Time seemed to have frozen as the weights of those words sink into me, i could feel the bond straining and the pain I and my wolf were feeling.
It felt like my body was immersed into a lava pool, I was finding it difficult to breath or even see.
"Whoa, Odetta, Odetta, Odetta" as the pack erupted in praise for their new Luna, I was struggling to breathe
I could hardly see anything, partly due to the tears threatening to fall or the dizzing migraine I got, heightening all my already heightened senses, I just saw red. All I wanted to do was draw blood.
My feet took me to the center of the crowd, directly facing Lucas,"How could you,Lucas?" The question leave my lips before I could process anything
I could see guilt flash through his face before he schooled his expression; "what are you talking about?” He asked feigning ignorance
“What am I talking about? I'm talking about you choosing someone else for your mate knowing fully well I am alive, that's what I'm talking about” I spat out in anger, by this time the crowd had managed to grow silent, so I knew they were staring at me, but I could care less.
"Wait, you think I'm your mate?" He scoffs looking incredulous “I was only nice to you and you misunderstood my intentions, as you can see, Odetta is my mate”
Those words felt like a slap to my face, here was the man choose for me by he goddess and he with his own hands denies our bond. The fire in my chest burned with so much intensity and as much as I want to claw at him, I hold myself back.
“Wait… you're denying me?” My voice breaks
“I am not denying anything, there simply was nothing there to begin with” he said “I would ignore this disrespectful act as I am in a good mood, but don't you dare cross the line against your Alpha” he growled using the Alpha voice on me
My wolf long heartbroken doesn't put up a fight as she receeds back into my mind, and all that was left in place of the heartbreak was anger, pure seething anger.
“In that case, I, Sophia Orson,” I could see the fear in his eyes, he clearly didn't expect me to do this, but if he wanted to be dishonest, I wouldn't go through the slow burning pain of the rejection, let's just get it over with “reject you,Alpha Lucas of the Blackwood pack, as my mate”
Rejecting the mate bond had never been something to be done so casually especially since its been noted to be fatal for some wolves, not to mention in this case where we had claimed the bond and to suddenly break it would be pure help for me.
As soon as those words left me lips, I saw the whole world turn pitch black and before I gave into the darkness, I could see the smirk On Lucas’s mother and Odetta's faces, they really had won.
I don't know how long I had been out, I woke up to find myself locked up in one of the cells, I was so weak and tired, all I could do was close my eyes as I fell into a deeper slumber.
I don't want to wake up from this sleep, I just want to remain here, I just can't. I feel myself falling deeper and deeper into the darkness, it feels so comforting, it won't hurt me or betray me. Its lonely but I know to expect the loneliness. That's the darkness for you. In the loneliness of the darkness I hear a voice
“You have to wake up my child”
“Who's there?”
“Child, you must wake up”
“Why should I? There's nothing out there for me”
“Your story is just starting my child”
“I-i can't do that”
As the darkness slowly give way for light as I struggle to remain here, I hear the voice once again
“Remember I will always be here for you”
****
I feel someone's hand on my face, lightly tracing my face, its warm and comforting so I lean into the hand, until I remember that scent. I open my eyes and I'm met with the sight of Lucas, I scan my surrounding and realize I am somehow in the hospital.
"You are awake” I could hear the relief in his voice
"What happened to me?" I asked , as I try to sit, I started feeling pain in all parts of my body.
"Hey, don’t ousj yourself” he says as he gently lays me back down “Well” he sighed “you were found unresponsive in the cell and had to be rushed in here for treated"
I take a closer look at him and I finally noticed just how messed up he looked, he had heavy bags under his eyes and he looked ad though he hadn't slept for days. My heart clenched at the sight and all I wanted to do was reach out and comfort him.
“Oh”
“Look Sophia I'm sorry, I didn't mean for things to go this bad” he started “I really was going to announce you as my mate but my mother made it difficult. She had threatened to harm you and i couldn't let that happen”
I had a million thoughts running through my mind but all I could focus on was how I need to escape, but where would I go to? I had no family. My parents died long before I could remember any of them. I was all alone
“Sophia… Please talk to me”
As much as I wanted to say something, to lash out at him, to demand answers, to explain to me, to wake me up from this nightmare, words just couldn't be formed
“Hey hey I'm so sorry, please don't cry” he panicked
I had no idea when I began crying, I guess everything had become too much for me.
I flinch away from him when I felt his hands try to wipe the tears away “Thank you Alpha, but I am fine” I say as plainly as I can
“Soph, please… Don't do this to us” he pleads
I truly have no idea how I fell in love with this man, all I feel right now is disgust, but I need to keep calm
“Alpha, I am sorry for worrying you, but I am fine now” I say, my eyes never leaving my clasped hands on my lap
“Soph stop being difficult” he exasperated “I'm trying here and the least you could do is try and be supportive and stop being dramatic” as he got up from his seat beside the bed, running his hands through he hair as he began pacing around the room
I had never felt anger and disgust so fast for a person as I did for him at that moment. I was being difficult? I who had their mate deny and embarrassed them in public, then had the said mate throw them into the torture cells with no food or water, and wasn't check up on until they were near death. But I was being difficult
“I'm sorry Alpha” I gritted “that was not my intention” I had to bit down my tongue to prevent me from saying anyyelse, I wouldn't give him the liberty of seeing me break down. He won't get a reaction rise out of me
“So this is how you want to play this? Act as though nothing happened? Pretend we didn't love each other? Pretend the past never happened? This is it huh?” he asked and the irritation and venom thick in his voice “I’VE TOLD YOU WHAT HAPPENED WAS BEYOND MY CONTROL, I WAS TRYING TO PROTECT YOU AS MY MATE, AND YOU WHO SHOULD BE BY MY SIDE, BEING UNDERSTANDING AND PATIENT, WANT TO ACT AS THOUGH YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE HURT. WHAT ABOUT ME?”
I didn't say a single word. I just wondered why I fell for this bastard. He always like this, pinning the blame for any inconveniences on me, making me apologize, forcing to have his way even though it's not what I want, like the first time we…
“Sophia I am talking to you!!!” he voice boomed in the room
“I'm sorry Alpha, I would act accordingly” I say barely above a whisper
“Look I'm so sorry Sophia,” he hurriedly began to apologize as he sat back down holding my hands “I'm just so tired and stressed, I didn't mean to yell at you”
He was about to continue speaking before the door swung open and he dropped my hands so fast you'd think I had the plague, I looked up and there was the answer… Odetta had just walked in.
"What's going on here?" She asked, glaring at me.
“Nothing my love" Lucas said as he went up to her side, placing a kiss on her head “Just checking on my pack member”
"You were gone so long I got bored and no one would tell me where you were" she said sweetly turning to him, completely ignoring my presence
"I am sorry darling" hhe kissed her and continued; "I just had to make sure it was nothing contagious or deadly, I'm so sorry for keeping you waiting"
"Was she the creep that try to ruin your announcement?" She asked facing me, disgust clear on her face
“Yeah she is” Lucas said guiltyly, not turning to face me “ The doctor said she was just sick, so I'm sure she wouldn't repeat that anymore"
My heart was just beating so fast, it was obvious from their discussion that they have been in a relationship since, but why is he playing me?
“As long as she knows her place. Anyways you need to spend time with me, come on” she drags him away not sparing a second glance at me
When the they leave, I finally let myself crumble and the waterworks just flow without restriction, I don't know how long I can hold on, I just don't know. And then I close my eyes, falling into a deep sleep.
****
I recovered fairly quick and was assigned to serving as a maid , they made me do all the work the maids are supposed to engage in. As some sort of twisted form of punishment for the scene I caused. Months flew by all in a mess and soon I became a shell of myself.
Thankfully Lucas had avoided me and I kept a respectful distance from him, I didn't want to be entangled with him.
On the days the broken mate bond flares up so badly and I wish to run away, but I just can't. Maybe I'm too weak to leave everything I was so used to or maybe I was keeping hope.
I was cleaning the hallways to the Alpha's office, when I heard my name being mentioned and so I paid closer attention
"You need to get something done, the pack has began to grow wary, it's unheard of for an Alpha and a Luna to take this long to conceive a child" that must be the Alpha mother's voice
"We have tried everything mum, you know how this works" that's Lucas
"Mom, I am tired" that's Odetta's voice, she sounded like she had being crying for a while “it always ends in a miscarriage, I have no idea what to do anymore, my body can't take this anymore” she began to wait and I hear Lucas try to comfort her
“Mom, there's nothing else we can do, it is impossible for non mates to have a child and you know this mom” Lucas said and I can hear how tired he sounds
The room was quite for a moment before his mom spoke up again, “there's still one more option you can try”
“What is it mom? I'm willing to do anything”
“You can get Sophia pregnant and have Odetta pose as the mother”
"What?" I couldn't believe what I heard.