The Alpha's Forgotten

Chapter 5

"What's going on?" Katston barged into our little room quickly.

I was sitting on my bed, tears streaming down my face. "I have to go home Katston, I have to leave."

Torka followed quickly behind him. "Katston told me to come. What's wrong Ame?"

I shook my head, burying my face in my hands. "I really want to go home guys, please take me home..."

Katston then approached the bedside and kneeled in front of me. "Ame, why is Alpha Narien mind-linking everyone trying to find you?"

I shrugged my shoulders heavily. "I don't know Katston!" I shouted. "I don't want to see him right now. Please tell him to go away."

"Shit..." Torka muttered. Both Katston and I looked up to him.

"Do not tell me you just told him where she was." Katston said angrily.

Torka's hands flew up. "Sorry, I didn't know what was going on!"

Suddenly there was a knock at the door. My brothers and I sat in silence for a moment, praying that whoever was there would go away.

"Let me in!" Narien's voice commanded from outside the door. "Katston, Torka, she is my mate."

I felt the room freeze. My tears suddenly stopped but the pain I felt in my chest continued. Katston grabbed my face and forced me to look him in the eyes. "What is he talking about?"

I shook my head. "I-I don't know. You know I don't know anything about these things."

Torka bit his bottom lip. "I'm sorry, Ame, I have to." He then reached for the door.

Katston jumped up. "Torka don't you-"

But it was too late. The instant the door was open Narien flew inside the room and stood there with his eyes focused directly on me. I couldn't even look up to meet them, I only knew because I could feel his mesmerizing brown eyes burning holes in the top of my head.

"Could you two please leave?" Narien asked quickly.

Both of my brothers hesitated to move. Torka took a deep breath and muttered another apology to me before slowly moving out of the room. Katston followed behind him, but uttered a threat to his Alpha as he walked by him. I couldn't hear exactly what he said, but I could tell his tone was menacing. When he was gone he shut the door behind him.

Narien sighed heavily. "Could you please look up at me? It hurts to not see you."

I shook my head at his words. "Why can't you just leave me alone?" I asked quietly.

"Because you're my mate." He said plainly.

"I thought you were mateless?" I uttered back.

He sighed. "Yeah, me too. That's clearly not the case though, as you can see."

"How can you barely know me yet try to claim me as your own?" I finally was able to look up at him. His features softened as he saw my tear-stained face and he took a few steps closer to me.

He shut his eyes for a moment, breathing in and out. "I think something happened to me," he began. "I don't know what but I think my belief of being mateless was due to my forgetting of you."

"You still don't remember anything from before though, do you?" I asked sharply.

Narien shook his head. "No, Amethia, I'm sorry. I still can't remember anything."

My heart panged with pain once more. I shook my head in disbelief at the whole scenario. "Narien... I'm still leaving." I said gently, my eyes looking down once more.

"Like hell you're going anywhere!" He exclaimed suddenly.

I jolted back up to look at him. "I don't belong here!" I shouted quickly. "I don't want to be here! I'm just ruining everyone's lives right now but especially yours. If I had never come here then you would've never found me. You would've lived happily with Ithalia!"

"Don't say that!" He responded angrily.

I stood, throwing my backpack to the side. "Why? Because it's the truth? You're just upset that I'm ruining everything you had going for you. Ithalia would've been the perfect Luna! She's strong and beautiful and I'm just an ugly, good-for-nothing, weak human!"

Narien grabbed me and shoved me up against the wall beside us. "S-stop it!" He said, his eyes glaring into my own. "How could you say those things about yourself? Don't you realize how much you mean to me now?"

I slammed my fists against the wall behind me. "Don't you realize how much you meant to me before? And then you forgot! And it hurt! Narien, you were my best friend!"

"You're the one who stopped coming here. You stopped visiting the pack. It was your decision, not your father's, not your brothers', yours." Narien replied.

My eyes widened with shock. "So you do remember?"

Narien shut his eyes, running one hand through his hair. "It's slowly coming back to me. Contact with you seems to help."

"Why did you forget?"

He searched my face for something, I don't know what. "I don't know, Amethia. I wish I could tell you. I wish I knew."

I shook my head. "I don't know what to say," I said quietly.

"Don't say anything." He responded as he pressed his lips to mine. My chest swelled at his touch. The sparks were back again and they were stronger than ever. They must be part of the mate bond because I had never felt this way before. My thoughts suddenly became filled with emotions and thoughts for Narien and Narien only. My hands held his face tightly as his arms curved around my back and held me gently.

When I suddenly realized what I was doing I pushed him away. "D-don't." I said cautiously.

"You can't deny that you felt it too." He spoke gently.

I shook my head, brushing past him. "I feel nothing for you, and I never will." Suddenly my heart hurt at my own words. It was like my brain was betraying my heart and I couldn't stop myself.

"Amethia... Please don't..." He reached towards me but I jumped away before screaming at him to leave.

When he was gone I collapsed on the floor of the room. There was no way that conversation was remotely private and I shook at the thought of everyone in the pack knowing my dirty laundry.

The next two days went by in a blur. I spent the entire day the following day inside of that tiny little room, not daring to step foot even in the hallway for fear of judgement by the other pack members.

The day after that Katston finally woke me up extremely early to grab my bag since he was taking me home. Torka ended up joining us for the drive as well since he'd woken up from all the commotion in our room.

The drive was made mainly in silence. It was only once we pulled into our driveway that tears began to fall uncontrollably down my face.

"Okay, we're finally here." Katston said, letting out a sigh. He then turned to me in the backseat and saw me crying. "What's wrong!?"

Torka also turned around. "Amethia don't cry, we're not that far away!"

Katston flicked his head. "That's not what she's crying about doofus."

"Ow!" Torka exclaimed. "I was just trying to lighten the mood a little."

I wiped my face. "I'm sorry. I wish I could be better for you both and everyone else in the pack."

Katston blinked a few times before responding. "He's... he's really your mate huh?"

I stared Katston in the eyes. "No. He's mateless and is with Ithania."

Torka shook his head. "Amethia we know that you're lying to us."

"I'm not," I muttered in response. "How would I even know anyways. It's not like I have a wolf inside of me telling me these things. I'm just a bog standard normal human being."

"Mom knew," Torka retorted. "At least you have a leg up knowing all about our world. She knew nothing."

I denied it. I didn't want to even think about the possibility at this point. There's no way I was any kind of special. "Thank you both for driving me home."

Both of them looked dejected once more. They really did have the facial expressions of puppies sometimes. I tried to smile to comfort them, but it didn't work very well. We gave awkward car hugs before I stepped out of the car with my things and into our house.

The very first thing I saw was our fresh Monopoly game sitting on the table exactly where we'd left it. As I took the fake money in my hands once more I heard my brothers back out of the driveway and head down the road.

I was alone once again, but for some reason this didn't feel like what I'd wanted and had been waiting for this whole time. Instead of being happy by myself, I felt empty.

NARIEN

When I woke up next to Ithalia I felt my guilt double. I still hadn't told her about Amethia. I needed to do that as soon as possible. But the thought of breaking this poor girl's heart when it had already been broken once made it feel impossible.

I got ready without disturbing the sleeping woman in my bed and stepped outside. Immediately I could tell something was wrong. I mind-linked to my Beta Marsen to confirm my suspicions.

'Is she gone?' I asked him.

'Some of the members said she left with Katston and Torka early this morning, Alpha.' He replied plainly.

'Dammit.' I rubbed my temples.

So that was why I felt uneasy. Amethia had left the pack house like she said she was going to. I desperately didn't want her to leave, she was my mate after all, but I couldn't force her to stay. That would just make her hate me even more.

My mind then drifted to our kiss from the other day and how all I had wanted in that moment was her and her alone. Hearing her say such dreadful things about herself made me want to scoop her in my arms and remind her that she is loved until the day I die. Even when she called herself ugly I felt hurt. In my eyes, she was so beautiful. I recognized that even before I found out she was my mate.

I was pulled out of my thoughts by Ithalia wrapping her arms around my waist. "Good morning darling." She mused softly.

I couldn't stand her touch right now. The thought of another woman touching me sickened me to the stomach. I turned to her, pushing her arms away and spoke despite the fear at the back of my mind. "We need to talk."

Ithalia's eyes widened. "What's... what's wrong?"

I blinked a few times. "I found my mate." I ended up saying very plainly.

Pain and then anger flasher across her eyes. "How can that be?" She asked.

"I felt it. The mate bond when we touched. So, I can't be with you anymore, I'm sorry." I felt like my heart was talking before my brain could think properly about the words I was saying.

Ithalia shook her head. "That can't be... You shouldn't have been able to..." She took a few steps backwards.

What was she saying? I had to know. "What are you talking about Ithalia?" I asked her quickly. "What do you know that I don't?"

"I was mateless, so I asked the Moon Goddess for a blessing, and she gave me you." She said. "Except you were constantly fawning over that stupid little human."

I felt the anger inside of me rise. "What did you do to me?"

She shook her head. "I love you, Narien. Only I could ever be the one to hold you."

I grabbed her by the neck. "What the f**k did you do to me Ithalia?"

She coughed, an evil smirk growing on her lips. "I made her disappear from your life entirely."

I dropped her out of shock, so she quickly took that opportunity to shift into her wolf form and race towards the forest before I could do anything. It took me a moment to gather my composure but when I did I mind-linked Marsen.

'Ithalia did this to me.' I said menacingly.

'What did she do?' He asked in confusion.

'Made me think I was mateless.' I then took off after her, knowing full well where she was headed.

She was going to find Amethia.