My Rockstar Baby Daddy

Chapter 19 Girl Gossip

POV: Sapphire

"Ah, I can't wait to see you perform tonight." Ella squeals. Lucy let me off early today due to the snow so I'm sitting at home with Ella and Rusty. I have work tonight at the bar. Andrew and Ella are coming to the bar tonight. Andrew sometimes comes around to help out his uncle.

"Girl, you've seen me sing before. It's not that big of a deal. Besides I'm only doing this for the baby." I shrug as if it's no big deal. I don't want anyone to make this a big deal. I love music and singing and playing and writing. I don't want that ever to be tainted for me. Music is fun and should never be seen as a job.

When things you love doing become a job or a chore, they lose their appeal. Hayden is a big star and hearing him mention he had a block only solidified my opinion. I have never had a block. Do you know why? It's because it's not a chore. It's not something I have to do. I'm already walking the line doing this for the bar. I will not allow my boundary ever to be crossed.

"Oh, but it is. This isn't you sitting by the campfire singing camp songs. This is real. You have a gift. I wish I had at least half the talent you do." Ella encourages. "No." I sigh looking at the ground. "Ella, I can't be this famous person you want me to be. I love music as a hobby but not as a job. I'm about to have a baby. Besides, it's bad enough my baby daddy is a rockstar." I tell her.

"Wait, what?" Ella furrows her brows in confusion. Crap, I haven't told her who exactly my baby daddy is. "Well, it turns out my baby daddy, the father of my child, is Hayden Onyx, the lead singer of this band called Glass Tears. I had no idea when I met him." I admit. Ella squeals loudly.

"Are you kidding me?! Hayden Onyx Wilder is YOUR baby daddy! Girl, I love that band. Oh, and he is so hot. That is going to be one good-looking baby with you and him as its parents." Ella jumps around freaking out. "Woah, slow down. Let's keep this between us for now. I don't even know what's going to happen yet." I tell her trying to get her to calm down.

"I get that. I'm sorry for freaking out. I just love them so much. So, are you ever going to give me any details? How was he in bed? How big is he? Is he as hot in person as he is in photos?" She rambles off a bunch of questions. I laugh at her. She will never let this go. Ella is a gossiper. She will gossip all day if you let her.

"Later, right now I have to get ready for work," I promise. "Yeah, speaking of, did I hear right that Josh came into the cafe this morning? One of Andrew's buddies thought he saw Josh there." Ella asks.

I grab some clothes for work and enter the bathroom to change. I leave the door cracked so Ella can hear me. "Yeah, he did. He came to ask me to talk to Mia. He said Mia has changed and misses me. Yeah, right." I told Ella about my entire encounter with Josh this morning.

"Wow, so he really tried to manipulate you into thinking what you did was much worse. You broke up with him making you free to be with whoever you want. Sure the shaming was petty but so what. He deserved it, trying to play you like a fiddle." Ella rants out annoyed. "Also, it's not up to you to go to Mia. She screwed things up. She has no damn reason to be so prideful. That b***h needs to own up to what she did. Mia needs to watch herself." Ella continues.

I agree with everything Ella is saying. I told Josh just as much. "How can he just stand there and justify it all? Why should you have to fight for him? He should be the one begging on his knees for you to take him back. Mia knew he was seeing other girls while he was with you. What makes her so sure he won't do the same to her? Is it because she's putting out? If he's basing all of his relationships on whether or not they will have s*x with him then he needs help." Ella continues on. She really hates Josh's guts right now.

I have to admit Ella does have some good points. Josh was admitting he was wrong only to get me to admit I was wrong. Even if Josh did come begging for me to back I'd never go for it. I would never expose this child to that environment. It's not just about me anymore. I have another life I have to think about now.

"Ella, I know," I tell my friend emerging from the bathroom. I look around for my shoes. "Rusty do you have my shoes again?" I go over to her bed to find her curled up with them. She likes to sleep with my shoes for some reason. "Come see baby. We're about to go." Ella calls Rusty over. Rusty goes to her and lets Ella pet her. Rusty is very friendly but cautious. She doesn't always trust people. I trust her instincts. If Rusty doesn't like them I don't want anything to do with them. Dogs can sense things we can't so I think it's very important that we not only rely on our instincts but theirs too.

I slip my shoes on quickly as I just noticed the time. I need to leave right now if I don't want to be late. "Alright, El, you ready?" I ask grabbing my bag ready to go. "Yeah, let's go," Ella says. "Ok, bye-bye, Rusty. I have to go to work now, I'll see you later. Be a good girl." I tell my dog bye before we go. I like having someone to greet when I get home and someone who cares if I stay or go. I guess it's the need to be needed.