Pleasure and Pain (Not your typical love affair)

Kabanata 4—Decency

"EARTH to Maddi! Are you with me, girl?" Gia snapped at me and that's when I came back from my reverie. "Are you okay? Kanina ka pang hindi makausap ng maayos."

I breathed heavily and signaled her my hand that I am okay. Hindi ko naman pwedeng sabihin sa kanya ang reason kung bakit natutulala na lang ako bigla. It's too embarassing on my part lalo na kung marinig 'to ni Adrianna.

"Yeah. Kulang lang siguro ako sa tulog." I closed my eyes pero agad din akong nagmulat ng mata.

Sexy body of Juddah Ferranci keeps on flashing my mind whenever I'm closing my eyes. Its just started since last night nang pumasok ako sa room niya. I wasn't really expecting na maaabutan ko siyang half naked.

And now, hindi na 'yun mabura sa isip ko. And that's bad. Feeling ko, nagkakasala ako kay Marhianna at naiisip ko ang manliligaw niya.

I am used of seeing man on their half naked body dahil na rin sa mga binibiling magazines nila Adrianna. And it's normal for me. But why the f**k when it comes to Juddah, nagiging iba ang pakiramdam ko?

Oh God! I'm sorry for I have sin.

"You're sure ha? I'm gonna leave you first, Maddi. Let's just meet later. May kasama ka na rin naman," she said while looking at my back. She kissed me on my cheek before leaving.

"Hey baby," a baritone voice spoke from my back.

I looked up on Aidon. I smiled and stood up from my chair and encircled my arm on his neck. "Hey baby." I give him a peck on his lips.

He chuckled and enveloped his arm on my waist. "Let's go to my car."

I simply leered. "I know what's on your mind. But sorry to disappoint you, it's a no."

He heaved a sigh and shook his head. "C'mon, Maddi. We didn't hang for three days now. I miss you already."

I smiled. I miss him too but it's just that, there's this Juddah and he's been guarding me for almost a week now. For how many days since he stayed at our house, ni isang beses, hindi ko pa siya natakasan. Talagang literal na bahay at school lang ang napupuntahan ko. Mas malala pa siya kay Marhianna kung bantayan ako.

"Are you free tonight, Aidon?" This is the least I can do for us to get a jamming. Since I over heard Juddah talking to someone on his phone this morning. At mukhang may lakad siya at male-late ng uwi mamayang gabi.

"I'm free, Baby. Why?" And now, he's smiling.

"Can you come over to our house tonight?" Since hindi rin naman ako makakatakas, might as well, invite him na lang to have drink with me.

He smirked and tucked my hair behind my ear. "Sure."

Kumain kami sa labas ni Aidon and after that hinatid niya rin ako sa next class ko. Nakasalubong ko pa si Gia nang matapos ang klase since hindi pareho ang sched namin ngayon.

"Did you dump him already?"

I chuckled by her question. Alam na alam niya kasing hindi ako tumatagal sa isang lalake lang. Si Franco nga lang ang umabot sa 'kin ng isang buwan.

"Not yet. Maybe tomorrow?"

We both laugh with what I have said. We don't care kung ang tingin ng iba sa 'min ay malandi at papalit-palit ng lalake. They can call us names as long as they want. Hayaan na lang kung doon sila masaya. Besides ganun din naman ang ginagawa ng mga kalalakihan. They think, women is a toy na pwede nilang paglauran kaya ganun din ang ginagawa namin. We are just returning the favor.

Naka-uwi ako ng bandang alas syete dahil na rin sa traffic. The guard open the gate para makapasok ang sasakyan.

"Good evening, Miss Maldird," The guard greeted.

I nodded. "I have a visitor tonight. It's Aidon. Papasukin niyo na lang siya at samahan hanggang pool, alright?"

My brow arched when the guard shook his head.

"Pero Miss Maldrid kabilinbilinan ho ni Boss Juddah na 'wag magpapapasok dito ng bisita lalo na kung lalake."

I leered. That Juddah is starting to get on my nerves. Hindi pa nga sila ni Marhianna pero ang dami ng pinagbabawal sa bahay ko.

"And who's house is this? It's mine, right? Kaya ako ang masusunod. Oras na malaman kong pinaalis niyo si Aidon, you are all fired!" Bumaling ako sa driver. "Let's go, Manong."

Inis na bumaba ako ng sasakyan at umakyat sa room ko. I took a half bath before I decided to cook some food. Mabuti na lang at kumain kami sa labas ni Aidon kaya hindi pa ako ngayon gutom.

After that, muli na naman akong nag-half bath dahil pinagpawisan ako sa ginawa. Katatapos ko pa lang mag-shower when my phone beep. I got a message from my latest boyfie that he's on his way already.

I didn't manage to type a message para sa kanya. Ayokong isipin niya na sa simpleng text lang niya ay agad akong magre-react. I don't want him to think that what he have now is serious. Ayokong magtunog naghahabol. Kung kaya nilang maglaro and he could not stay sa isang babae lang, ganun din ako.

I walked to my closet and wore my red two piece bikini paired with my see through cover up. And I tie my hair into a messy ban. I grinned widely. For sure, luluwa ang mata nito ni Aidon.

I was busy putting my nude lipstick when I received a call from Marhianna. I answered it and put it on a loud speaker.

"How are you my baby?"

I leered. "Marhianna, I'm already twenty. Hindi na ako bata so stop calling me that. And please, for sure, 'yan ang tawag mo kay Juddah. So stop."

I wasn't embarrass that she's my mother. But everytime we are in public, I can't help but to feel ashame coz she was calling me that. We are just look like a sibling but the way she treated me, feels like I was still a child.

She chuckled. "I haven't think of endearment to your tito Juddah yet. And even you are already old, you're still my baby. I love you, Maldrid."

Doon na ako napangiti sa huli niyang sinabi. I glanced myself at the mirror foe the last time before I went to my bed and sat at the sofa.

"Yeah, I love you too. But why did you call this hour?" Alas nwebe pa lang naman pero nasanay na akong tumatawag siya kada alas singko ng umaga.

"I just miss you and I heard from Juddah na hindi ka raw naging pasaway. You stayed at home and didn't tried to escape just to party."

Napahalakhak ako. "Really? Juddah really said that? Oh God, Marhianna, he's lying. I've been trying to escape from him for so how many times. But to no avail, hindi pa rin ako makatakas. Mas matindi pa siya sa 'yo. He even hired a guard para kung sakali mang late siyang umuwi, hindi pa rin ako makakaalis."

What's with that man? Why would he lie?Pinagtakpan niya ba ako o ginawa niya lang 'yun para hindi mag-worry si Marhianna?

This time, she's the one who laughed. "I was just kidding. Yeah, Juddah told me that you tried so many times to escape. And I am glad na pinabantayan nga kita sa kanya."

Umirap ako. Naikwento rin ba ng manliligaw niya na pumasok ako sa kwarto para maabutan lang na half naked ito?

"Maldrid, you know, I am doing this for you, right? Kaya makinig ka na lang sa 'kin ha?"

I heaved a sighed. "I just have a complain. Why is Juddah so uptight? Masyado siyang mahigpit!"

"He's just concern about you. He's your soon to be step dad, Maddi. Kaya ganyan s'ya. Ayaw ka lang n'yang mapahamak."

I rolled my eyes. Step dad? Never I had imagined that I will be having a step dad who's just ten years older than me. It's just so awkward.

At exactly nine thirty, I walked barefoot down stairs and went directly at the backyard. I ready the the two glass of wine, some finger foods and of course, a romantic music for my latest boyfie, Aidon.

I was sitting on the chair, sipping on the glass of my wine while staring at the pool, reflecting the post light, when I heard someone's voice.

My gaze darted to the glass door connecting here at the backyard. I stood up when I saw Aidon standing there. I smiled at him and started removing my see through cover up while walking towards him.

His eyes travelled on my body.

"Oh wow. I didn't expect your surprise, Baby. You're so sexy," he said as his eyes travelled on my body.

"You like it?" I stared unbottoning his black polo, leaving him naked. Binitiwan ko ang polo at hinayaan iyung mahulog sa damuhan.

I bit my lower lip at the sight. Aidan's only twenty-two but he has already abs that makes him look sexy.

"Of course. It's just that I didn't prepared for this." Hinubad niya na rin ang pants saka sapatos niya. Leaving only his boxers shorts.

I didn't comment and just turn my back on him. I pour the other glass of wine then hand it to him.

We sat at the chair. We're just staring at each other until he cleared his throat.

"Let's swim." He come near me and carried me. He walks toward the pool and jump that made me scream.

He laughed and was about to kiss me on my lips when I pushed him lightly on his shoulder. Lumangoy ako pabalik at umahon. Kinuha ko ang wine saka glass na ginagamit namin saka ako naupo. Nakalublob ang paa ko sa tubig while he's still at the water.

I sipped on my glass and raked his hair when he made himself between my legs. He encircled his arm on my waist and started to kiss my expose cleavage.

"You're too fast, Aidon," I said, still raking his hair.

He said something but I didn't get the chance to understand it dahil umahon na rin siya mula sa pool at naupo sa tabi ko saka muli niya akong hinalikan.

He kissed me on my lips, down to my jaw and to my earlobe. And I arched my body when I felt his tongue on my neck.

Nakapikit pa rin ang matang tumingala ako. My lips were a bit parted because of the sensations he was giving me.

"Aidon," I moaned when his hand started to caressed my right legs up to my waist.

Napadilat ako to see what he was doing but I wasn't expecting na maaabutan kong nakatingin sa 'kin si Juddah.

From the balcony of the guestroom, he was standing there. His right hand were holding a glass of liqour and he was playing with it. While his other hand is on the railway.

I don't know what's in me but the fire I am feeling now was started building up when I saw his half naked body.

I bit my lower lip not removing my stare on his intense gaze. And I was breathing hard, feeling confuse if it's because of Aidon or Juddah's stare.

Nang hindi ko na makayanan, I closed my eyes and lay down on the grass. And when Aidon was about to go on my top, I pushed him immediately on his shoulder.

Bumangon ako at muling lumingon sa balcony but Juddah's wasn't there already.

"Maddi, Baby?"

I pushed him again on his shoulder and stood up. "There's a shower when you turn left. After that, you may leave Aidon. And oh, we're done already." I turn my back on him and went inside. Naririnig ko pa ang pagtawag niya pero hindi na ako lumingon.

Nang tuluyang makapasok sa loob, sumandal ako sa pader saka sunod-sunod na bumuga ng hangin. I don't know what happened back there. I couldn't deny ti myself that it's not because of Aidon why I am feeling this.

Juddah really affect me big time a while ago while he was watching us making out. He is just so f*****g sexy. The way his jaw clenched and the way he stare, his brown eyes really did something on my system. And damn it! I know it is really bad!

When I felt like I am okay already, that's when I decided to went upstairs.

I was just looking down--at my feet, while walking. I wasn't on my right mind now. I don't know. I am just confused. I don't know how to react or what, with something I do not know.

I heaved a sighed when I was already in front of my room. And I was about to turn the knob when someone gripped my hand. And when I face it, Juddah's face welcome me.

His jaw were clenching while looking directly at my eyes.

"Are you done making out with your boy toy huh?" He scold as he pushed me against the wall.

"Ouch Juddah! What the hell is your problem?" I pushed him but he's just too strong that he didn't even budge.

He didn't say anything. He just stare at my eyes that made my knees turned to jelly. Why the f**k I am feeling this? This is so f*****g wrong!

"Maldrid," he uttered my name as he cornered me on the wall. He put his hands on my both side while not leaving my gaze.

Dahil hindi ko na makayanan, ako na ang unang umiwas. But this f*****g eyes of mine landed on his red kissable lips. Damn it! Why we end up with this kind of situation?!

"Maldrid!" he again uttered my name. Sa pagkakataong ito, mas madiin na.

And I was about to looked back on his face when my stare stop on his adams apple. It keeps on moving na parang sunod-sunod ang paglunok niya.

I blinked my eyes for three times before I decided to pushed him. But on the second time, hindi pa rin siya magawang matinag.

Kaya humugot ako ng hangin at matapang na tiningala siya. "Let me go, Juddah!" I gritted my teeth while staring directly on his brown eyes.

His lips curved up a bit and smirked at me. "If I didn't know that you are Marhianna's daughter, my impression to you will never changed like the first time I saw you in the Club."

My brows furrowed at his arrogant tone. "What are you talking about?"

"You like to seduce Bachelors, right, Maldrid? That night, you didn't succeed on seducing me, that's why you end up with Caleb--"

I didn't let him finished talking. I slapped him hard. "f**k you, Juddah! f**k you!" My hand were shaking with so much anger on him. How could he say that? Where the hell did he get his guts to accuse me such thing? I never had the intention to seduce him that night. I just want to shake his hand! That's all!

Bumaling pakanan ang mukha niya dahil sa lakas ng pagkakasampal ko. At nang muli siyang lumingon sa 'kin--madilim na ang mukha niya habang naka-igting ang panga.

"Did I hit the right nerve, Maldrid?" He smirked again. He let go of me and stepped back. His eyes travelled down on my body. He's staring at me with a full of disgust on his face.

"f**k me? No thanks, Maldrid. I will never gonna f**k my woman's daughter." Muli niya akong pinasadahan ng nakaka-insultong tingin. "So please show some decency and give respect to Marhianna and f*****g stop seducing your soon to be Father."