged along with them... A few moments later nasa mall lang na kami well nilakad lang namin kasi medyo malapit ang University namin dito sa mall they brought some snacks and tumambay kami dun as I opened my phone a message from my ex popped out "Baby please talk to me" chat ng ex ko "Wala na tayong dapat pag usapan pa Chalix" I replied "Bakit? May iba na ba?" Tanong niya "Pwede ba wag mo ako igaya sayo, you're the one who cheated! Sinira mo ang tiwala ko and you ruin the relationship we had once" I replied and blocked him "Excuse me guys cr lang ako" paalam ko at pumunta na kami sa cr at umiyak after that I was about to go back to my friends when someone grabbed me in the arm "Miss yung wallet mo po nahulog" he said and gave my wallet " Thank you, pero pwede paki bitawan ako" malamig na saad ko he let go of my hand and I went back to my friends table "Okay ka lang ba?" Tanong ni Althea I just smiled and nodded I am tired from crying over and over again pagkatapos ng lahat ng nangyari parang gusto ko nalang ilibing ang sarili ko dahil pagod na pagod na pagod na ko I am so tired from crying and being cheated by a bastard like Chalix kung mababalik ko lang ang panahon I will choose to unmeet him akala ko mabait at loyal siya yun pala maharot din pala I hope di ko na siya makita pa