Destined to Love

My Heart

Ava's POV

Dumbstruck I lay on bed. What just happened? Alex left without saying a word to me. Is it because I admitted being a Virgin? But he should be happy about that right? He'll be my first...or is it because I did not tell him earlier? Or..! is it because I am not good enough for him, was I too clingy, or did I disgust him?

I let my tears fall thinking about all the possibilities, unable to come to any conclusion I decide to leave the city, may be have some space. I tell the maids about not eating the dinner, text my Parents that I'll be out for business and won't be back. I tell my brother to arrange trip to London for next 15 days. I have not visited London office since long, it's high time that I pull my s**t together and not let my personal feelings impact my professional in any way. All men are same, may be I was not able to understand this earlier, or may be I am just overreacting. I don't want to make any decision in haste, its unlike me, I don't like running from my problems but it's my heart this time. I love Alex and I am just too embarrassed and confused about everything, I need sometime. Sometime away from him. It's good that my brother did not ask questions when I told him about the trip, I told him to ensure nothing about my visit should leak anywhere, no one should be aware where I will be and when.

I leave early in the morning as I don't want to face Alex. New York to London is a 12 hour journey and I know I will be exhausted by the time I reach. I have made my plans to look through all the important files during the journey. I switch off my phone, not wanting "anyone" to disturb me.

It's already 9 PM when I reach my residence, I just skip through the stairs and fall on my bed enjoying the softness but I couldn't fall asleep, I am missing him. I shouldn't have involved in all these emotions. I am hurt but I still miss him, I know once he holds me I won't be able to stay angry with him. Being a calculative person that I am, it is still not helping me to justify him leaving me alone. I have this urge to switch on my phone and see if he called or texted me. But if he doesn't, I'll be more depressed. I think it's better this way.

I completed my work all night long, I have got many updates about the atmosphere and present work culture that is prevailing and I did not like it a bit. I suspect money laundering in some departments. Not wasting much time I leave for office, meeting with all the executives has been planned in 40 minutes. We'll see who stays.

Everyone is running here and there inside the office. All the directors are lined up for the meeting. I smell something fishy in here.I had already ordered my intels to run a thorough background check on all the executives for starters and I am waiting for the report, which I expect in 15.

Presentation for all ongoing and upcoming project plans is in progress when I receive the data from my intel. Looks like I will have to fire a few people here.

The day ended with Claire calling my secretary non stop. I call her up after arriving at my residence. "You have a lot of explaining to do, Why didn't you tell me and Where the hell are you?" "London, lot of stress in here Claire, everything is chaos. I'll have to stay here for long I guess" I try to duck bringing up Alex in the conversation. "You know what I am referring to, Sweetheart what happened tell me, please?" and that was it, I lost being all poised and pretending strong. I cried like hell, last time I cried this much was at my Uncle's death after the car accident. I couldn't control it. "It hurts, a lot. sob sob I don't know if I did the right thing running away then to face it, but I couldn't see Alex sob sob I don't like being weak, but he left me Claire hanging there, he left me without saying a word, I wasn't able to please him I think. What could have I told you, that he left me on the bed half naked? and that instead of confronting him I ran away?" "Sshh, baby don't cry please, I would cry with if you do, you should have come to me, you should not be alone, I'll catch the next flight and be with you, just wait for me" "No, don't come here, it's not good for you health, you need to take care of yourself and the baby growing in you sissy, I can't take the risk of anyone of you being hurt because of me so I did not come, and you too don't have to come, please" "Tell me what happened from the start" and I tell Claire everything, she's like an elder sister to me, all my brothers call her sissy and I also do the same when I need her as a sister more.

"Now listen to me whatever I am going to say, with an open mind. Ok?" I just humm at this instead of responding. "Alex told me everything" "Yeah, that I had guessed" "Let me continue and don't interrupt. He was feeling sorry Ava, he had his reasons. He did not want your first time to be rushed or out of lust. He wants to take you to places, make you fall in love with him and then completely make you his. He came to apologize to you when you had slept and he has gone crazy after you left. Give him a chance to explain Aviiee, please."You're just taking his side, I don't want to talk about it" "Ava i am not taking his side, please, I know you are mad at him, think of it, for me atleast, talk to him, things can be solved just by a little conversation and open mind" "I don't want to talk to him, and if are going to be persistent in convincing me to give him a chance then let's talk when I am back" "You can't do that Av, I will call everyday and you will have to talk to me. If you don't want, I won't force you to talk to Alex, I am just saying to give it a thought, is it clear?" "uh huh" "Good, I'll get in touch with the maids so that you eat properly and rest, don't stress too much and listen to your heart sometimes instead of your brain. I am a call away." "Yeah, bye now, you too take care, talk to you later"

Listen to your heart?