The addict mothers side of things although beginning as the lost child...

well I'm sixteen years old and I never thought I'd be where I am today I never thought I'd know my parents or anything cos I didn't think they wanted me at all. I always felt like I was the excluded kid cos my parents have children with other people and im their only child. So let's just get to the point im a child of 2 drug addict parents and my grandparents raised me I never thought I was going to be anything like my mother or father especially but what do you know lets have the story unwind just a little bit more and let's find out who im more like... well so I have always been dealt a pretty crappy hand in life just looking back and im saying this without any kind of empathy just because I know im sixteen and all that but im bout to be 17 and make a change in my life that I can't take back! so I go to drop out of school cos I met a guy off the internet back this is when the yahoo chat rooms was amazing right? haha! well I get withdrawn from school and then I now and getting ready to run away from a little town called thornville ohio to youngstown ohio cos I just wanted to find something better than where I was... well at this point I am already drinking and a recovering cocaine addict for 2 and a half yrs. and thats a story ill be coming back to to fill you in a little bit better about me. Soo... I think running to youngstown is a GREAT idea.. to some guy from the yahoo chat rooms. well let's see here what was I thinking folks? now here it is im partying and living life and I meet this man Jeremy and I decide he is my type he rides bike he has a nice car and truck and he has a place that I would love to have so let's try this well I quit taking my birth control as well cos I couldn't go to the doctor being a run away. so then Jeremy calls my grandmother drunk and tells her his plan to take me to plan parent hood the next day and then he is doing this cos he knew I was pregnant and that I had to do something about the baby. mind you HE KNEW I WAS PREGNANT BEFORE I DID?!?! WHERE THEY DO THAT AT? Once it was for sure he looked at me and said either abortion or im leaving you.