Meet Me in Secret

Twice in Love

...Time of oneirology and google is up! Now it is time to meet Jon! Today is my most favourite second day of house holiday with Jon. I have thought of some other fun activities that will keep Jon in the mood. I was in the mood but the weather was not. It was a snowy cloudy day. It was cold but I wasn't feeling the cold. I was not there anyway. I was on my way on cloud ten. I was running to go faster to Jon's house. I burned a lot of unnecessary calories. I am thankful for that!

I knocked on the door and Jon's mother showed up. I was on time to go with Jon to the doctor. Jon had an appointment with the doctor. I said "Good Morning" to them and we all went to the car and we headed to the hospital.

The hospital is very close to Jon's house and we arrived at the hospital very quickly. Jon was very nervous about his visit to the doctor. On this visit, he would find out if he has any improvements or not. Fourth we arrived at the hospital. From the air-conditioned environment of the car we got out in the cold air and we entered the hospital afterwards. The hospital was dressed in a Christmas atmosphere. There were colourful lights and the Christmas tree. His father, Mr Toli, helped Jon walk on crutches and we went to see Jon's doctor.

His visit to the doctor did not last long but it seemed to me as if I had been waiting for hours. After he was visited by the doctor, the doctor informed us to enter his office to tell us more about Jon's health condition.

-Then, I have to say some very important things about Jon's condition.- said Jon's doctor.

I could see Jon's enthusiasm and his desire to get good news. He looked like a kitten in those moments. I adored his attitude and his appearance in those moments.

The doctor continued to speak:

-I am very surprised by the results of the control I just did.

-What do you want to say, doctor? -said Jon's father.

-Can you speak more clearly please? -said Mrs Toli afterwards.

-As I told you before that his fracture was serious but now it seems that he has improved tremendously. A fracture of this type is very difficult to heal. It has improved 50% faster than the normal cases of this case. The usual cases need to heal for 6 months but in Jon's case, he is healing fast.

That was wonderful.

This was great news.

From the great enthusiasm I had in those moments I asked the doctor a rhetorical question:

-So Jon will heal soon?

- Yes, Miss. If his recovery continues at this rate, your boyfriend will be able to date you.

What? My boyfriend? How does he know? That he is my boyfriend is known only to my mind and my diary. Anyway. In those moments I felt very embarrassed and looked away from Jon.

-He is not my boyfriend. "He is my best friend," I said, embarrassed by the situation.

Jon smiled. I felt being happy.

After this wonderful news, the doctor prescribed some new medicine to Jon to heal more easily.

-He should come to the next meeting after two weeks and if the healing will be at the same rate we will probably remove the crutches.-the doctor said.

That room, the doctor's office, was today a temple of good news. It was different from last time from where Jon came out bored and pessimistic about life.

It must be that today has started quite well for me, for Jon and everyone. So at least it seems to me.

We came out of the hospital and the whiteness of paradise filled our eyes. It was snowing. It was heavily snowing.

-Wow!-Jon and I said at the same time.

We were quite surprised. Snowing was a surprise after another surprise. Jon was very happy. He preferred to feel the snowflakes, to be covered by them instead of looking at it beyond the car window panes. We took a lot of boomerang photos and videos and then posted them on each other's i********: profile. Jon posted on @jon_toliiii. Then we left for his house and did not enter but became a snowman. I would like to play with snowballs with him but this could not be done in Jon's condition. Then we entered the house and my mobile phone rang. It was Strong ties who called a video call. I picked up the phone and answered. Do you know what I felt in those moments? That I was not jealous of them at all. I was happy to be near Jon. And even during these last days I have thought and decided to express Jon's feelings. I will express my feelings despite the main rule of Strong Ties. I decided to be brave. I have to be brave. This week is my best opportunity to express myself. I hope for the best for me and Jon.

-Hey, what's up? How are you? - I said.

-Very good.-Ben replied.

Then with an enthusiastic voice was heard. It was Silvana and she said:

-Is it snowing there? Tell me! Is still snowing?

-Yes,-Jon replied.

"I would love to be there in these moments," Silvana said.

-How is the weather there?

-This is sunny weather.

We talked together for about half an hour.

After eating lunch and moving to our comfort zone, Jon's room, I told Jon:

-What do you want us to do?

-I do not know. Whatever you want.

-How do you think we see a movie?

"All right," he said.

-Let me choose. Let's watch the movie "Love, Rosie"

-OK then. I'm going to my mom to make some popcorn.

-Okay, - I say-, but I will let you know. Do not get tired.

But he insisted saying he would recover soon. Everything was ready and the movie started.

The plot of the movie was that:

"Rosie and Alex have been friends since childhood and cannot imagine themselves as a couple. However, when they head in different directions, they realise that they are made for each other."

I want to believe that my story with Jon will not be like Rosie and Alex's love story. After watching a one-hour-and-forty-five-minute film, we had a deep conversation.

Jon asked me:

- What would you have done if you were Rosie?

That was a sudden question and I needed some time to answer.

-Well, that's an interesting question. I believe in true love and if I was Rosie I would have told Alex that I was pregnant the day he was accepted at Harvard University.

- Good answer.

- What about you? What would you have done if you were in Alex's shoes?

-It would depend on Rosie's actions.

-You know Jon? I think that if you love that person, learn to wait... maybe you are not meant to be together today but meant to be in future.

After I said that we kept 15-seconds-or-so eye contact. That made me feel like I was really in love with Jon.

I need some help Google.

"Eye contact is a powerful force, if you maintain eye contact for 2 to 7 seconds, it signals a connection and a s****l attraction. To a man, when a woman is staring into his eyes as if he is the only one in the room, it validates him."

So it means I have fallen in love twice with Jon.

#twice in love