A Mate For Each Side

It’s dark and cold. And I am scared. Scared of the dark, of the unknown. My skin feels sticky and my clothes are wet but I do not know what has happened. I just keep on walking. Till my feet ache and I cry no more. When tears are no longer falling. I’m cold. I’m lonely. I’m scared.  I felt my body falling slowly, till I hit the ground. The cold and wet earth froze my bone deeper. I couldn’t move. And my eyes, slowly closes, as I succumb to the darkness.  I woke up again in the middle of the night, remembering yet again that night. The night I nearly died, sometimes I wished I did. I wish this pack had never found me. Or maybe had just left me to die. It would have been better really, I don’t know why they would accept me with open arms only to then use me as their slaves. Every day I have to wake up super early, cook breakfast for the alphas, betas, gammas, deltas, and warriors. The omegas here are also treated badly, but not as bad as me. Dain or Alec, every day would found a flaw in me and beat me, his friends always yelling I am fat, when in fact I could be considered underweight. I have wounds and scars, and bruises everywhere on my body. The marks I have received ever since I was 8. In two days, it would be my birthday. I would finally turn 18, and I will no longer be bound by the pack with the excuse of “I’m a minor” I will leave this hellhole. I just hope that my mate is not from this pack. This will be harder than expected then. But who am I kidding, I don’t even deserve a mate. I’m so useless anyway.  Deciding it was too late to go back to sleep, I went to get a shower in the small room they had given me. The water was cold, I did not have the luxury of a soft warm bed, hot showers, and clean new clothes. Not my bed look too destroy and uncomfy, even my blanket had holes in. my clothes were mostly sewn back together and passed down to me to wear.  I dressed in a black t-shirt with some leggings, it was always my outfit of the day. With a pair of broken shoes. My raven hair in a ponytail. Yeh, my hair was the same color as my wolf’s fur. People often say I look like a witch, well maybe I am, or maybe I am not. I do know not. My skin is very fair, and I am quite sensitive to the sun, unlike all the wolves of the pack that looks tan and can stay for long hours in the blaring sun. so along with a witch, I am cursed as a vampire too. I guess they would speculate it since they have never seen my wolf, and for a normal, you would shift at 18, and 15 if you are an alpha. I shifted at 13. Misty, my wolf, had been talking to me ever since I was 5, ever since I woke up. Because she was present in my mind, my eyes were of the color of the bluest blue ever, almost like a block of bright ice, but dark blue at the same time. It was a beautiful color, really the only thing I loved about myself.  I went down to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. It was quite a large quantity, about 100 bacon, 100 sausages and eggs, enough beans to go around the table, and toast. Soon everyone filled the hall, the Alpha and Luna with their sons, the Betas and their precedent, the Deltas, Gammas, and warriors. Omegas didn't eat there, and that included me. They barely fed me, sometime I would not eat for several days but I am used to it. Once the pack finished, the omegas went on to take the food, feeding themselves and leaving nothing for me. Guess I'll go hungry again, hopefully, there would be some leftover for lunch.  But I was so wrong. Today was one of those intensive training days, where everyone would eat consistently to gain lots of energy for fighting and shifting, so at lunch yet again held no food for her and similar to the evening. I was hungry, but the pain hunger was nonexistent, I was used to often starve. Perhaps one of the reasons why I look so thin, I don't feel so thin thought. Dain makes sure to keep a constant reminder that I am ugly, fat, and useless. One more day and I am out of here. I'll be able to leave this hellhole for my birthday, with no regrets.  Morning soon chirped away, awakening me again, so early in the morning. Tonight at midnight, I will be officially 18....but tonight was also.... the change of Alpha. Alpha Solon had decided to hand over the title to his Dain, and tonight, I would have to be very busy making all the preparation fast. Food, decoration, getting the hall ready for the ceremony. There was a lighter mood in the air, perhaps because there would be a new Alpha soon in this pack. This is good. Between the change between two alphas, there is a moment of stillness when none is in control of the pack when none is bond to the pack; it could be the perfect opportunity to evade a pack and kill the alphas before they fall to power to take over their place, but in this case, it will be easier for me to escape and run away from this pack. I heard that the pass over will be quite late, I am told that the party will be first, to get to know the soon-to-be alpha, they will then have the meal, and about midnight, when I turn 18, the changement will happen.  I'm so lost in thought while cooking that I do not hear when someone is speaking to me behind me. A girl harshly pulls my hair back, with a low hiss I pull away and turn to see one of the omegas. Here everyone treats me badly, even the omegas which are considered the lowest rank of the pack. I'm not sure I'm even an omega if I have shifted so early.  "yes?" I inquired, wanting to know the reason behind interrupting her thoughts.  "Luna Sherie wants to make sure you follow the meals and make sure everything tastes nice. Neighbors pack are to be arriving here, and she wishes for you not to make a fool out of yourself, or embarrass anyone. She wishes for you to stay as far and as hidden as possible not to derange the place with your ugly appearance."  "duly noted" I replied, rolling my eyes when she is not looking. Her warning makes me want to do the opposite, but we both know very well what will happen if I were to disobey. I wish not to have another mark on my body that will take ages to heal, or another bruise to act to my collection, or another unheled bones that hurts sometimes when I move. My weak body and the lack of medical attention made healing quite difficult, and I should be able to heal fast since I am a wolf, but I cannot due to the severity of the abuse I received along the long 10 years I survived here.