my unfolding life

is this love

STEFFI

slowly i wake up. i still feel very tired i didn't sleep too well the feeling of being watched was there all night i really think all my senses are upset. I took a shower for 2 hours last night to calm myself down a bit. when i got tired i got out of the shower rolled myself in a towel walked to my room there i let myself fall into bed . i was so tired i must have fallen asleep almost immediately because after that i can't remember much more. i was really upset by my own insights i think i need to find out if i am really in love with brian. there is something crazy about me but i see what happens i just let it come to me.

and now i really have to prepare for school . brian would come and pick me up i don't know exactly what time he will be here so i want to be ready earlier than usual.

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BRIAN

I have been watching Steffi for a bit too long last night , now I have to hurry otherwise I have to pick her up in the same clothes as yesterday, that would seem really strange.

as soon as I saw the light go off yesterday I was ready on the roof to listen if I could go in. Once inside I have been watching her all night again. I wonder if this is ever going to bore me or if I ever get enough of her.

I quickly walk to the garage I choose the most inconspicuous car and quickly drive towards Steffi.

the closer i got to steffi's house, the more nervous i became. I really do not understand myself I am already 112 years old and because of this I now only feel 16 years old.

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STEFFI

because off my hurry, I am already done , nice I'm on time, I grab my book and walk towards the front garden on the way I grab my book bag. now i can enjoy reading in the garden until brian comes. i sit in the garden with my book and open it i try to concentrate on the words but for some reason i can't. well I know the reason if I'm completely fair . I see those blue eyes all the time in front of me.

in the distance I see a car coming and I realize that I don't even know what kind of car Brian has. i stare at the car and get very nervous will it be brain? the car stops in front of my house the window opens i look brian in their eyes for a moment i feel lost .than brian smiles and says do you let me wait here all day or something ? i smile and shake my head then i jump up and hurry whit my stuff into the car. it is terribly cold in the car he would probably be used to the cold bay living in alaska. I pull my jacket a little closer than says Brian are sorry are you cold I put the heater on . the rest of the ride to school is quiet and actually a bit akward I keep trying to secretly look at him and breathe in that wonderful scent that the whole car smells like it is his scent it smells like a mix of the beach and the forest very fresh and very powerful I really can't get enough.

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BRIAN

from the moment she got into the car I thought I was going crazy the smell of lilies and vanilla hit my face and the whole ride I couldn't focus on anything but her pounding heart and the blood running through her veins .this feeling is now worse than it was in her room the carspace is smaller she is closer to me and i can't sit as far away from her now as i did during the nights in her room.I've been walking among people for 112 years but this feeling of extreme bloodlust is really new to me. don't get me wrong, I've also had a really hard time keeping everything under control. but this is different i can't control myself i want so badly to taste her blood. I have to focus on something else, the road the houses, everything so as not to think about her. when we arrive at school i quickly jump out of the car to get some fresh air and clear my mind.I quickly walk around the car to open the car door for her. she smiles sweetly at me. I feel so guilty she doesn't even know in how much danger she is in. that if I let myself go for just one moment that she is dead. she's still smiling at me now. but how would she feel about me if she knew I'm a monster. a blood-sucking demon.

I'm kidding myself she should never know this she can never know this. it's way too dangerous for her. I really have to keep her at a distance. if i'm even more fascinated by her if that's even possible then i won't be able to leave at all and i can't stay of course i can't stay. but I really want to stay if I am very honest I never want to leave from her side ever again.