Love after loss

Front rows occupied but that particular sit belongs to a man. He always comes although his new, our eyes clicked a few times as I sang the opening hymn and the closing hymn. I feel uncomfortable sometimes but I disclose it. His indeed a handsome one, I must admit although he always frowns he has that aura. He really is that guy! It just a thought in my head, we can never be a match, not even in my next life, mom will probably want me to marry someone of our class and not this wealthy freak. I won't even allow it or accept it. Accept what ? He even looks married like in his late 40s, he might even have kids of his own, there's no way he would ask me out, but the problem is why is he staring? Do I have mud on my face or what ? It was later she realized she messed up the whole hymn recitation with the repetition of Holy, Holy, Holy, And the last stanza was repeated like 9times. There was confusion in the congregation but everyone went with the flow assuming she was free-styling. And at last church was over and the man disappeared like he wasn't needed anymore or he lost his socializing skills. I could care less what he will do, after-all I don't know him from anywhere. I feel dizzy and I can't stay for the after service choir practice, after all I have evening shift later today. "Agatha," a woman called her name like she had just won the lottery. "What was that freestyle you gave to the hymn ?" - the old woman asked. "Uh- I Uhh-", Agatha stutters hoping for the ground to open and swallow her, she knew she messed up. The woman cuts her off, "I mean it was amazing, superb keep it up girl"! The woman said and left her sight. Agatha brought out a half smile and muttered under her breath, "thank you!" At least her lack of concentration wasn't that bad. She just stood there lost in thoughts, another round of thinking. "what to do ? What to do", she thought to herself and left the church. Her phone rings. "Mom what is the problem again?", she asks her mom. " Alex told me how you messed up in church, lack of concentration huh?" There was a long pause. "I don't want you to be in the choir anymore", her mom sighs. "Mom why?", Agatha's mood changes "Why? Are you getting paid to sing?" Her mom pauses. "Look baby, I don't want you wasting your time on things that won't be beneficial to us and the family. " "But mom it's for God, I'm not supposed to get paid to sing in the choir", Agatha said with a shaky voice. "God will understand, trust me baby, your other job is okay, I and your brother Alex we are looking out for a suitable man for you, not poor not rich, just like....." before her mom could finish the sentence Agatha cuts her off. "I'm 23 for god sake mom, I do not intend to get married not now, not anytime soon, so let me breathe", she hangs up immediately and takes a cab to her apartment that's two streets away from the church. She arrived home in no time, turns on her iPad and continues watching xo kitty season 3 as a phone call disrupts her "me time", It was her colleague Tony. "What's up ?", Tony said. "Chill, you?- "I'm not bad, I called, I wanted to ask if I could take your shift today and you'll take mine tomorrow? My baby mamma was rushed to the hospital so I have to be there for the kid." Tony said. There was a long pause. "I don't think that will be possible, I have to go to my moms, ask Kiki instead". Agatha responded softly. "Already did! She's busy too!" Tony frowned "I'm sorry I wish I could help... Or wait, Your daughter could stay with me at my moms, I'll keep her company", Agatha said. "Oh you can??", Tony said with a little excitement in his voice. "That's not a problem, I hope your baby mamma gets better", she says and hanged up. She continues watching her series until when she heard a spark from outside, she rushes to check it out and sees the outside light "Burnt!" "Everything just keeps going bad, first the tv, then the switch to the....., now the outside bulb", she thought to herself. "I sure damn need a renovation!" She says as her alarm disrupts her thinking. "Evening shift", she muttered as she went straight to change her clothes.