The Abuse of an Orphaned Luna

weighing the options

I walk back into the kitchen to notice Amara finishing up dishes. My expression must have been soft, because when Amara turned to look at me she gave me a quizzical look.

'Are you OK' she links as she turns towards me.

'Yes Amara, Just a little heated conversation. I'll be fine.'

She turns herself back towards the dishes. I can't tell if she's upset because I didn't tell her what happened or maybe? No she wouldn't eaves drop.

Then she turns and looks at me again.

'Are you sure you don't want to talk about it?'

Had she heard what we said? No, She's knows better than to easy drop. Lucy broke her arm the last time she eaves dropped and that was years ago. I shutter at the the memory. It took months for her to heal.

'No, there's nothing to talk about really' I tell her turning my attention away from her for a minute. I walk to the back door open it and stand in the open doorway to just think to myself.

I just think of how I was the one who's cared for her the last eight years. I have a room adjacent to hers. I requested it. I told the Luna it was for the safety of my Luna , Alpha, and their children. Really, it was for Amara's safety. With the way the Luna was, I wouldn't put it passed her trying to kill Amara in her sleep or as many times as I've caught the twins nosing around down there they could have done something to her. When I first met her she was this frail little thing, with light tan hair and forest green eyes. so full of fear, . When I move to quickly or raise my voice, the fear I saw back then still shines through. Other than that, she always seems like she's just lost in thought or dazed.

She suffered terrible nightmares when she first came here and she has ever since she got here. I asked the Luna to give her something for the nightmares, or something just to help her sleep. She claimed that the shots were supposed to do just that, but they never seemed to work properly. So I took it upon myself to put sleeping medicine into her food at night or her water to help her sleep. I just couldn't handle watching her suffer like that. I know I'm not supposed to care, I'm supposed to hate her because my Luna hates her. I'm supposed to respect my Luna's opinions. Even though I'm more the Alpha's follower than the Lunas, I was the beta. Or, I used to be. I love Amara though as if she was my own daughter. It kills me what I've just subjected her to. I feel like I've completely betrayed her. I've literally delivered her to the wolves. Turned a girl born to rule into nothing more than a breeder. Even though the suggestion does buy us some time, it is still insulting none the less.

I'm so lost in thought I don't even remember walking back in to watch Amara. I realize I'm just standing there looking at her when Marcus links me 'Have the runt clear the table'

"Amara, Clear the table,' I link her. I notice her still pondering what I'm thinking. 'I'll be fine just go clean the dining room, please.'

She never says anything back, she does as she's told. never an argument, never even a look of disgust. She just nods to me and walks out of the room. She'll clean the room then come back in for the night unless, of course, The alpha or Luna have me tell her to do something else before bed. Thinking of the words I just said. Yes I'll be fine. I could just be here and go about my business, become the beta again and never think of her again. But, I can't. I can't do that. I'll be fine, but she won't.

I have to figure out a way to get her out of her. I walk to the small table in the kitchen to sit and think of my options, while Amara cleans the dining room.

I decide to sit at the small table and contemplate my options. Option one would only work if Amara could shift, which we wouldn't know till tomorrow night at midnight. She hasn't heard from her wolf in years and I always wondered if it had anything to do with the medication the Luna makes me give her. Option 2 would only work if my cousin actually listens to me, and if the king thinks it's something worth his attention. This should be she's a Luna For Goddess sake.

Option 1. I sneak her out late at night, and we head north. I have a cousin in the king's favor that could help us but we'd have to get out of this territory without any pack members noticing. The problem with that is, we'd have to run right towards the pack house. If we went around it could take an extra 3 hours. The pack house has atleast 3 miles of land in every direction around it. With the security around it, we'd be found out in a matter of minutes or even less. We'll have to find a way around it. I'm thinking I'd have to go with my 2nd option, it's a little riskier though.

Option2: That's if my cousin would even listen to me. He'd have no choice if I just showed up with the future Luna of the Moon lake pack. I haven't talked to him in years. I doubt he'd even listen if I called. The tricky thing is I have to get a hold of a phone. My privileges were taken away once I was demoted. Then I have to convince my cousin Mikey to listen to me and see if he'll take the matter to the king. But will the king listen? Right now, Marcus and Lucy have control of two packs. One their son's are in charge of (Moon Lake pack)and the other is their own pack( Golden Leaf). With both packs, they have a really good chance of defeating the king if it actually comes down to a fight. Mikey is pretty convincing when he needs to be. But, he'd have to convince the king. I just have to find out how to get a hold of a phone. Then I'll know for sure which option I can go with. I'll try option 2 first. If that doesn't work, then all we'll have is option one. Then one of 2 things will happen. We'll both end up dead, or just me and Amara will be forced to breed with those awful twins and she'll end up dead shortly after. Either way, I have to try. I just hope she forgives me for whatever I have to do and realizes I'm doing it to save her.