7 Years Later

Part 31 - College

I thought that things would get better. I really did.

But they seemed to just get worse.

I was going to my classes, but I had zero interest in anything I was learning. I also had gotten a part time job as a server at a retirement home. Most of the other servers were around my age as well- however I could barely even bother with interacting with them.

My spark was dwindling.

And Matteo was doing everything he could to try to help bring it back.

But I was feeling suffocated.

I absolutely hated to admit it, because I loved him so goddamn much. But I was feeling suffocated.

I almost couldn't handle any mention of the future that he would bring up. He would bring up vacations he wanted us to go on. Buying a house after college. Things that I would have been so excited for with him