Over Me

Chapter 7

Through all these days here in states far from her I always ended up wondering... about at lot of the things happens here, but I often tell myself that the biggest love, the biggest expression of love that you could possibly give to a loving relative, or partner, or friends is if you really love them deep enough, to even know that you're not the best for them; can you love them deep enough to want the best for them to actually let them go and set them free?

But it is though I know. Setting them free is really tough, because as humans we have this human attachment. We have all these experiences, and all the memories, and all the things, and all the happy times we spend together. And that's part of letting go. And that's why people go through relationships which are like two years, they drag on, they say 'why not try for another year' and three years they drag on and some get married and go 13 years or even 30 years and more. And the. just to be suffering, both be suffering, both be suffocating in this relationship all this time just because they have this human attachment. Not human love. Human attachment.

We always say so boldly it's because we love them so much that's why we cant let them go.

My question really is: Is that really love for them? or is that really love for what you really want right now?

We all go through that moment and it's tough. The art of letting go, it takes practice. But what you'll find is a lot of the time when you let go. You not only set them free, you also set yourself free. When you let go, you clear those space of the old and surely pain would be there. But understand as nature has it there are no storms that last forever and pain is temporary.

Time is the most powerful sources of healing as time passing by and the attention is no longer there. And when the attention is no longer there energy moves. And when energy moves, it clears that space and guess what, it opens up the space for new things that comes into your life. And that's when most of momments happen when you scratch your head and the you look back in time and think, "why I was such an i***t for all that time?"

Next time you should evaluate your love, and then next you should evaluate whether it is really live for the other person or it's actually purely live for what you want. The final question is... do you actually love big enough to have that heart to set them free and set yourself free?

I know nothing will change if I didn't do so.ething yo seg you free. And I actually feel it. deep inside my heart I can't but my brain says I have to. I don't know how do it work together at this situation but... all those statements my brain said is f*****g true. Can somebody teach me how to set a person free?

I feel like I was locked on my own preferences and it is to be with her. Should I kill myself? But no! Oh god Chloe there are so much things to do with your freaking life. this isn't the last and this maybe isn't the hardest. Soon maybe you'll lose everything and the only thing that is left is yourself. Maybe. But they're thing is this wasn't the last decision youll make through your entire life. I'm still young and have many lives although I do believe that life is short. Life has so many battles and setting her free isn't the last.

Rija I know you're there, maybe but, I wish you hear me. In just a week I'll try to made up my mind setting you free. I don't know if this would be good that's why I'm hesitating. But If I won't, you'll be stuck in this cruel world until the end. It's better to finish this quickly to relieve the pain as soon as possible. Time passes by and the pain you left me was bothering me every day. And it is getting worst day by day. Sometimes, although I'm not thinking about it, it's flashing on my mind and... and I can't do anything but to let it bother me. I can't remove it. The thing that how can I let you go is hard but harder it seems when this will take longer.

Behind every moment of adversity in our life, there is a blessing and a lesson. Every moment of those adversity has those things. Pain always leaves a gift. Sometimes breakup is a blessing. See, sometimes you got to get rid of a man. In order for God to give you the man that you really need. You'll just go hang in there. He might have something better for you. Don't worry 'bout the people that God has removed from your life. He saw things you didn't see. And heard the conversations you dint hear, and he saw he made the moves you wouldn't make. And that's it. What did you do when what God gave you the ride in, start coming apart? do you give up hope? do you walk away? I don't want to define success or to ask God to preserve the temporary. See, god had promised to get you there but he didn't say how. And if you're careful, you will put all your energy and, and you will put all of your work into preserving something that God only gave you for a season. God gave something in your life to get your from point A to point B.

The thing you was counted to get you to other side. The job you thought you're retire with, the house you thought you'd have the rest of your life and the storm got it. How many of you lost some stuff on the storm? Lost some people In the store and it made you feel like a failure. It was a temporary blessing. If it was ment to stay, it couldn't leave yohre in love with what you had. And you think that if your life does not retain the shape that you started with, you don't think that it can get you where you're going. I have learned that if your life does not regain the shape that you started with, you don't think that it can get you where you're going. I have learned that every blessing doesn't come to stay. Every friend cannot be your life long friend. And iftheh walkway, don't stand there and cry over what was because if you needed them for the future, they would stay.