Meet Me in Secret

Wordless

We tried to get closer to each other. It was all instinctive. I could not control my body. In those moments those who were operating was the universe and my desire to be as close as possible to Jon.

We were very close. We were approaching at a speed as an old woman walks. This speed I mean was perfectly normal.

Our lips were about 5 inches apart. This distance was decreasing and at a time when I do not know how long it may have lasted but it seemed to me as if time stopped. I do not know how to tell you I was surprised. I forgot to tell you what happened. I am stunned and satisfied. Jon kissed me. I kissed him. We kissed. Is this a good thing? Those seconds were the longest seconds of my life that I had ever experienced so far. I had 1000 question marks on my head. Questions like: How did Joni think? Was it an inappropriate moment? Shouldn't I have expressed my feelings to Jon before? Should I? All I can say despite these questions is that I liked it.

It was a moment of suspense I guess. It just happened. Hesitant, anxious, butterflies, nervous. Afraid you’re gonna mess everything up. It was like when you jump into the pool, it’s like that split second before you hit the water. You do not know what to expect.

The main question is: What will happen next?

I am nervous. Extremely nervous.

I felt drunk. It was magical. I spent a considerable amount of vocabulary words to describe an unforgettable moment.

Jon makes me confused. I do not know exactly how long the kiss lasted but it seemed to me the moment our lips were touched, time stopped. Words were worthless in that moment

We stopped kissing and were looking at each other. In our eyes, there was a surprise, pleasure, happiness, surprise and confusion. The next question is: Who will speak first?

It was Jon. He said this:

- I'm sorry. Forgive me if I embarrassed you. We are friends.

And I, surprised by myself and never expected to say this sentence, said:

-It's okay. I felt good.

"I liked it too," said Jon.

Here I felt some indescribable relief. All these years, I have been overwhelmed by anxiety and I have always wanted to know Jon's feelings towards me. This moment has finally arrived. I am extremely happy.

-Jon, I have to tell you something.

And here my self continues to amaze me. Jon is making me discover some other aspects of my character.

-We have known each other for 3 years, haven't we?

-Yes.

-During this time, some of my feelings for you were born. I started having a crush on you. I still have. But I have never expressed my feelings for you. This is the moment. Jon Toli, I have a crush on you.

A moment of suspense

-I do not know what I can say in these moments. Hana, would you know something about me?

- I'd like to.

- I was in a relationship with many girls just to forget you.

How can a person be surprised so much in such a short time? By the way, I was surprised.

- I don't know what to say,- I answered him.

- So you have been hooking up with a dozen girls just to forget me?-I said.

That's me jealous.

-Hana, you know the rule of "The Strong Ties", don't you?

-I almost forgot. Yeah, the rule is a huge obstacle for us.

But let's think about it later. That's our moment.

It was the time I would say one of those quotes I said to myself while talking to the mirror. The quotes I chose were those:

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I was ready to say all these but I think it is too soon to say these things. So the best moment to say these expressions was in a second moment.

I said to my mind:

-I feel awkward! How does Jon really feel?