She fell into a strange numbness. She could not sleep, because as soon as she closed her eyes she could see his face. She could feel is scent, the taste of his lips. She tortured her ears with the loudest music so as not to hear his voice in her head. She just wandered around the apartment, taking turns drinking coffee and wine. One to stay awake, the other to dull her senses and pain. She switched channels on TV without paying attention to anything.
Ashley called her several times to make an appointment, but Jay excused herself hanging out saying she was feeling unwell. But she promised to call back as soon as she felt better. However, the conversation with her friend told her that she was reaching the limit of her endurance. Yet she was still afraid to fall aslee
