Alone

Part 13: Ben

Ben

Dear Ben,

        It was you and always you. I only wish I could speak to you now. I miss your kiss, your touch, and your love. I have nothing but regret in my heart for the way things turned out and all that I've done wrong. Now, all I can think of is how good you always were to me despite how I treated you in the best and the worst times. You were my best friend and I abused that. I have to live with that for the rest of my life now but I hope that when my days are over that I can look you in the eyes and tell you how sorry I really am for everything. You didn't ask for any of this and you sure as hell didn't deserve any of it. You were a good man. I hope you will forgive me for everything that happened. You will always be in my heart now and on my mind. I need you here with me and I'm lost without you. I feel like a foster child endlessly stricken with the feeling that there will never be a place to call home. From the moment you left I felt you here with me now in this bed I lay hoping your ghost will be by my side. You have parted me and I must pay for the agony I put you through. I will live this life in agony until my dying day in hopes I will one day join you in eternity. I want nothing more than to go back to that night and be the woman I know you deserve. I hope you can look down on me and read these words. I Love You Ben

Love now and forevermore,

Sarah