Leading Light Of Dawn

Chapter Two

Saphire's POV:

I was on a mission. You know how they say there's nothing that can stop a woman on a mission? Well the saying is true because nothing, absolutely nothing not even the thousands of students in my way were going to stop me from accomplishing my goal.

The goal? The goal is to find out what the hell Jordan wants from me and what he knows and even more important who he's told!? Can you imagine what would happen if people found out that Starlight is me? My years of hard work that went into staying under the radar down the drain in a heartbeat. Years of planning, years of protection, years of avoiding...all coming to an end way before that can was ready to be opened.

I tried to force myself to think rationally but all thoughts went straight out the window at the thought of my secrecy being compromised. Nobody can find out. Nobody can know that I'm Starlight...or what happened during that incident 2 years ago...

I see my target in sight. Surrounded my his usual group of cronnies. What a bore. If only they knew what everyone really thought of them and by that I mean the general population that isn't looking for a midnight escapade.

"Jordan!"

Ok I probably should have thought this one through because at this current moment about a dozen pair of eyes were staring right at me. Great! There goes staying out of sight.

I decided to play this one off cool. Im more that certain they could all smell the unease coming off of me. Deciding not to make this any worse for myself I try to hurry the situation along.

"Jordan, can I speak to you in private please?"

"Sweetheart! To what do I owe this pleasant surprise?" Already sensing the curious stares I decided better of exposing myself at this point.

"Seriously can we just talk after school. Meet me at the entrance." With that I spun around and waltzed away ignoring the ooo's directed at Jordan

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After school I made a bee line straight for the entrance. The sooner I get this over with the sooner everything can go back to normal.

30 MINUTES later! Here I stood. Still waiting for his highness to make an appearance.

He should know better than to pitch late knowing that if I called him its important but then again I should have known better than to trust him. I should know better than to trust anyone...

Amidst my mental tirade I failed to notice the occasional droplets falling down which very soon after turned into a downpour that competely soaked me as I made my way inside the building. Just my luck!

Like I said...just my luck! Because guess who decides to show their face at a time when I look like a drowned labrador but then again who cares what he thinks.

I stand so deathly still Im afraid the Grimm Reaper my confuse me for someone who really is dead.

Jordan makes his way to the entrance having not noticed me at this point but the fact that hes trying to cover up his deeds by attempting to wipe off the lipstick stains did not go unnoticed by me. Explains what took so long.

I continue to stand there unable to form a coherent word from shivvering so much.

"Sweetheart! What the hell happened to you? I didnt know you had an interest in water sports"

Honestly what did I expect? Him to notice me turning blue and give into his chivalry and give me his jacket? Not a chance! The only thing hes eager to take off are his pants and quite frankly I rather go blind than witness that.

"You are late."

"Sorry sweetheart I got a little caught up dealing with some...uhm business."

I grabbed his pale blue colar stained with satin pink. "Oh its quite evident what BUSINESS you had to take care of! Thank you so much for actually taking into consideration that I may have places to be or that its pouring out or that what I needed to speak to you about was importent! Thank you..." I didnt get a chance to finish my little rant because the next thing I knew my world turned upside down as I was tossed over a shoulder.

"Put me down right now you neanderthal! I wasnt done mister! You are going to be in sooooo much trouble if you dont put me down now!"

"Calm down sweetheart. At the rate you're going at I'm not going to get a word in which is why you're in this position to start of. Now do us both a favour and relax ok. I heard you Im gonna take care of everything promise"

That one had me speechless followed by a fit of laughter bubbling up till I couldnt even breath. Take care of everything he says!? Thats what they all say! That's how I ended up in this predicament to start with. Thats how I ended up having to behave the way I do. I wont make the same mistake again...this time I know better than to believe just words.

I found myself seated in a car seat next effectively cutting off my thoughts as all the warning bells started going off. Why was I in a car!?

"Jordan you have about two nanoseconds to explain what in carnations you think you're doing." I managed to wease out just before my breathing began to become eratic. What a wonderful time for claustrophobia and anxiety to make an appearance.

I felt myself being pulled out of my seat and into a lap. I felt myself being softy rocked and someone counting to 10 over and over again until my breathing calmed down and I was able to look up at whoever had miraculously been able to calm down one of my panic attacks for the first time.

I looked up into Jordans deep brown eyes wondering what I ever did to deserve always landing myself in compromising positions.

"You okay sweetheart? What happened?"

Now that I was ok I felt the familiar fire settling back into my depths. Making itself known by the bitter reply.

" Im not your sweetheart." Jordan just chuckled at me.

"Definitely ok. Even after that experience you wont accept that you need me."

"Right I dont need you. I never have and I never will. Not just you I dont need anyone"

I noticed how his eyes became dull much like my own but chose to ignore it and instead made my way quietly back to my seat. Jordan started the car and drove off without a word spoken between us.

After awhile I decided to at least make sure I wasnt going to get murdered in a desolate forest." Where are we going?"

"Im taking you somewhere special. Somewhere I know you wont be able to run from me. Somewhere I can explain myself. Explain a couple of things to start off explaining why I was late. The truth isnt always complete."

I didnt know what to say to him after that so I just stayed silent and let my thoughts cloud the silence between us.

I dont know how things changed so quickly and I dont know what caused it either. Everything was perfect and then the darkness began to creep in, eliminating the light in its wake. How deep the desire to succumb to it much like the feeling of drowning. You try and fight for just one breath only to eventually give into the feeling of not feeling anymore. Just one breath...so close but so out of reach, the promise of life just a breath away but life means surviving, surviving means fighting, fighting means breaking and breaking means pain. So what do you do? Fight for that breath or give into the darkness?

The answer was given to me as we pulled into a familiar area. I knew then and there that my only option was fighting because he wouldnt let me take the alternative. This was my choice. Fight even if it means breaking in the end.