Secrets & lies
902 Words
Kala
My eyes fluttered open, the scent of s*x still filled the room, adoringly those grey eyes looked down on me, a small dimple appeared at the side of his mouth when he grinned down at me.
“Welcome back, little one”
“Hey, you” I smiled back.
His arms still encircled my body, wrapped in his embrace, I was warm and comforted, safe.
“I thought you would have left me”
“Little one, I will never leave you”
“So, you won’t disappear again?”
“Disappear?”
“Yes, when you disappeared for a week”
He went stiff, he didn’t move but the dynamic had changed instantly, well done Kala, honestly a round of applause for ruining every moment that was perfect and turning it to s**t, it was a talent, I should have gotten an award for my foot in my mouth disease by now.
“Fine, I may disappear, but I will always come back”
What did he just say? Did he just admit that he would disappear again? I didn’t want to broach this discussion for this exact reason but how could I deny the big elephant in the room, he clearly didn’t want to tell me of his adventures, and he planned on continuing with them, was I going to just nod and agree like a good submissive? Put up with his secret life and pretend it didn’t bother me?
“That’s good to know, Ryker” I bitterly spoke back.
“What does that mean?”
“Nothing”
I got up, darting out of his grip, I knew what he was going to do, pull me down and try charm me, it wasn’t a hard task, he had a way of drawing you in, pulling you back into the abyss, but I couldn’t live a lie and that’s what he was doing, lying, I stood there a mix of emotions, wanting to run, just to run anywhere, I needed to breathe, I needed to be away from him but then I realised I had no clothes, I chuckled to myself, perfect, I couldn’t even execute a quick escape because he had tore my clothes, once again he had the upper hand.
“Kala!” He screamed at me.
“Kala, will you answer me - “
I slowly turned not daring to look at him, with my eyes planted firmly at my feet, I let out an exasperated sigh.
“I have to go, is there any clothes here?”
“You want to go?”
I nodded, I felt a whoosh of cold air hit my face as he came charging towards me, moving my curls away from my face his touch warmed my entire core, I shivered underneath his touch, he tipped my chin up towards his face.
“Look at me” he commanded; I shook my head.
“Kala, look at me”
This was a fight of the wills and mine were beaten, I slowly looked up into his concerned grey eyes, I thought I’d see anger, but I didn’t, they looked worried, unsure, concerned. He probably thought I was nuts, I felt nuts, what a change of pace from the night before, how did the dynamic change from pleasure to bitterness so quickly? Every moment with Ryker left me feeling bittersweet.
“Why do you want to go?”
“I can’t trust you”
“What?”
“You will disappear again, and I’m supposed to just sit around like a good girl awaiting your arrival while you go do god knows what with god knows who - “
“You don’t know what you’re f*****g talking about”
Ah there it was, the rage, he moved away from me, turning his back on me, stomping around the room like a caveman, he threw a dress on the bed and looked at me with contempt.
“Fine, you want to go, then go”
He didn’t wait for a response, he stormed out of the room, slamming the door behind him, deflated I sat on the bed, I hoped he would open up to me, but my responses had the opposite effect, once again he had left me and once more, I was alone.
I waited for him to come back but he never did.
Three days.
It had been three days since that fateful morning. I missed him but I couldn’t trust him. I desperately wanted to reach out to him, and I almost did but each time that little voice in my head told me it was best this way, I never felt the true aspect of loneliness until he wasn’t in my life, he was like a ghost, you only found him when he wanted you to find him. I wanted to find him always, but he would never open up to me and like he said he would always disappear, it wasn’t the disappearing I had an issue with, it was where he was disappearing and with who.
His secrets and lies consumed my thoughts constantly, secrets and lies had a way of blowing up in your face, he didn’t know it, but I had a secret of my own, a very dangerous secret, I almost reached out, I did, because mine was a deadly secret but nobody could help me, not now, not even him.
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