Hold my hand

chapter 16:the kiss

Mark felt the warmth of his breathe leave in excitement.staring in each other eyes to eyes.mark couldn't breathe,he was gasping for air which seen not to be enough for both of them.

In Jeremy eyes he was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen in his entire life.Here was something mark was longing for but he couldn't put on what it was.

Mark swallowing a lump in his throat.jeremy Adams apple was moving up and down." f**k this " Jeremy mumble.

It left mark confused but not even once did they take they eyes off each other.

Jeremy mind was in a confused state ,he was having a hard time controlling himself.

he look at Mark face whose eyes were now closed , trying to steady his breathe .

Jeremy titled his head ,moving closer to Mark closing the distance between their bodies.he caresses mark's cheeks,holding his chin a bit and lightly brushes mark's lips with his thumb.

When mark didn't protest or say a word he leaned in kissed his lips gently and passionately.teasting each and every part of mark's mouth which made mark to release a soft moan and slowly wrapped his arms around Jeremy neck.

Jeremy sucked mark's lips like a child eating her favorite candy scare to let go.Mark kisses him back encouraging him to go further.

Jeremy lifted mark and made him seat on his lap, without breaking the kiss.they kissed deeper and deeper trying to convey they feelings through that one kiss.

they kissed slightly faster and deeper each fighting for dominance which Jeremy won in the end.theeu released soft moans in between their breaths still not releasing each other lips.

they disconnected their lips when they couldn't breathe.they were all sweaty and patting trying to catch they breathe.

They stayed there embracing each other silently."am sorry" Jeremy whispered in

ears Mark's ear,which made make came back into his senses.

He stood up from Jeremy lap "you should leave" . Jeremy stood up hugging him from behind "am sorry Mark I couldn't control myself"

"it's not your fault I had the chance to stop you but I don't ,and again it was just a kiss not a big deal" he turned to face Jeremy ,who was in shock after what Mark said .

"what do you mean it not a big deal" he asked ,his heart was hurting he didn't expect to hear that from mark.

"is that what you guys do kiss make up and leave,it's time to leave" he was hurting but he was good in covering up his feeling ,it's something he had learn from childhood.

"whick kind of a person do you thing I am?" Jeremy asked angry,his eyes were blood shot red with anger.when Mark didn't answer "I didn't that because I like you" it come out as a whisper , likely Mark heard what he said,he was happy but he couldn't afford to show it.

"leave right now" he shouted angrily,Jeremy was startled.He wanted to say something when Mark walked out of him heading upstairs."close the door when you leave." he said without turning back.scares if he did he will run into his arms.his feeling were getting stronger and he was not in control of his own body.

He went straight into the bathroom opened the shower and let the water run down his body.He started crying non stop holding his heart in a fist."why does it hurt so much ,what is he thinking about me,a cheap guy who cannot even control himself....fuck" he mumbled while crying.

The best thing he know is that when he comes out of the shower there will be no trace of tears in his face,that why he always let the water clean each trace.

mean while Jeremy left Mark house heart broken.He went to the nearest club he could think of.

He wanted to drink and make himself forget what Mark said."four shots of whiskey"he order sitting on the bar counter.

he took them one after another ,when he saw four shots weren't enough he order a bottle of whiskey,he knew he had high tolerance of alcohol but tonight he wanted to drink until he was totally drank.

He didn't even us the glass ,he drunk it through the bottle.Even after almost

finishing the whole bottle he was not drank and he order another bottle."sir are you sure you want another bottle"the bar tender asked him in concerned."I said I what another f*****g bottle" he shouted creating attention in the club.

he was given another bottle ,but instead of drinking it he started crying "what does he think I am,am I not good enough for his to accept me?" he asked the bartender.who just looked and him feeling pity for the handsome man who was crying .

He took the bottle and went to the dancing floor and started dancing while drinking.

A guy whose was seating near him followed him and wanted to dance with him.he placed his hand on Jeremy waist .

Jeremy held the guy hand roughly and took it out of his waist.the guy didn't give up but this time he placed his hand on Jeremy shoulder ,he yanked the man hand still holding battle of whiskey in his hands."don't touch me , f*****g asshole"he warned him, shouting at the man and become more hysterical letting his uncontrolled emotions due to the fact that he didn't understand why Mark would say that about him,he was frustrated and angry and to top it all this man was nagging him.

He went on and touched his cheeks ,this time he had cross the line.jeremy punched him in the face and the whined in pain and trow a punch on Jeremy which he managed to dodge before it landed on his face.

The guy trow another punch but this time it hit him on the face.A fight broke out and they continued trowing punches on each other .Jeremy trow the man on the floor, punch his face left him bleeding.Before they were separated.

"I will take care of him" were the last words he heard before passing out.