Love isn't Easy

Love is all I have

Hi! I know many of you are writer as well, have it ever happen to you ? like you have a romantic thought over your mind to add in your story but you had a fight with your partner and you are in no mood to pen it down??. Anyway, please do vote and comment and let me know about the story. Thanks

David Pov

As usual I was at club to play basketball with Neil. We are friends from long time, and we have made this routine to play after School and tution every evening as we are getting more busy with studies each year so hour for extra curricular activities for physical and mental health, this what our sports teacher told. I was playing but Neil was late so I walked a bit to watch for him, there I saw him with Sweety and Nancy, I started walking towards them and the next seen I saw I just lost my balanced and stumbled back I hold a wall to support myself I am seeing Sweety is hugging Neil and the next word what she said I just lost all my hope and it shattered my heart.

"Oh Neil, I always knew you are a darling", Sweety said.

Neil hugged her back and Nancy was watching them with admiration as she is happy for her friends who found love. I couldn't bear that anymore I ran back to practice. Why? Why sweety, I thought you like me too, the way you care, the way you look at me I thought its more than friendship, how can I be wrong to know you, why can't I be your darling? I don't know what I will do now, I was thinking to purpose her on the last day of our boards which is two months I didn't want to do it now as it may effect our studies, I should have done it before. Why I was waiting for perfect special. Oh god! I want to break something to ease this heartache.

I saw Neil coming towards me smiling, I never notice they were more than friends . The friend I liked the most I am hating the most now, I just want to wipe out his smile.

"Hey evening dude, What's up? ", Neil said. I just wanted to punch him hard right on his face but I controlled myself.

" You are late" , I just replied burying my anger.

"Yes, just caught up in crazy things", he replied smiling. I just want to destroy everything but I can't blame anyone.It's not that they cheated me. I lost Sweety, I lost my friend I can never be with him the same again, I lost myself, I lost everything. I just wanted to be alone.

"I am going", I said and left club.

Nancy Pov

Today morning I came early, I saw Neil is also early he saw and I can see he is relieved seeing me. He came towards me and we start talking casually. I don't know when I fell in love with him. After what happen with my sis I never thought I would be able to love someone but I did. This is not right thing for me. But the way you talk, your smile, your calmness, I never saw him angry. Even tough I lose my temper he never does. He is such a sweetheart.

Evening in club

Me and Sweety were as usual at club playing badminton. We stop playing and were sitting in a corner as Sweety had this romantic dream yeah that's what she told to share

"You know I saw him in my dream", Sweety said shyly.

"When you don't see him in dream? it's everyday you see, what's new? ", I tease her. She is in love and she share it happily to me. I envy her sometimes I am also in love but I can't share it like her. And I am not going to ever.

" Well it's different today, I saw he was so close to me and we were kissing ", She said shyly covering her eyes and giggling

" What??? Kissing?, who initiated the kiss", I asked her surprised and giggle a little

"Of course David", She said offended

" David ? ", I asked back

" Davidddddd", someone shouted and I got startled and next Sweety screamed so loudly. I saw Neil. I became so nervous. I can talk normally with him when I am alone but if there is third person I don't talk to him especially when it's Sweety I feel she can figured out that I love him so I act rude to him.

They both started yelling in each other. Neil is asking about David, oh god Sweety your secret is at risk. I try to deny it but Sweety being Sweety decided to put Neil into her love matter. I try to stop her but she won't budge. I don't think guys understand girls feelings they just play with it I know I love Neil but after what happened to my sis I have trust issues.

"I know we are too young, but I don't know when and how, is it the way he scolds me when I wear short dresses, or the way he fight with guys who bully me or the way he looks me intently. I know he is arrogant, but I love him that thing in him he takes stand for himself he don't back out to take what is his. I love him", Sweety gave this long 5 minute speech of her love confession.

On the other hand Neil reaction he didn't get what she told, I felt like he is making fun of her feelings so I scold Sweety furiously. It offended Neil and ask to clear him and not to judge him. Sweety told him everything slowly he understood and assure that her secret is save with him. I felt bad I was wrong in judging him I thought he was making fun of her feelings Sweety was so happy and hugged him and he too hugged her back. If I was not in love with Neil before I would have fallen in love with him now. How he is so nice. I watched them in awe their friendship is special. I am not jealous not even a bit I guess I am trusting Neil now. I saw Sweety is very happy I wanted to tease her and ruin her happy bubble as she really irritate with her silly dreams of David so I asked her to share her dreams with her darling Neil it really pissed her and she asked me something which made me numb, "what's in your heart".

Dinner time

When I went home I got to know papa has invited some of his guest for dinner so I started helping mom in making dinner. Yes I love cooking, it's my hobby I like to cook, do house chores I can't sit around like that, if I went to any party or get together I would start serving there also, haha I am funny. we were almost done I heard door bell ring. My dad welcome the guests, after few minutes I saw Aunt I mean Neil Mom is coming to kitchen, then I realised they are the guest. I greet Aunt, she asked few questions about school and studies, I excused myself as I went to dining area to serve refreshments to guest that is Uncle and Neil. I saw Neil is sitting quiet next to his father. Uncle praised me and my father as usual could not stop praising me. I stop him there as I felt conscious you know how awkward it feels when the topic is about us. I am not an extraordinary, we are in School for education so have to score good, I get the privilege of sports and education so I give 100%, and for house chores it's my house as well and we all have responsibility to take care of it and I able to do it so I do it. My dad asked me to take Neil with me as he might be with elders talk. I called him and he followed me. We were sitting next to each in my bed. it's first time we are alone, other time whole gang come together. He was some games in his phone. I love him so much but ?, we are in 10th grade, our parents still consider as kids, but we don't feel kids anymore, we believe we are adult going through so much emotions, having love interest, some of our friends are already into relationship some have bad break up and coping with it. Suddenly I wanted to know what Neil thinks about all this, until yesterday I was so sure my feelings will be buried inside me, I do not want to know what Neil thinks about me or acknowledge my feelings but today's incident I want to know at least what he thinks about love now at our age. I asked him about today's incident as it may be surprised for him about knowing Sweety love for David. He was cool with him, I asked him what he think about love at our age, is it wrong which I think or is it right which Sweety feels. He hold my hand I was startled at first as it is first time someone holding my hand, but I didn't remove it, my heart doesn't allow me to leave his hand. His answers was like a knife crossing my heart, for him it's not wrong to love, there is no age to fall in Love. How can everyone be cool with it I die daily thinking it's wrong. I felt like I will collapsed right now thank god Mom called us for dinner after which he went home.

I was with my dairy to pour my feelings which I cannot share with anyone. The reason I dread to share my feelings for Neil with anyone is my sister, Sarah. Three years ago she fell in love with a guy, when we went to our native village to attend a wedding, there was a young boy. Sarah was 16 and the guy was 17. The guy also came for vacation to his grand father house, he was from another city. They were so in love, the guy would come on her birthday in midnight with cake, flowers, chocolate through window taking so much risk, caring about her, I would watch them in awe as I felt it so romantic. Sarah make sure to come in every holiday to native village sometimes I joined her sometimes I don't, they would planned it accordingly. When Sarah had appeared her 12grade finals she went to native village for holidaying after one month we got a call from grand ma that Sarah is not well and something is wrong , we came to village I saw Sarah had lost weight she was not the same. Mom took her into a room I also joined though I was small but I was matured enough my mom took me as well, Sarah started crying uncontrollable hugging mom, my mom panicked I can see the fear on mom face the constant fear and worry every young girl parents go through I see it on her face she was praying her fear to be wrong but Sarah let out a bitter cry, she said she is pregnant she was just 17 the guy panicked he ditched her, dumped her even refused to admit that it's his child, my sister, her state I couldn't even say what she went through her cry, her anguish I still feel goosebumps when I remember it. Mom was shaken she couldn't accept it she just threw Sarah aside I hold Sarah and hugged her my Mom started slapping her I continue to hug her, I know Sarah did mistake she is wrong I didn't stop mom for slapping her but I didn't left hugging her as well, she did wronged but she has been wronged as well, I had seen her love for that guy how much she loved him more than the abandonment from being pregnant she lost the person she loved the most, she was not even stopping mom she was silently taking slaps after slaps. Moms cry and the commotion gathered people my dad, grand pa, grand ma, all relatives. Mom slumped down crying in the corner Sarah was motionless I was still hugging her, dad trusted her a lot, they never ever had issue when she had boyfriend but pregnancy in young age, out of wedlock. I didn't know how he would take it. My relatives started inquiring, my mom stood up crying and pull Sarah holding her hair from my arm and present her in front of dad, "Your darling daughter had dig a hole to bury herself, she is pregnant and that the dream guy she always gush about abandoned her". When mom said this words crying bitterly holding her head, my father was shocked and shattered by the news. The relatives were watching our family drama. Sarah was not saying a word and crying silently. I felt my family is destroyed our happiness our beautiful happy family is destroyed. I couldn't even feel anger towards Sarah as how mom is showing. All the relatives one by one started insulting making fun of us disguised in sympathy. My grand ma had enough of it she asked everyone to leave and our family retire to room. I went to my parents room and sat next to papa. He saw me and hugged me as if trying to protect me as he could not protect Sarah. We just sat silently till dinner time. In dinner grand pa and grand ma discussed what to do now, they suggested to talk to that guy family they can't just back out like that, but our relatives told the news spread like fire in the whole village and the guy had rumoured that it's not his child and Sarah occasional comes here she is from city it can be any guy from city. We were blank what can we do now? Sarah didn't came for dinner and nobody called her as well. I saw her she was listening everything from the corner. We were at the so called dinner, as we hardly ate eating but no one retire to sleep as sleep was far away from us. Suddenly we heard a commotion from outside, a man in his early thirties came carrying a drenched and unconscious Sarah. My parents rushed to him, he placed Sarah in sofa and told us that Sarah attempted to suicide by jumping in the river luckily he was there and saved her. My father started crying and thanked him. He wave it off and went. We took Sarah in her room and mom massaged her limbs after changing her clothes. I wish no girl to go through what Sarah is going through and no parents to face the day what my parents are. Their first child could have died if the stranger hadn't save her. My mom was crying uncontrollable regretting how she ignored Sarah mental state and slapped her.

Next day we were called by village head man as the news of Sarah pregnancy and attempt to suicide spread over the village. They said it is immoral and against the law and it is defaming village name.Our family was standing there head hung low. Nothing can be more embarrassing and disgracing than this. The villagers asked our family to leave the village to give up our house, land property or sent Sarah to jail as suicide is crime. We didn't say a word, grand pa and grand ma house is here, they were old and are native to here to this place, how can they just leave everything which they had work hard all their life. And Sarah we couldn't even think what to do with her situation. Sarah agreed to go jail. Our family were helpless. We were not super rich people but had led a comfortable life through out having no financial crisis and having helpers around. People like us can be so helpless I don't know what poor people go through. Today was Sarah's birthday how much she had plan for her 18 birthday and what it bought her. The village head man was talking to police and discussion suddenly a car came and everyone stared the car. A man came out. I remember this is the stranger who saved Sarah yesterday, he asked village head man what proof does he have that Sarah attempted Suicide, we were all shocked that we never realised we can fight back to them but the truth of her pregnancy had our hands tight. The village man said he heard some people the stranger demanded proof and witness there were none as he was the sole witness. The village head man had no answers my aunt spoke that he himself was the person who bought her yesterday. We all turned to her when relatives turned against us what can we expect from strangers but here strangers was helping us. The stranger man denied the suicide topic and said something else that she just slipped from the bank of river and he has witness it. The village headman was anger with him and said he can't have a family in vilage whose daughter is immoral character and unmarried pregnant . The stranger shouted what is the problem that she is pregnant or unmarried. Sarah was listening all this having no emotion left inside her. she was half dead. The village head man said both. The stranger went towards Sarah hold her hand and said he will marry her and now no family in village is having a daughter who is unmarried pregnant. I gasps hearing it. My father turned toward the stranger all my family relatives and villagers were shocked. Sarah too was shocked by this. He came towards my father and said, "Sir, if you don't mind I would like to marry her". My father holds his father bow down and cried. Next day itself Sarah was married to him, he was a doctor by profession he was not from village but occasionally comes here for temporary duty. We all came back from village and since back then we didn't went to village. I finished my dairy where I have written all this things and took the latest dairy which I write daily. Today Sweety asked me what's in my heart, "Love is all I have" in my heart for Neil but I would never show it. What Sarah had gone through and what my parents faced because of her mistakes I would never repeat it. My parents still gave me all the freedom despite of relatives accusations I owe to my parents.