Beyond redemption

Chapter 6

Marshall

It's been a rough year, me and Celine have been going steady but for some reason she hasn't opened up to me much and although she has met my family and friends she refuses for mw to meet hers.

I didn't want to lose her so after failing to meet them on many occasions I decided to give up.

She was the most important person in my life right now and I wanted to ask her to marry me.

Yes I was already thinking about marriage less than 6 months into this relationship.

I have told her I hate lies, hoping she would come clean about her age but like I said she was hard to get to open up.

I decided to skip the truth topic and finally today exactly one year since we first met I was going to surprise her and ask the big question.

I knew she loved me because a few times girls came up to me she actually had a huge fit and once she actually beat the girl and her friend up.

I loved seeing how possessive she was of me but it caused me a lot of trouble as most of my customers were girls, and most were paying cash money not with their bodies.

We finally got past it and for about a month now we have been inseparable.

She was practically living with me, but she wanted to go home for a few days as she had a exam coming up so I let her go.

I picked her up around 8 we drove to our new appointment I had bought as a engagement gift to her.

I watched as she run her hands in the wind.

The smile on her face at that moment was one of my favorites over the year.

It was as if she was a completely different person when she played with the wind.

I knew she was still very young, but she was very mature for her age and my parents both loved her so they agreed to us getting married.

I parked at the front door.

She looked at me and I see the confusion on her face.

I took jer hamd once we got off the car and walked up to the dorr.

I took out the keys and unlocked our new home.

She walked in.

I watched her for any emotions but the only thing I saw was a look of shock.

I walked up behind her... "Marry me Celine..."

I wrapped my arms around her waist and again whispered into her ear.

"Marry me... I want to spend the rest of my life with you... I want to..."

She pulled out of my embrace.

"Celine, what's wrong..."

She looks pale I took a step forward. .

.

"Stop... I can't marry you Marshall... Its... No I'm sorry.."

Her words pierce my ears before settling in my head, she grabbed her bag and was about to walk out.

I grabbed her arm.

"Celine.. Please... I can't live without you..."

My eyes fulled with pain and tears, waiting to spill over.

"Marshall.. I am 15...not 18... I really am sorry..."

Her words bring me a sense of relief but also anxiety because I finally understand why she won't open up.

"I don't care... I love you... I don't care... Just don't leave okay... I will wait until your old enough for us to get married... So please say you will stay... Celine please..."

She said nothing and kust walked away.

Why doesn't she just admit she loves me?

Whats stopping her.

I started tearing the place apart the picture we took together on the walls were now laying in pieces on the floor.

I smashed the glass table in the living room.

I suddenly hated everything.

This whole time I was nothing to her.

I can't believe I thought she was going to love me and stay with me forever.

How stupid I was.

I knew she wasn't heading home so I went to the club to find her.

Tonight will be our end.

I will end it clean and neat and than walk away.

I don't want to hurt her but I can't be with her anymore.

I walked in and found her on the dance floor.

My Celine.

My beautiful Celine.

I really fell deeply in love with her.

She made me want to be good.

I wanted to take care of her, love her and cherish her.

Why couldn't she just let me.

I walked up to her and grabbed her hips.

She looked back.

I pressed her hard against my chest.

My one hand on her inner thigh and the other making her look at me.

I captured her lips.

The lips I was addicted to more than drugs.

She didn't resist.

We started making out while we danced.

I turned Celine around and picked her up.

She wrapper my legs around my hips.

I than carried her off the dance floor and over to the table I was sitting at.

I slowly placed her on the table, and pushing her skirt up.

I took out my drug of choice.

Ecstasy...

I watched as her eyes changed color, signaling the drug is taking effect.

After a few seconds I lifted her up again and than we entered the booth.

I laid her down gently and pushed her skirt up before pulling out my thong.

Tonight I was going to take it slow, enjoy every last second we spend together as it will be our last.

I undid my belt and opened the zip.

I pulled her up ontop of me.

Slowly slipping into her.

We kissed and rocked back and forth with the music.

We had s*x on the dance floor and than in my car.

After we finished in my car it was unfortunately time to let go.

My heart was aching at the thought of never seeing her again.

I didn't want to let go but she left me no choice.

Maybe someday she will find her way back to me or we find our own happiness, separately.

I kissed her forehead long and hard.

Than watched as she walked into the darkness.

I drove away and stopped at the beach, I sat in my car and watched the sunrise.

Tears have already started flowing and I am a sobbing mess.

I think about this year we spent together and I remember all tje love we shared.

She is an amazing girl, but her heart is just too dark.

I might not ever give her the light she deserves.

I decided to leave the country and head back to Spain.

Maybe just maybe I can forget everything about her.

Goodbye my Celine.

I loved you.