For the Love of Anyone

Chapter 3. Pack house drama

Well I’m almost there, I’m turning 18 next week and if I find my mate and he accepts me I can move out with him. If not, then I’m stuck with my mother until I graduate in 5 more months. I hope to the Goddess my mate accepts me because I really don’t know what I’ll do if he doesn’t. I don’t mean to sound like this man is my end all be all but with how low I am right now I really don’t know how to crawl my way out of this hole without a life line. The pack house training which was great in the beginning slowly became more hell-like too, the main reason being Roxy and Rachel they have started to stay at the pack house. They both keep trying to sleep with Future Alpha James but so far he’s turned them down. He is turning 25 next week the day before I turn 18 and per the pack elders he must have a mate or chosen mate to take over as Alpha, which he is to do by his 25th birthday. He has been holding out hope to meet his mate and has been saving himself for her but as time is running out all the desperate she wolves are clamoring at the chance to be his chosen mate and the next Luna. Rachel is always over him while Roxy has been in a friends with benefits relationship with Gamma Nathan. He is older and already turned 25 but seeing as he is only the Gamma he did not need his mate to have his title.

First, I wake up super early in the morning make the pack breakfast at the pack house. Then go to school and after, i go back to the pack house to do come cleaning before I help to cook dinner. This is all before doing it all over again for my mother. By the time I’m done I get my shower and go to bed so I can do the same thing the next day. So much for having a social life in high school, not that my mother would let me anyway. The only friends I have are Haley and Dom and neither of them will give me status so why keep them around in her eyes.

Today is Alpha James 25th birthday which means I have to miss school all together to help with party prep. My mother told Luna Maggie that there is no need to worry about my schooling as I’m not particularly bright anyway so if I miss it, it doesn’t matter. Also since I will be working in the pack house as a maid, for the rest of my life knowledge isn’t needed. Unfortunately for me she actually agreed with her. So now I’m basically a full-time Omega and go to school only when I am finished with my duties, which if I work my ass off is twice a week. Alpha James still has not chosen a mate for tonight at this ceremony. The Luna ceremony is supposed to follow the Alpha ceremony by 1 week but she is supposed to be chosen before his. As he walks down the stairs sniffing, hoping to get a scent of her, hoping with all his might he wouldn’t have to have a chosen mate, his face drops and there is nothing. His warm chocolate hair and glistening blue eyes with slight gray tint like the sky during a storm. They are gorgeous with golden flecks around the center. He has the typical alpha build: tall, broad shoulders and muscles from head to toe. This man is dangerous in a fight, I’ve seen him train and he is currently undefeated in combat. His wolf is just as mesmerizing, he has bight gold eyes and fur as black as night. Tomorrow will be my first shift and I can’t wait to see what my wolf will look like. I can’t wait to hear her for the first time either. But that will have to wait for midnight.

After getting the stage set up and lunch for the pack done, I walk to the entertainment room to see if I can take a 30 min nap before working on the next thing on my to do list. I was not aware that Alpha James is there with Rachel. She is looking at him smiling and trying to get him to choose her as his mate since he is officially out of time. For some reason my heart drops in my chest when I hear him agree. I quickly walk away, to my house and my bedroom and grab my trusty box from under the bed. I pull down my pants so I can access my inner thighs and look at them. I’m instantly disgusted with myself. As much as this helps and is my only release, it is the only way I’ve found to ease my pain that no one will love me. Not with this, not with how I’ve scarred myself inside and out. I am damaged goods, too damaged. I cut, burn, bandage and head back to the pack house to finish my chores and as I’m heading out my door mom shoves me back in. I look at her only to see the rage in her eyes. She looks at me and growls “what are you doing here, why are you not hanging on every word of Alpha James to make you Luna. What did I ever do to deserve you as a daughter.” With that I push past her and run out of the house as fast as I can. I run and run until I reach the pack house I find a closet and let my tears fall. In my head I question the same thing, what did I ever do to have a mother like her.