4 Leaf Clover

Chapter 6 The Walk

Ember's POV

This has been a different kind of day to say the least. But that's kind of the life of being a bartender at a biker dive bar.. shits bound to go down at some point, which is why I picked here to work..

Because it's out of the way so hopefully I won't be found by any of my past, but that I will have the chance to get some action in, defending every now and then with fighting here and there. I love to fight so much but I got into fighting with the wrong people ruining it completely for me, getting myself in too deep and doing it for all the wrong reasons..

So I left and tried to turn them all in and hopefully I can stay away from that bad side of me. I just want to move on and become a better person for myself.. I hated the s**t I was doing and the person I had become, just because I was getting paid very well, I was good at it and I had a man that I thought I was happy with and in reality..

I was a bounty hunter, the best actually, killing every single day for the dumbest reasons, for a gangster that not only cheated on me but used me as his main weapon.. So hopefully me turning him in again will end all this once and for all.

I'm in witness protection right now for whatever reason.. they just thought they could help me find a place out of the way that I won't get bothered and I think they finally hit the nail right on the head with this place. Because the others haven't worked out very well. The only way you can find this place is if your looking for it specifically.. because I don't think you will run into it by accident by any means. Which is exactly what I need since I have been through this back and forth process 3 times because he has escaped and found me three times already.. so hopefully not again. But I digress..

Today has mostly been crazy not because of the normal rough housing that we get on the daily basis but because of the guest we received looking for his brother.. I love the accent for one thing.. but I can't place what it is about him, but there is just something about him that I can't get past.

When he touches me I get this electrifying feeling inside of me that just makes me want to get him to touch me all over every single inch of my body. I have never felt like that just by a touch and man it's amazing.

I think he is hitting on me but I don't do boyfriends at all I just do one night stands because I don't want to get used and abused once again or involve anyone into my chaos of a life.

So I just do the loving and leaving. But there is something about him that makes me want to let him close and talk with him.. but I can't and won't. No one can know because that makes a possible chance of them getting hurt because of me and I won't have that.

But man with his gorgeous deep sapphire blue eyes and all his luscious hair, I just love hair it's so manly, I just want to run my hands through it.. even his beard, I love beards.

Even his amazing scent of woodsey maybe cedar, entices me to no end, he smells so good that when it fills my senses I just feel myself getting soothed while turned on.. that I just want to be in his embrace forever if he would let me.

His lips are plump and every single time I get close to him I just want to kiss them so bad. But I can't get attached or I will just have to leave again..

So we will just say that I'm just way too good at goodbyes and I know how to do it just right so they won't come back.. I get the release I need and want same as them, because I know why guys really come around me, just for a piece of ass and when they get what they want they are gone never to be seen again.

I'm just more of really intrigued by this man and I have honestly never felt like that about anyone. I mean, I have seen Brendan coming around captivated by Nikki which is completely understandable since she is so sweet and absolutely gorgeous but now his brother is coming in and staying to help me out? Why? I just don't understand it.

Is this just how Irish men are? Or because he thought I was hot or maybe just because he liked my singing.. who knows.. I honestly couldn't tell you why.. But he says I know why he is staying and helping which I can't only assume is for sex.. and I won't object one bit because I bet he looks just as good out of those clothes as he does in them and I can't wait to find out. It sounds like he won't be staying anyways so this is the best person to have a one night stand with so I won't have to worry about running into him later.

"So Brendan's brother has a thing for you huh?" Nikki asks me as we grab our things to head out. "Yea I guess so.. I don't know why but I won't object, I need to get me some s*x for sure." I say to her as she scoffs and says, "You need a relationship girl.. how do you know he is not the one for you if you don't try?" She gets defensive with me then asking me this.

I shrugg my shoulders then replying, "I don't know, but I won't find out either.. I can't.. I had a bad life before this and it could catch up to me anyday.. hopefully not, but I'm being realistic as well and I can't risk anyone getting involved.. So I will just continue to keep my distance from everyone and just enjoy what time I can, that I even have left." I say to her as she retorts, "You make it sound as if your doomed."

"Well in a way I am.. I know I won't be able to avoid my past forever and when it comes for me.. well, we will just say I don't think I will last long.. I won't go down without a fight.. but don't worry about me Nikki you go have yourself a fun time, start that relationship with him because you can tell he wants that with you and he seems like such a nice guy." I say to her as she smiles and says, "Yea he does.. I just hope he doesn't start beating me like the other guy that I had, that use to be nice to me too." She says sadly referring to Bert.

"He seems like nothing even remotely close to Bert, just give him a chance. I have a good feeling about him." I say to her as she quickly responds, "I have a good feeling about his brother Ronan too."

"Me too." I say softly in hopes she doesn't hear me but I think she did as she pats me on the back and I lock everything up shutting off the lights and heading out the front door with her in tow.

The guys are talking and waiting for us outside which suprises me again, I really didn't think he would wait for me and he did.. hmm.

I turn around giving Nikki a hug and whispering to her, "Have fun and give him a legitimate chance hun you deserve it." She smiles at me and replies in a whisper as well. "Give him a legitimate chance and maybe he can help you to get the happiness you deserve."

I shake my head and say, "You know I can't do that.. have a good night." She sadly waves at me as she hugs Brendan's side and they start talking and walking over to his car jumping in and driving off. I turn around to see the man I can't seem to get out of my head today because the intriguing idea of him keeps running rampant through out my head.

"So I'm surprised you stayed you must really want sex." I say playfully slowly walking up to him as he gets curious look on his face.

"Um.. no I just wanted to stay and get to know ya because ya seem like an.. amazing Las." He says to me and I can't help but melt at the sound of his accent.

"Sure." I say playfully to him as I turn and head to my motorcycle. "I'm serious Ember, I really want to get to know who you are and about you and yer life and how you ended up here... out of all places. Are you from here?" He asks as I shake my head at him.

"No I'm not from here." I say to him quickly..

"Why did you come here?" he asks curiously as I quickly respond once more, "Because I was hoping to never be found." He looks at me curiously as I glance away from his prying eyes, looking around the parking lot and noticing there are no other vehicles out here. "Where is your vehicle?" I ask curiously.

He laughs at my confusion as he replies, "I told my friends to take it because I love being outside and walking around so I figured if anything I would just walk back or maybe run." he say nonchalantly to me.

"So if I wouldn't have agreed to hang out with you afterwards you would have just walked back to your place?" I ask again as he just nods at me as if it's just obvious."Really? So do you want to take my bike or walk then?"

"I would walk with you for sure, at least I know I can talk with you and we can push your bike if anything so you won't have to walk back here to get it." He says to me which shocks me to no end.

"You really want to get to know me?.. Why?.. Aren't you leaving soon anyways so why do you care about me at all?" I ask probably too honestly for my own good but that's the person that I am.

He looks just as shocked as me at my inquiries as he takes my bike and putting up the kick stand as he starts to push it before saying, "I just think you're amazing for what I know of ya and I have never met a woman like you and want to know more.. there's just somethin' about ya.. I can't explain it just yet.. but is that why yer sayin' to Nikki that you can't give me a legitimate chance? Because I'm leavin'?" He inquires to me as I respond. "You must have bionic hearing to hear that.. but... Where's your hotel at hun?" I say trying to avoid the question, and I still don't understand how he heard me whispering that to her.. that's crazy.

He shrugs and shows me the text with the information on it. I giggle as he looks at me curiously so I grab my bike from him and turning us around. "You're going the wrong way hun.. it's easy to get turned around in this place for sure.. took me sometime to get use to it."

"Hmm that was a great way to avoid my question." He says playfully as I blush and realize he caught me trying to avoid it nonchalantly.

"Ok ok yes, that's part of the reason why.. but you don't really want to get involved with me and it's ok.. no one ever does and the only ones who try, can't seem to handle it.. so I stopped all together mostly for them.. I was tired of getting hurt and because of my past so I don't have much of a choice either way to have a relationship.. so how is that for honesty.." I spat back at him as he laughs and says. "Why can't anyone handle you? Are you a serial killer who is on a spree? Or what?"

He asks as I laugh and retort, "That's for me to know and you to find out." He smiles at that.

"So tell me Mr. Mysterious Ronan.. why are you here in this town?" I ask him trying to change the subject from me, as I watch him stiffen up at the question obviously not expecting that from me. But I'm always full of suprises.

"I'm sorry I'm not trying to get into your personal life here.. you don't have to answer if you don't want to." I say to him as he clears his throat. "I'm here on... um.. family matters.. my brother left a month ago and I'm trying to convince him to come back." He answers me but I can't tell there is so much in there that he is not telling me and it's ok because I'm the same way and doing the same thing to him.

"But he probably won't, he is infatuated with Nikki and she is so sweet anyways she deserves a good guy.. they seems like they both need this more than we both could possible know." I say to him as he nods and says, "Yea he won't come back he told me already."

"So does that mean your going back tomorrow?" I ask him as he shakes his head. "No I want to stay for the rest of the time I have available to me." He answers vaguely.

"And that is for how long?" I ask curiously as he says sadly "6 days.. unless I decide to leave home too moving away."

"So why would you stay if you have no other purpose here?.. I don't know what you could get done in 6 days around here away from home, unless you're just sight seeing or something." I say just chatting it up with him.

"I was hoping to.. get to.. know you.. in those 6 days." He says shyly as I stop walking, turning to him as I ask. "Why would you want to know me? You're just going to leave anyways.. Isn't that just setting us both up for heartbreak?"

"Well not unless I maybe leave and stay here or.. I don't know." He says shyly to me.

I step closer to him as I state, "Ronan, you don't want to stay for me.. I'm not worth it.. I'm just trouble and not getting away from it anytime soon that I know of.. so it's best if you just don't. you just seem so sweet that I would hate it if you got drug into my bullshit. I don't even want my life there is no way I would allow anyone else into it."

I stare at him deep into his still gorgeous eyes even in the dark they glow still. In our close proximity he crashes his lips to mine and it's intoxicating to say the least. He is an amazing kisser but those same sparks erupt between us and I can't help the moan that escapes my lips for him.

He breaks the intense knee weakening kiss as he stares deep into my eyes once more saying, "I don't care about your past I just care about your future and it could be with me. You make me feel something I have never felt before and I don't want it to end." He says kissing me again and I let him because this feels amazing and like he said I have never felt this before. My hands run through his hair and I swear I heard him purr into my lips and it's a very sexy sound.

I break our kiss and say as a warning, "The problem is that my past is really really bad and I'm sure if I ever got the guts to tell you about it you would hate me for it.. and there is always the possibility of my past coming back for me and it's a big, actually huge possibility." I say to him as he asks, "If you need money I have money or I can protect you if you need it." He helpfully tries to suggest as I shake my head and say, "I definitely don't need money and I can take care of myself that's the problem."

He looks curiously at me, but I don't want to talk about it more, so I turn and keep pushing my bike towards his hotel which we are almost to luckily because I don't want him to know the killer he is spending time with. He would be disgusted if he knew the things I did for money.. I know he wouldn't like me after and for some reason I really care about what he thinks of me and I have no idea why.

I normally never care what anyone thinks about me, but for some reason I can't seem to stop feeling self conscious around him.

"Come on Ember please just tell me about what's holding you back from me. I can't tell you want this as much as I do." He says stopping me and spinning me around.

"I can't tell you! You could literally die that's why. I don't want you to get hurt no matter how much I would like to try this and see where this goes." I yell at him as he steps closer to me and I can smell his amazing intoxicating scent that gets my heart doing cartwheels.

"But if there is a chance of me dying then there is a chance of you dying." He states the obvious as I just nod at him. "Yes there is, hence why I don't want to get into a relationship.. I would never forgive myself if I got you killed." I say to him as he huffs and asks, "What if I tell you my secret you would tell me yours?"

I shake my head at him as I turn around and keep pushing the bike with him behind me. "I don't want you to know it. You would never look at me the same." I say to him as he smiles and says, "That's the same result if I tell you about my secret."

I'm stopped in my tracks right outside of his hotel now, just staring at him curiously not really knowing what to say.

"Just think about it please.. consider it and we could get our secrets out and get past them together." I shake my head at him scoffing outloud. "It's not that easy." I spat back at him stating the even more obvious, at least to myself.

I put my bike into a parking spot as we head into the front doors and he goes to the front desk getting his key card. He takes my hand into his suprisingly enough pulling me into the elevator behind him and I just let him.