For the Love of Anyone

Chapter 2. High school sucks

At 16 I start working as an omega at the pack house and learning what will be my adult pack responsibilities once I’m done with high school. We all attend Rivermont High, your typical high school on our pack lands. I’m your typical invisible nerd/person to bully, I’ve just come to expect it’s my lot in life to be honest. To my mom, Sapphire’s utter dismay I’m not popular like she was. That was what she wanted me to be-the mean popular girl, but that’s not me. That is however my ex best friend turned person tormentor Rachel Gavin. We were inseparable until school started and she chose popularity over Haley and I. Since then she has made it her mission to make my life hell whenever possible. She is the daughter of the new pack head warrior that took over for my dad Jacob, so now she is under the delusion that she will one day be Luna, and honestly who knows. We have 2 years until she will find out as we are 16 and can’t feel the mate pull until our 18th birthday. There is a good chance tho since our future Alpha James turned 18 a few years ago and has yet to find his mate. Just like with my mom Rachel used to fake nice and me, always being optimistic and kind, wanted to believe it and would fall for it every time. You would think being the main person picked on at school I would have given up hope and become hardened by it but nope. I’m still me, still innocent and naive and kind to everyone even those who make my life hell. Rachel’s new best friend, Roxy is the pack slut and she is hoping to get the future Gamma Nathan as her mate. It’s her only high title option left since Future Beta Andrew already has his mate. He is mated to Ruby Sinclair and they are amazing together. High school sweethearts that turned 18 within a week of each other and are living happily ever after. Honestly I don’t know what will happen to me in the future. I can’t wait to find my mate. I honestly hope he’s an Omega so we can go off and get a little quiet cottage and live our happy lives away from the chaos of pack life.

Anyway, back to high school. I’m still sore from my injuries but no one knows they exist thanks to my mom’s magic. She has a “friend” that is a witch for another pack that gives her a magic concealer. Basically making any injury invisible, but unfortunately they still are there and still hurt. So today when Roxy and Rachel decided to push me down a flight of stairs, well let’s just say it hurt a LOT. The school nurse and principal Baldwin keep asking me who did it and I can’t bring myself to say it. So like the good little Omega that I am I told them I tripped. They only look like they partially believe me but that’s fine. Haley finds me at lunch and doesn’t believe me but lets it go knowing I’ll never tell. Even tho we are best friends as we’ve gotten older we have been drifting apart. Mostly my doing I think since I’m keeping so many secrets but I have to. My mom is like a second mom to her since her mom died in a rouge attack when she was 7, but she doesn’t know the real Sapphire. No one does but me, me and my father. I guess best friends forever only works when you don’t keep them at arms length. The only other person who talks to me is Haley’s twin Dominic. Dom is my other bestie. His omega duties for after graduation are the same as mine, pack house cleaner and chef. He is super friendly but way more outgoing than I will ever be. After school we head to the pack house and start our duties. My mom is there with Luna Maggie and everything it seemed was going well until I showed up. She can’t stand seeing me as a servant as it hurts her image. I hurry and do my tasks and leave and can’t wait for the day I no longer have to live with her. The day I find my mate or can move to the pack house permanently, which ever comes first.

“Hey Lily” Dom comes running at me and I flinch, I mean he never even touched me and he looks so hurt. He looks at me and gives me this sad look, which I’ve come to know from him means he suspects something. He started living at the pack house after his dad kicked him out of the house for being gay. Haley was so upset she nearly moved out with him to the pack house. She ended up staying to take care of their dad though. I really don’t understand how someone could do that to their family but it’s not like my family isn’t f**ked up either, ours is just secret. He slowly gives me a hug and we walk to first period. Math is not my favorite. I HATE math in fact it’s my worst subject. Honestly I’m not great at any subject, I struggle with school I’m good at art and music but anything else, ekkk. Don’t take me wrong I’m not dumb I’m just not a book smart person at least that’s what Dom and Haley tell me to make me feel better. My mom is always right to jump on the you’re so stupid train. “How are you my daughter if you are this stupid” or “it’s not that hard why can’t you just do it” or “stop whining that you don’t understand you f***ing idiot.” After math is assembly today due to the upcoming homecoming game. Everyone is very excited about it. Mostly the guys because the cheerleaders will be doing what I’m sure will be a very provocative dance routine. Roxy and Rachel are co-captains so it’s almost guaranteed to be raunchy. After that Alpha Eugene will speak to us and we have off the rest of the day, I’m so happy to get out early. We all enter the gyms and take our seats on the bleachers as Principle Baldwin takes the mic. He looks at us all and smiles, he’s a really nice guy. He starts to announce the cheerleaders have a presentation before they do their performance and everyone looks at the screen being brought in to the room. It starts and there is a picture of Rachel, Haley and I back when we were younger, back when we were still friends. Then it moves to every embarrassing thing they have done to me since, like a montage of humiliation. I stare with tears in my eyes watching what is happening. Everyone is laughing, whooping and cheering at my humiliation, well everyone except Rachel and Roxy who are looking at me with smirks on their faces. I really don’t know what I ever did to them to deserve this. I’m everyone’s favorite punching bag and I don’t understand why. Then I remember I was born, I am nothing, I am a useless waste of space. I run out of the gym, out of the school and to my home. I grab a box from under my bed it contains my razor, a lighter and my bandages. I take it and make deep cuts on my inner thighs, then flick the lighter to make metal hot and press the hot metal to my now cut flesh burning it closed. I repeat this a few times until I feel better, until I feel in control. I used to use my wrists until my mother caught me when I was 13. Instead of getting me help she screamed at me that I should never use a place that people could see. I mean what would they think if someone saw it. More so meaning what would they think of her if they saw it. I glare at my old and very healed but just slight scars on my wrists. I thought many times about doing more then cutting and burning. I thought about what death would be like. Would it be better than this, I mean it has to be better then this. My life is a constant torture that has no way to get better then with my death. I feel like that is the only thing that can free me from this hellscape I call a life. The only thing that stops me is my mate. My hope for a future that doesn’t have to be this hard, this painful. A mate who will be my world and I his.