my friend the alpha

juggling aint easy

Tyler's POV

I know shes right, I've been ignoring and avoiding her for months now. I lie and say it's the job, my upcoming fate of being incharge of everyone and everything, but truth is it's not. It's her.

We've been best friends for 10 years, ever since her family joined our pack and my father made me give her a tour of the grounds we have been side by side for everything. At first I thought it was just that she was the new girl and I felt obligated to be her friend. Then as time grew on so did our friendship. We got to middle school and I started to have feeling for her, but she's Mae, she's always been this fireball of energy that doesn't want or need no man to tell her what to do or hold her down. And lets be real even at thirteen I knew one day I'd be alpha and I'd be expect to have a Luna so why waste time on a silly crush that could potential distroy our friendship. But lately these feeling have become more and I find myself unable to focus on work and end up day dreaming about her. It's dumb really, I'm the alpha pyning over his best friend who's all about independance and building the pack, pyning so hard I can't even function and be the alpha.

So I've taught myself to ignore her, she comes and visits and I hmm and haa where I need to but I silience her sweet voice out of my mind. I try to focus and lose these feelings I have for her. I had it down to an art I thought but I guess she called me out on it and worse she has to make it about my ability to care for my pack and not about her at all. She has a way of making her selfish behavior sound completely selfless "for the pack morale" or "quality of life." she really is amazing--

Stop it stupid brain we can't want her, ugh.

Still I should make it up to here. I've been ignoring her for so long and this dance is important to her I should have just let her vent. just because I'm alpha doesn't mean I want to lose my friend. She means the world to me and her rants and beliefs have already caused me to take notes on problems within the pack that I want to address and change for the better. I would never have noticed them without her.

I got to do something for her, but what?