The Nerd and I [Book One]

Chapter Eight

[Earl]

“Shit.” Matthias cursed while stretching his arms. “At last, it’s finished!”

I gathered the papers scattered all over the table as Matthias continued to stretch his aching muscles. After I finished fixing our things, I glanced outside the window and noticed that it was already dark.

“I should probably make some dinner.” I mumbled to myself, pushing my chair away so that I could go downstairs and cook. Before going, I decided to ask Matthias what he wanted to eat. After all, he’s my visitor. It’s only polite to ask him what he wanted.

“Something edible.” He sardonically answered and it made me roll my eyes at him. I like to specifically asked him what he wanted but he was too busy texting someone.

I shrugged my shoulders before walking out of my room. I climbed down the stairs and went straight to the kitchen to prepare dinner. After thinking for a minute on what to cook, I finally decided to make chicken pasta. I dished out the ingredients out of the fridge to start cooking. I also took out the pot that I needed for the pasta. I filled the pot with water before putting it on the stove to start boiling it.

While cutting the meat that I’ll use for dinner, I was thinking that it was kind of disappointing now that our project was over. There’s no more reason for Matthias to visit my house.

I laughed to myself as I realized what I was thinking. I can’t believe that I’m thinking something like this. Never in my whole life will I think of spending more time with Matthias Blaise. He was mean to me, always teasing me, forcing me to do his stuffs. At the back of my mind, I kept on asking myself why Matthias does these things to me. Unlike the others who hated me for being too smart, Matthias was different. He was smarter than I am. I can’t see his reasons why he was doing all those awful things to me.

And now that I’m starting to know him better, I couldn’t help but to feel something deep for him. A feeling that was foreign to me. I mean it was all too sudden. His shift of attitude towards me was giving me doubts if what he was doing was genuine or not.

But I can feel it was true. I can feel the intensity of his stares every time he looked at me. It was like he was concealing something, trying so hard to hide it away from me.

“Hey.”

My shoulders jolted when Matthias suddenly called my name. I hissed after cutting my finger because Matthias suddenly appeared. “Ouch!”

Matthias marched towards me. “What happened?” He asked as he reached for my hand. He took it, carefully inspecting the wound on my index finger.

“I’m fine. It’s just a small cut.” I said while smiling. The sting was there but it wasn’t really that painful.

“You’re so clumsy.” He muttered. I watched as Matthias guided my wounded finger towards the faucet to wash the blood away.

“Sorry.” After washing my finger, he took out his wallet. “What’re you doing?” I was confused why he was taking his wallet out.

He pulled a piece of Band-Aid inside. “I always carry plasters in my wallet.” He explained.

I stared at him in awe. Woah, I never knew that. He seemed like someone who doesn’t get bothered by small wounds. But he was an assassin. Maybe it was normal for them to carry stuffs like this.

He dried my finger before putting the plaster around it. “There.”

I smiled at him. “Thanks.”

Tomorrow morning, I woke up early to prepare breakfast for my family. It was kind of my responsibility to cook food for them. Sometimes when I’m too tired, Edward was the one who was cooking but most of the time, it was me.

While eating, I saw David, my step-father, walked inside the dining room. David doesn’t have the nicest face because he was always wearing a scowl whenever he sees me but I wouldn’t blame him, really. He was blaming me for killing mom anyway.

He glared at me before sitting down on his usual chair. I stared at him but he only raised his brows. “What’re you waiting for? Get my food.”

I nodded. “S-sorry.” I quickly stood up to get him his food but while I was in the middle of preparing it, Edward walked in as well. I looked at him and like his dad, he was also scowling.

I gave him a brief smile. I was never comfortable whenever the two of them were with me inside the dining room. But I don’t have the right to complain so I just stayed quiet, like I always do.

I put their plates down on the table and they started eating. I sat down on my chair to continue eating my food.

I gulped. The air was excruciating and it felt like every bite I make was close to bringing me to hell.

I struggled to eat my food in silence.

While walking through the corridor of the school building, people kept on bumping my shoulders before breaking into a fit of snicker behind my back. As usual, I stayed silent, afraid that if I step up again, they’ll just end up hurting me.

I stopped in front of my locker to get the things I needed for my first class. After gathering my books I closed the door and turned around to go to my classroom but Harry suddenly appeared in front of me, making me gasped at his sudden appearance. “H-harry?!” I called out his name in shock and he just grinned at me.

“Good morning to you too, Earl!” He cheerfully greeted.

I forced a grin at him. “Do you need anything?” I asked, raising my brows when he remained standing in front of me.

“I was just wondering if you’ve seen Edward.” He said while looking around the corridor.

I creased my brows at him. “Edward? Nope.” We didn’t go to school together so I’m not sure where he was.

Harry pursed his lips in disappointment. “Okay, I see. Thanks!” He winked at me before turning his back on me and skipping away, making me silently wonder why he was looking for my brother.

I opened the door of the room and noticed that every eye were on me. I silently gulped as I ignored their silent glares. I’m used to it anyway – that feeling where everybody inside the room hated you for just being there.

I pulled the chair on my desk and sat on it. I put the books I was carrying neatly on the top of the table. I lazily looked around the room, unconsciously searching for Matthias. When I didn’t see him, I asked myself where he was.

Matthias was supposed to be here. He was never late in any class he have. As much as I want to call him, I don’t have my phone yet.

I don’t have any money yet so I couldn’t buy myself a phone. I guess I’ll just have to wait for another month to get my pay.

I rested my chin on the back of my hand and stared at the scenery outside the window. The sky looked so bright it’s almost blinding me.

Few minutes later and the teacher finally arrived and greeted us with a scowl. I took out the notes out of my bag and started to listen to his lecture.

A few minutes of listening to his explanation on how to get the ratio of that number, I glanced at the door to see if anyone’s coming.

Matthias still wasn’t here. Where could he be? Did something happen?

Couple of minutes passed again and I was tapping my finger on the table, still staring at the door.

My eyes widened when it suddenly opened with a bang. Everyone all looked who the newcomer and was and when they recognized that it was Matthias, some girls squealed at his presence.

I stared at him, feeling my heart loudly beating just from looking at him. As usual, he was wearing something really cool and expensive. Realizing that I was getting mesmerized, I quickly averted my eyes away from him.

“You’re late, Mr. Blaise. Care to explain why?” The teacher asked while glaring at Matthias who casually walked towards his desk. He sat down, putting both his legs on top of the table before glaring back at the teacher.

“It’s none of your business, old man.” He retorted and almost everyone inside the room gaped at him awe. The others chuckled while I looked at him with a worried face.

The teacher puffed in irritation but knowing that he couldn’t fight Matthias and his smart mouth, he decided to just continue his lecture.

I noticed that almost all the eyes that were glaring at me the moment I entered the room were now focused on Matthias. They were all staring at him, probably asking their selves how a person like Matthias exists. I wouldn’t blame them though. Matthias got a face and body where everyone will be tempted to look at.

I heard the girls beside me started to whisper something about Matthias. “Oh my God, he is so hot.” The girl with the brunette hair said and her friend beside her agreed.

She bit her lower lip while looking at Matthias. “Totally! I would die just to have s*x with him.”

“I know right. Just look at that sexy collarbone.”

I made a face after hearing their conversation. Girls these days are too wild, it’s almost scary.

The girl accidentally looked at me and when she saw the my disgusted expression, her face turned sour. “What the f**k are you looking at?”

I blinked at her. “W-what?” Their glares made me pale.

“I forgot that he’s even here. You are so creepy.” I wasn’t sure who said that because I already returned my gaze back on the blackboard.

A few minutes later, I was getting bored in listening to the teacher. I unconsciously looked at Matthias and I found myself more interested in looking at him rather than listening to the lecture. I smiled when I saw that he already put his earphones on. Why the heck was he so smart when he doesn’t even listen to what the teachers were saying?

Oh Matthias, you’re so full of secrets. Dangerous secrets. And I know that learning those secrets will only put me in trouble. But why do I still want to know it?

My heart skipped a beat when Matthias sensed me looking at him. He turned his head to my direction and I saw those piercing cold eyes looked at me like he can see through me.

I was frozen to my seat while we continue to stare at each other. I can’t take my eyes off of him.

I watched as Matthias pull a satisfied smirk before returning back to listening to his music. I sighed in relief. How can Matthias give me this kind of feeling?

I started to remember the things that happened back in their house when I last visited them. I can still feel it. His hands wrapping around my body, clutching me like his life depends on it. I want to savour that moment until the day I die.

I shook my head and tried to focus at what the teacher’s saying.

The sun was setting and everyone was getting ready to go home. I silently walked towards the lockers to return the books I have with me.

I’m so tired. I can’t wait to go home, eat and sleep. I removed my glasses before putting it inside my locker.

I massaged my tired eyes. I still have to go to the optometrist. Maybe I should go now so they could fix my glasses.

After putting my books inside my locker, I glanced at my wristwatch. If I still have the time, I could drop by at the clinic to get new reading glasses.

“Oh, look what we have here. It’s the nerd.” I heard someone talked behind me. Laughter followed but I ignored them. “Going home already? Oh right, you still have lots of things to do, right? Like...doing assignments for us?!”

I turned around to look at them, not even bothering to put my glasses on because I know they’re up to no good. “W-what do you want from me?” I asked while trying to focus my blurred vision. Five people stood behind me but I wasn’t sure who they were.

“Wha – ? Is that Harrison?!”

I heard someone called my name but I didn’t know who it was. “Yeah, it’s me. What do you – ?” I was cut off when someone suddenly talked beside us.

“Hey punks. What do you think you’re doing?” I shifted my gaze to the right after hearing Matthias’ voice. I can sense the danger dripping from his voice and I knew that he’s not in a good mood. “f**k off.”

Without further ado, the people in front of me scampered away from us.

Matthias snorted. “Morons.” He shifted his attention to me, smirking. “You are so hopeless.” He teased while gently poking my forehead.

I creased my brows while pouting at him. My reaction made him laugh.

He stopped his antics and I gasped when he held both of my arms together. He pushed me towards the locker and I felt the hard metal behind my back. “Don’t let those idiots take advantage of you anymore.”

I tried giving him a hard look. “W-what’re you saying?”

Matthias scowled while looking straight into my eyes. “I’m the only one who can do that to you.” His thumb traced my bottom lip and I felt my heart skipped a beat. “Remember that, Nerd.”

I sighed for the nth time. I still can’t get my thoughts off of Matthias. I still didn’t know why he was doing those things to me.

I put the tray down on the table, releasing another confused sigh. I looked around the restaurant and saw the people eating their deserts with smile on their faces. A particular couple caught my attention. They were sitting at the far right corner of the room and it was obvious that they were lovers. The way the guy looked into the girl’s eyes while holding her hand and how the girl smile at him was enough evidence to think that they’re into a relationship.

I wondered what it was like to be in a relationship. All my life, I never got the chance to ask a girl out. There was one time that I liked a certain girl in my class when I was still a freshman. But knowing how low my self-esteem was and how the people treated me, I knew that it’ll be hopeless to chase after her.

“Earl!”

Adam’s call woke me up from my thoughts. I turned around to see him. “Yes?”

He was behind the counter. “The boss wants to talk to you.” He said while c*****g his head to the door behind him.

I finished cleaning the table I was supposed to before going back into the staff room to talk to Mr. Lee. I opened the door only to find Mr. Lee standing in the middle of my co-workers.

“What’s wrong?” I asked as I walked towards them.

Mr. Lee motioned me to come closer. “Jenny here has finally thought of a plan for our new gimmick this season.” He said and we all looked at Jenny who proudly smiled at us.

New gimmick? Oh right, they were planning for a new attraction for the customers this season. I have forgotten about it, thanks to a certain someone who’s occupying my mind all the time.

Mr. Lee pulled the dress he was hiding behind him and everyone looked at him with wide eyes.

“What exactly is that?” Adam’s brows were raised.

“It’s a dress, Adam.” Mr. Lee answered in a dead voice and some of us laughed. “It’ll be the new dress code for our employees here in Ice Cream Alley.”

The girls squealed in delight, probably happy that they can finally wear a cute dress while working.

“How about the guys? Don’t tell me we’re going to wear a damn suit.” Paulo sarcastically asked. I looked at him with a slight smile. He and Adam were the only people in this shop who has the guts to talk back to Mr. Lee.

Mr. Lee smirked at him. “I didn’t say it’s only for the girls.”

We all blinked at him. “Excuse me?”

“This uniform is both for the girls and the boys.” Mr. Lee announced and almost everyone’s eyes budged out of their sockets at what he said.

Adam shook his head in disappointment.

“You’ve got to be kidding me.” Paulo mumbled in a grim voice.

I was only silently listening to them.

“So get into your new uniforms and work out there, kids!”

Adam huffed after he finally put the dress. He turned around to look at us. “This is f*****g stupid.”

I observed the dress on Adam. His bulging muscles were too obvious and his leg hair was visible because of the length of the skirt. I didn’t want to say it but he looked like a transvestite. Not that it’s bad of course, it’s just kind of off because it’s Adam.

Paulo on the other hand, looked amazing with the dress on. He was skinny enough for the dress to perfectly fit his body.

The two of them were standing in front of the mirror, sulking and cursing at Mr. Lee’s idea.

After I finished putting on the dress, I stood behind them to see what I looked like.

Adam and Paulo turned to look at me. “Woah.”

I straightened the skirt while looking at them. “It looks weird, right?” I dejectedly said.

I noticed Adam’s hand twitched.

“Surprisingly, it fits with your personality.” Paulo said while chuckling.

I stared in the mirror. The pink laces around the edges of the skirt, the ribbons and frills. It’s definitely a girls clothing.

“Aren’t you angry you’re forced to wear something like this?” Paulo asked while lifting the skirt like it’s a disgusting trash.

I lowered my head. It’s not like I wanted to wear something like this but I’ve got no other choice. “Not really.”

Someone knocked on the door. “Hey guys, Mr. Lee’s calling us already!”

Adamn grunted. “f**k it. Let’s go.”

I looked at the mirror one last time.

And the image of a lonely person in front of me didn’t changed.

“Oh wow! Is that Earl? You look so cute!” I flushed in embarrassment when a group of elderly women complimented my appearance.

“U-uh...t-thanks a lot.” I lowered my head to hide my face. Talking to people while wearing this kind of dress was really weird.

Mrs. Moore looked at me with her usually worried eyes. “Oh, by the way Earl, we heard a lot of rumors going around.”

I looked at them. “Rumors? What kind of rumors?”

Mrs. Paul frowned while answering my question. “They say there’s a serial killer roaming around this street and he’s targeting young teenage girls.”

Almost all the customers coming here in our shop consisted of high school and college girls and they usually come here after classes. “That’s horrible...” I mumbled and they all agreed.

“You need to be careful too since you always go home late at night.”

What they said made me smile at them. “Thank you. I will.”

Night finally came and it’s time for us to go home. I was busy cleaning the remaining trashes on one of the tables while my co-workers were getting ready to go home.

“Hey Earl, that’s enough.” Mr. Lee said and I nodded at him.

Adam and I entered the locker room together with Paulo. They were talking about a game they were planning to see this weekend. I walked straight towards my cabinet to get change. After taking it my dress off, I pulled my bag out of my locker and closed it afterwards.

I faced Adam and Paulo who were in the middle of taking their clothes off.

“I’m going now.” I informed.

Adam looked at me. “Yeah, be careful out there. I heard there’s a killer on the loose.”

Even though I wasn’t a girl, somehow, what he said scared me a little.

I opened the window to let the breeze enter inside my room. After inhaling some fresh air, I continued to do my assignment. Good thing Matthias stopped those people into forcing me to do their assignments. That only meant that after I finish my own homework, I can finally lie down on my bed and rest.

Half an hour later, I finally finished my assignment. I neatly arranged my notebooks and books before walking towards my bed. I sat on the edge, stretching my sore muscles.

I’ll go to sleep, wake up early tomorrow and look forward to seeing Matthias.

I froze at what I just thought. “I’m the only one who can do that to you. Remember that, Nerd.” What Matthias said this afternoon suddenly echoed in my mind. I instinctively looked at the open window, remembering the time where Matthias appeared to tell me who he really was.

I shook my head to stop myself from recalling the past. “Why?” I covered my face with my hand as I bite my lips in frustration. “Why can’t I stop thinking about you, Matthias?”

You’re seriously making my head hurts. Was this what the call attraction for a person? Or maybe it’s –

I clenched my fist, determined to find out what was happening to me. I scurried towards my computer to research about this thing people called love.

In the middle of my research, I felt the wind on my feet but I ignored it, thinking that it was only a draft coming inside my room. I should probably close it by now but I was too busy searching the Internet what the definition of love was.

Love (noun)

1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3. s****l passion or desire.

4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

I stared at the screen while reading the definition. I know what love was but after my mother died, the word sounded so foreign to me. I never experienced being loved or being in love because of obvious reasons.

I typed another query on the search box. What does it feel to be attracted to someone?

My eyes widened at the result of my search.

“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

I almost jumped out of my chair because someone suddenly spoke behind me, reading the exact same thing on the screen. I turned around only to find Matthias leaning towards me while his eyes were fixated on the computer screen.

“W-w-w-what’re you doing here?!!” I blurted out but Matthias ignored me.

“It’s a quote from Dr. Seuss, isn’t it?” He smirked at me. “Are you having trouble sleeping, Earl?”

I blushed at the tone of his voice. He’s definitely teasing me. “I – I was just killing some time because I was bored.” I mentally scolded myself. I can’t even come up with a believable excuse.

Matthias pulled away from me. “Being in love with someone, ha.” He looked down on me. “Have you even been in love?”

All of a sudden, my heart started to beat a little bit faster. “I don’t know. I’m not really sure what love really is. What about you? Have you ever been in love, Matthias.”

He remained standing behind me, not moving and was just staring deep into my eyes. I felt awkward at first since I’m not really comfortable when people do that but as I struggle to continue staring back at Matthias, I can see that he wasn’t just simply looking at me. He was expressing n an emotion that I couldn’t understand.

“Matthias...?”

“I’ve been in love.”

A chill run down my spine at what he said. I didn’t know why but I felt disappointed all of a sudden. What am I thinking anyway? Of course he’s been in love. There’s a lot of girls wanting to be with Matthias and will do anything just to have him. And among those girls I’m sure there was someone who has caught his attention.

I pressed my lips together to stop myself from exposing my disappointment. “How do you know you’re in love?”

“I always want to be with the person that I love. Every hour, every minute, every second of my life.” Matthias stepped closer to me. “I want to have that person all for myself. I want them to only look at me.” His finger traced my bottom lip. I couldn’t move a muscle as I continue to stare at Matthias’ beautiful cold eyes.

I was expecting that he’ll give me a kiss but he didn’t. He backed away from me to sigh. “Damn it.” He walked towards my bed to lie down. “Fuck.”

My brows creased in worry. “Are you okay?”

“Being tired makes me say stupid things.” He mumbled.

“Do you want me to get you something?” I suggested.

“I don’t want anything.”

I stood up from the chair to see him better. “They why did you come here?”

He bit his lips before covering his face with my pillow. “Do I have to have reason to come in your room?”

I pouted at what he said. “Not necessarily...I think.”

“Then shut up and let me stay here.”

I shook my head, knowing that asking him was hopeless. “Did you eat dinner already?”

“I’m not hungry.” His voice was muffled because of the pillow on his head.

He was lying down on my bed in a really weird yet adorable position and it made me blush to see this new side of Matthias’ personality. I still couldn’t believe that he’s a person who kills other people for money.

“Matthias I – ” I walked towards me but he suddenly raised his hand to stop me.

“Don’t come near me.”

My eyes widened at him. “What? Why?”

“Just don’t.”

I tried to take another step but he suddenly got up from the bed, glaring at me. “I’m telling you don’t come near me.”

“What’s wrong Matthias? Are you alright?”

His face scrunched in pain and he was holding his wrist like he’s stopping himself from doing something.

“W-what’s wrong?! Are you alright?!”

I closed the gap between us but the moment I reached out to him, he grabbed my hand to push me down on the bed.

“Your smell.” He nuzzled my neck and I moaned when the tip of his nose touched the side of my neck.

I paled. Does he think I stink? “S-sorry I – ”

“It’s tempting me.”

My eyes widened in realization. “What?”

He kissed my ear while his hand travelled down to reach my crotch.

“Matthias! What are you doing?!” I shut my eyes, feeling his hand going underneath my pants. “S-stop!” I tried getting his hand off of me but he was too strong.

“I told you not to come near me.” Matthias sucked my neck and I can still feel his hand massaging my crotch. “You don’t know how hard it is for me to stop myself from touching you.”

I cried out when his nail grazed over the head of my c**k. “I – I don’t understand what you’re saying!”

“Just let me do this. Please.” He lifted my shirt to kiss my right n****e. His mouth was hot and it’s making my toes curl in discomfort. “You’re making me crazy, Earl.” I moaned as he talked while still sucking my n****e.

My hand reached down to grab his head. “S-seriously Matthias...stop...I feel really weird!”

Matthias smirked at me. “You seriously want me to stop?”

I gasped when he pull my pants down, revealing my already half-erect p***s. My underwear was stained with pre-c*m and I cried after seeing myself like this.

“W-what’re you doing to me...?” Tears streamed down my face but Matthias only stared at me.

I’m afraid. I really didn’t know what Matthias was doing to me. He kept on doing things that made me confuse, that made me ask myself what my feelings for him really were.

I’m afraid.

I didn’t want to hope for nothing.

Matthias glared at me. “Why are you crying?”

“Because you’re doing these things to me. It’s scaring me.” I honestly answered while wiping the tears in my eyes.

“Don’t be scared.”

I stared at Matthias, wide eyes. “What?”

“Don’t be scared. I won’t hurt you again.”

What’s he talking about? He wouldn’t hurt me anymore? Why?

Matthias smiled at me. “I won’t hurt you again so please...let me touch you.” He leaned down to kiss me on the lips.

I unconsciously closed my eyes while savouring Matthias’ warm lips.

He backed away from me and I saw his eyes looking at me like I’m the most wonderful person in the world.

“Matthias.”

“Don’t be scared. I won’t hurt you again.”

Can I really trust you?

I lifted my arms to hug him. Tears were still falling down from my eyes and I couldn’t seem to stop it.

But it’s weird. I wasn’t crying because I was afraid or because I was scared.

I was crying because I’m happy.

Matthias gently smiled at me. “Earl.” His hands cupped my face and he leaned down to kiss me again.

I let his tongue enter my mouth. The sound of our kisses, our breaths, our moans, it’s flooding my ears. I couldn’t hear anything anymore but our lips dancing with each other.

Matthias pinched my n****e and my body jolted in pain and pleasure. He tweaked it between his rough fingers and I moaned under his touch. It felt painful but I couldn’t stop moaning.

It was a weird sensation but I liked it. No, I loved it.

He rubbed his crotch onto mine and I can feel his member growing huge as he continued humping me. His body was hot and so was mine.

“Matthias.” I huffed while staring into his hazel-brown eyes. It’s so beautiful.

How could a person like him have those beautiful eyes?

A moan escaped Matthias’ mouth and it was like a melody into my ears. I was giving him the same pleasure he was giving me.

I whimpered when he backed away from me to stand up. Realizing that he did it to take his clothes off, I smiled. He pulled his shirt off of him and I gaze at those tantalizing chest and hard abs of his.

“You’re beautiful.” I whispered.

Matthias heard what I said and he chuckled. He didn’t say anything and just took his pants off. He threw it down on the floor while stripping his boxers off.

I bit my lip while staring at his crotch. His c**k was undeniably huge and like mine, it was also hard.

“Stop staring. You’re drooling.” He teased and I flushed.

I tried averting my eyes away from that tempting sight but I couldn’t. “S-sorry.”

Matthias smirked. He bowed down to pull my pants off of me and I smiled while I watched him undress me.

He tosses my pants on the floor and soon, he was taking my briefs off. I shivered after feeling the cold air on my exposed crotch. My c**k sprung out of its restraint and Matthias licked his lips while staring down on my naked body.

He went back on the bed and he pulled me towards him to make me straddle his lap.

“Matthias.” It felt so good to call his name like this.

Matthias kissed me again on the lips. Our kiss was sloppy but I didn’t care.

His fingers found its way back to my c**k. I looked down to look at our members and I can see the difference between our c***s. He wrapped his hands around our members and I moaned when he started stroking it together.

I hummed in pleasure while Matthias continue to pleasure us both. His thumb brushed against my c**k and I threw my head in response.

I wrapped my hands around his neck to pull him closer. My mind became hazy with lust and I couldn’t feel anything anymore but our body drowning in pure ecstasy.

Matthias’ hands began to pick up its speed and I hold onto him, tightly, securely as I readied myself to come. He leaned towards me to capture my lips into another fiery kiss.

He bit my lips and I moaned out loud. “Earl.”

I shut my eyes, his voice vibrating in my ear. My fingers dug into his back but he didn’t complain. “Matthias, I’m going to – ”

He smiled while nipping my bottom lip. “It’s alright. Let go.”

My stomach churned and my legs jolted at my release. My whole body spasm in sheer pleasure, it was too much. I can hear Matthias calling my name as we came together.

After our blissful s****l exercise, as I call it, Matthias remained lying down on the bed while I grab my clothes.

My eyes were getting heavy but I struggled to keep them open. Matthias on the other hand has his arm over his eyes, not even bothered that he’s completely naked on my bed.

“I’m going to the bathroom.” I mumbled. I dragged my feet to the bathroom to clean myself.

I securely closed the door behind me before walking in front of the mirror. I stared at myself and I couldn’t believe what I’m seeing right now.

My hair was messy, my cheeks were flush and my lips were swollen. There were kiss marks on my neck and I flushed after seeing my chest covered with our essence. I quickly took the showerhead to clean myself.

The warm water hit my skin and I felt relax.

I can still feel Matthias’ fingers over my body. What we did was amazing yet I’m still not sure what exactly our relationship was.

We’re doing things that only couples should do.

Does that mean that the of us were – ?

I shook my head to brush away what I was thinking. There’s no way that me, Earl Harrison will have a relationship with the Matthias Blaise.

But what if – what if there’s a chance for us to be lovers?

I was woken up from my thoughts when I heard someone knocking on the door.

“Hey, are you done?” Matthias’ asked behind the door.

“Uh yeah.”

I quickly finished cleaning up so that I could open the door for Matthias. He was standing in front of me, clad in his boxers while scratching his head.

“Sorry.”

Matthias rolled my eyes on me. “How many times are you gonna apologize for nothing?”

“Huh?” I gulped. I wasn’t even aware that I was apologizing that much. “Sorry – ack.” I paled when I apologized again.

He smiled at me. “You’re such a nerd. But I like it.” He kissed me down on the forehead and I swore time stopped the moment he did that.

I was frozen to where I was standing. Matthias was already inside the bathroom but I was still standing in front of the door, lamenting on what he just did.

I clenched my fist. My heart won’t stop beating like I’ve run a marathon. It’s beating too fast. Too fast that it felt like I’m about to die. My face was flushed and it was like my head was in euphoria.

You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

I smiled to myself.